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This year has not been going so well for me.
I’m trying to make it better, but I can’t seem to view a future for myself anymore. I had to see a psychologist, drop a class, and switch majors due to depression… so, now, people don’t really look up to me. Well, it was not as if I was good at what I did in the first place… but it was nice having a stable idea on what I wanted to do. I made a lot of friends before all of this had occurred, but afterwards… my self-esteem dropped, and I had this very safe feeling just being on my own. It was better being alone anyway because I seemed to feel very irritable whenever someone would speak with me. I’m 20 years old and currently feel like I’m going through my teenage years because I made myself an outcast… and no longer can relate to people. I live in a small area and have grown up here. People judge… but I can no longer feel the shame of being alone. I feel more at peace with myself, but I do feel terrible knowing that by being alone… I’m losing my train of thought and starting to think that I’m losing the ability to think logically or to even get my point across when time calls for it. My depression is under control, but my idea on who I am doesn’t seem to exist. I basically feel nonexistent.
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