first time help: EOW freakout :S - Help.com

yes End of world, thought it would be obvious but best to clarify i guess
to be honest, eow anxieties used to be just as concerning as any other means of end of life, but end of world just kinda suddenly became a close reality…that and the idea of growing old enough to reach ego integrity would be nice, would be better to pass from natural causes or even an accident or act of violence, than to have to cluth to your family in terror as the world rocks and sways itself into chaos. We would be lucky to be wiped out in a sudden event, if we survived without medical supplies my youngest daughter will suffer an agonizing death from chronic asthma, we already fight to save her life on a monthly basis.

I’ve been trying to live my life believe me, ive made such drastic choices in the last few years, had many experiences I thought were out of reach for me, but as it stands, death anxiety is not something you can switch off, simply manage, it took many years but i thought id learned to manage it, i guess it doesnt help when you make so many life saving trips to the hospital and often have to cancel plans to tend to life or death, id love to simply go out there and live life to the fullest, but i have some pretty serious barriers stopping me here :(

Have you ever watched such a beautiful young life have to fight over and over again, and now the world is threatening to take away her safe environment, all these weather upsets have seen her asthma soar to the point shes gone from a mild asthmatic to a full blown chronic sufferer … i already know how bad she will have to fight if a natural disaster knocks out our supplies, i know how scared she will be, i know we will only have a matter of days as she struggles for air and we will have to watch helplessly, i never worried this bad before, but now that the weather is showing real signs of threat…

you couldnt have known my barriers, takes some talking to learn them i guess

i should present to mental health tomorrow and seek help, but everytime i say that i avoid it and somehow convince myself its a bad place

I did try to seek help a few months ago, I presented to a private mental health specialist hoping for good treatment if i pay good (mind u im a single mum with only a few hours work and a medical bill pileup) but when i told her i think im suffering stress induced anxiety - my brother had lost his eye and almost his life in a nail gun accident, a guy ive known since i was a kid had a serious accident shattening his shoulder then i was with him when they had to fly surgeons in for post op infection, my younger daughter managed to sustain an injury that was unidentifiable by doctors for 4 days, possible surgery, thankgod she healed without it, now she needs surgery anyway for adenoids, simple procedure but another thing to add to my list and still scary considering her general health, heaps of other stuff as well, all just at the start of this year! first she compared my life to her busy life as her toddler bit her nanny this morning and everything was so hectic….i wish i had a nanny for my kids to bite :( after placing me on medication that made me tired, therefore unable to make the lifesaving dashes to hospital my daughter needs (i stopped taking them a week later at the advice of a social worker who watched me try to focus as i admitted my daughter to emergancy)
im not sure i trust any mental health really

um, mind healer i wasnt refering to any kind of mass hysteria, i never lifted an eyebrow at y2k and i take EOW predictions with such grain of salt that even my kids laugh when a new dooms day rolls around because ive told them how silly it is and even have very logical solutions to help them feel at ease with propoganda.
I’m not talking about hysteria or propogander here, but my own feelings and anxieties, nothing about the mayen calander dooms day comming either, im not part of any hysteria, this is a rfesult of having to repeatedly save my daughters life and knowing that we’ve had a few weather extremes locally that have prevented some people accessing medical supplies… because i suffer from anxiety in general and battled a pre occupation with thoughts of death for many years, new developments have sent me into a little bit of an uncontrollable stir.
I’m not asking that anyone believe the end of world is near, but it is how i am feeling right now, ive never believed we would wittness the earths death in our lifetime, or the pain and torture the human race would suffer as it dies, and its scaring the hell out of me to think that no one can rightly say we will or will not, even scientists are eating their words, upgrading the threat of global warming from hundreds of years to something we will likely at least be wittnessing the beggining of

Anonymous wrote:
I understand what you are saying but you seem to reflect the troubles of others onto yourself. I am sorry about your daughter and all she has been going through. This does not mean all days are bad for you or your family. Nor does it mean the whole of the world is going to hell in a hand basket.
My point is simply this…embrace and cherish the good days. There is much living to be done, even when the sun does not shine…… A kiss is still a kiss and a hug holds the warmth of healing. I hope you get what I am on about.

actually that was very comforting thankyou