Why can’t I succeed?
I really want to succeed in life but I feel like I can’t for a number of reasons. Number one, I feel really guilty about my mom having a terrible life which sort of prevents me from trying to lead a better one than she has ever had. No men ever stay with her and now she is pregnant without the father. She has had a number of terrible things happen to her and I feel like I’m just rubbing it in her face if I “go anywhere” in life. Number two, I’m sort of unmotivated, I think I’m depressed, I have anxiety issues and I’ve also been experiencing symptoms of Pure-o (OCD) ever since I was young. My mom always insults me and tells me that I’m not unmotivated, I’m just a lazy fat ***, etc, etc. I went through a few things that I’ll never forget in my life and I feel like they are all stopping me from succeeding. My grades are fine and I know what I want to do after high school but I’m just afraid that I’m going to end up like my mom. (And I don’t want that, yet I also feel bad about it. I love my mom.)
Can someone just tell me why I’m feeling this way?
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