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marianas

I don’t want to go to a doctor.

I think I might have a personality disorder or maybe depression but I don’t want to go to the doctor about it. I was in counselling over a year ago and it didn’t help or make anything any better so I’ve been reluctant to seek help again. At the same time though, I know it’s not normal for me to feel this way and I’m failing to cope with it. I just don’t know but I really really don’t want to go to a doctor

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I don’t want to go to a doctor. I think I might have a personality disorder but I don’t want to go to the doctor about it. I was in counselling over a year ago and it didn’t help or make anything any better so I’ve been reluctant to seek help again. At the same time though, I know it’s not normal for me to feel this way and I’m failing to cope with it. I just don’t know but I really really don’t want to go to a doctor

Help me with: Should I start taking my anti-depressants again?

trentlover20 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (6 minutes after post)

Do you have anyone you can talk to about this?

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marianas 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (26 minutes after post)

2 of my friends know I can get down but I don’t really talk to them about it when I’m sober and I never really remember what I’ve said after I’m drunk

Help me with: Should I start taking my anti-depressants again?

trentlover20 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (28 minutes after post)

saoirse wrote:
2 of my friends know I can get down but I don’t really talk to them about it when I’m sober and I never really remember what I’ve said after I’m drunk

This may sound hypocritcal of me because I’m on anti depressants and I’m prone to being a bit miserable most days but drinking when you’re depressed will just make you feel 100 times worse I’ve had many headfucks and breakdowns when I’ve been drunk lol I only drink now when I’m in a good mood or if there’s a party or I’m out on the town. What exactly do you feel down about?

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RickRaven 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (35 minutes after post)

I know it may feel humiliating to consult a doctor and take medication to fix your emotional problems. you may think, these things are only for “insane” people who can not think properly. Or you may not want to talk about things which make you sick/sad/angry etc. with a complete stranger.

Or you may have some other reason. Honestly, because you didn’t tell why you do not want to, i wrote my own reasons which i had years ago.

But the truth is, if you do not seek for a solution with help of a professional psychiatrist, your state may worsen. And believe me, your mind is a double-edged knife. If it gets out of control, it can cause you and/or people around you to suffer.

If you can tell your reasons why not want to consult a doctor, i may help better.

Dragon_Lady 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (35 minutes after post)

Go back to another counselor and try again. And stop drinking.

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marianas 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (38 minutes after post)

I don’t know why I get sad but I do. I think there’s just something not quite right with me

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Dragon_Lady 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (39 minutes after post)

saoirse wrote:
I don’t know why I get sad but I do. I think there’s just something not quite right with me

Best reason in the world to see a doctor. Has it ocurred to you that maybe your reluctance to go is part of your problem?

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marianas 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (44 minutes after post)

Dragon_Lady wrote:
Go back to another counselor and try again. And stop drinking.

I’m not drinking like alcoholic drinking I’m drinking like night out time to get ********* with my friends drinking. I think I’m afraid to go to the doctors in case they tell me I’m okay and that I’m just being dramatic. That’s why I don’t often confide in my friends about this. The two that know I get down have similar issues and I know that while they sympathise they’re just thinking that there are no problems in my life and that I have no reason to be like this. And they’re right

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Dragon_Lady 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (46 minutes after post)

I think I’m afraid to go to the doctors in case they tell me I’m okay and that I’m just being dramatic.
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If they say that, go to another doctor.

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marianas 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (46 minutes after post)

all those stars were supposed to be sihtfaced

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Dragon_Lady 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (47 minutes after post)

I have no reason to be like this. And they’re right
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Clinical depression is like broken bones. There’s no “reason”. Bones break when too much force is applied. Depression happens when chemicals aren’t reacting the way they should.

It has nothing to do with reason.

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RickRaven 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (47 minutes after post)

Then tell us why you think you could have a personality disorder or depression. What makes you think you have a problem? Need more details.

marianas 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (57 minutes after post)

RickRaven wrote:
Then tell us why you think you could have a personality disorder or depression. What makes you think you have a problem? Need more details.

I probably don’t like. It’s just that I get sad a lot and sometimes suicidal. I know I have so many wonderful things and people in my life but I can’t make myself appreciate them like I should. I get a feeling like my soul is weighing me down and a wave of blackness has broken over me and I’m drowning. When that happens I usually just lie in my bed not moving or thinking for a while. I want to open up to people about it but I can’t, it’s like I physically can’t make the words happen. I used to cut too but I stopped about half a year ago and I haven’t really found a substitution for a coping mechanism. I hate everything about myself and honestly if I could I’d be a totally different person. I like to take risks a lot as well and do really stupid stuff that could easily result in me getting injured or killed a lot. Like on a night out I’ll walk home through a dark ally in a rough area, or get in a car with someone drink driving. I don’t know why, it’s like I want something bad to happen

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RickRaven 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 9 minutes after post)

Or maybe by taking risks you are trying to prove something to yourself? maybe you try to prove that, you are strong.

marianas 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 17 minutes after post)

I don’t think that I’d be able to let my family know that I’d been to the doctors about a mental health issue either, my parents at least anyway

Help me with: Should I start taking my anti-depressants again?

mindhealer 34 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 23 minutes after post)

Here’s one online depression support group: http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Depres…
There are a ton of resources there. You could make an account and put some effort into trying to learn and find solutions for yourself there.

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RickRaven 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 27 minutes after post)

It is ok. Just tell me why. Why a mental health issue is different than, say, a kidney issue? or liver issue? if you can find this reason, you may get closer to the real problem.

I think you have a problem with your self-esteem. From your writings apparently you lack of self-worth.

Maybe you did things in the past which now you may regret, or maybe you had bigger plans and you couldn’t achieved yet. Whatever the reasons, now, these things are stuck in your mind and, they make you sad.

You have to face with them. You should make your inner analysis with or without help of a therapist.

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