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I’m tired of being me.

I’m sick of feeling sad all the time. I wish I could stop being so alone and feeling lost in life. I’m 26 years old, and I feel like I can’t make my own decisions.

It’s like I’m always living by someone else’s rules. My nagging parents keep telling what to do and how I should live my life. I hate it so much. My boss at work is an obnoxious dictator who makes you bow down and kiss her butt to be on her good side. If you’re on her bad side then you better be prepared to be punished until you obey.

I’m tired of always having to let go and give up on relationships. I’m always wrong about the girls I date. They’re either not interested in me or I wouldn’t have a shot with them in the first place.

I’m tired of not sleeping. I just lie awake sometimes 3 or 4 times a night even when I take sleep tablets. I’m tired of being a pessimist and tired of thinking negative thoughts.

I’m tired of being uncertain about everything. If I can be happy again. I don’t think I’ve felt truly happy in four years. When I smile it feels fake and uncomfortable. When I laugh I feel embarrassed. What is wrong with me? Is this really how I’m going to live out the rest of my life? A life of quiet bitterness and disappointment?

I’ve tried to change myself, but I can’t do it on my own. I need help.

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phoenix.j.ryde offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (30 minutes after post)

you reminded me of me! i made the effort to see a psychiatrist and a psychologist to better understand myself and my behavior. it lifts some burden off of my shoulder knowing myself and how i can better cope with all the things that’s happening around me.

maybe you too can make an appointment with a psychologist to better understand things. you never know the things that you don’t even know about yourself.

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Always griffin offline Verified User (2 years, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 49 minutes after post)

is there a chance you can find another job. i have a boss like that
would bloody yell at me for the stupidest things. But when someone else did it
it was fine. Sometime when i was downstairs at the store she was looking thru the window upstairs and see me crying but never came down to asked, just yelled at me.

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MarlinTheFish offline Verified User (1 year, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (1 hour, 56 minutes after post)

you’re a prisoner, but the walls of this prison are your life, your imagination and your self-esteem. you know what’s wrong, and that’s great, but making change is hard. start off by taking baby steps. a little rebellion here and there. no time like the present. slowly, but surely step outside your comfort zone. court danger. court curiosity. find your pulse. smell the flowers. happiness will not do your bidding, it demands spontaneity. break out of prison. life is a mystery, why aren’t you sherlocking?

eventually, you will need a plan. a list of things to do before you die sort of thing. real and permanent change will require gumption, a plan and a little discipline.

just remember… what have you got to lose? your life already sucks.

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Chi The Cat offline Verified User (5 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (2 hours, 14 minutes after post)

Life is what you make it. If you don’t like your life, make it into something else. It seems impossible to me too but that is how it works.

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Always griffin offline Verified User (2 years, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (11 hours, 51 minutes after post)

Chi The Cat wrote:
Life is what you make it. If you don’t like your life, make it into something else. It seems impossible to me too but that is how it works.

Yoda, is that you ?? So wise

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Chi The Cat offline Verified User (5 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 3 weeks ago (13 hours, 34 minutes after post)

griffin195 wrote:

Chi The Cat wrote:
Life is what you make it. If you don’t like your life, make it into something else. It seems impossible to me too but that is how it works.

Yoda, is that you ?? So wise

I’ve never been compared to Yoda before! What a compliment, thank you :D

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