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This year has not been going so well for me.

I’m trying to make it better, but I can’t seem to view a future for myself anymore. I had to see a psychologist, drop a class, and switch majors due to depression… so, now, people don’t really look up to me. Well, it was not as if I was good at what I did in the first place… but it was nice having a stable idea on what I wanted to do. I made a lot of friends before all of this had occurred, but afterwards… my self-esteem dropped, and I had this very safe feeling just being on my own. It was better being alone anyway because I seemed to feel very irritable whenever someone would speak with me. I’m 20 years old and currently feel like I’m going through my teenage years because I made myself an outcast… and no longer can relate to people. I live in a small area and have grown up here. People judge… but I can no longer feel the shame of being alone. I feel more at peace with myself, but I do feel terrible knowing that by being alone… I’m losing my train of thought and starting to think that I’m losing the ability to think logically or to even get my point across when time calls for it. My depression is under control, but my idea on who I am doesn’t seem to exist. I basically feel nonexistent.

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chesire12 offline Verified User (2 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 11 months, 1 week ago (15 minutes after post)

i am also 20 years old, and have battled depression my whole life. feeling like a teenager again is normal, we are still too young to know who we are really, and who we are will always be changing. you dont need to know exactly what you want to do yet, school can be stressful and its most important that you remember it doesnt matter what others think, the way you view yourself will be projected into the world and that in turn will change the way you interact with others and vice versa. its when life gets hard and feels unmanageable that we are given the opportunity to prove to ourselves what we feel we are worth. when we persevere ( no matter happy crappy of f’d up our situation is) we will always come out on top knowing that we were able to give it all we could for what we had to deal with. when we feel good about ourselves others feel good too. and if they dont then they prolly wernt good friends to beguin with. you will feel like you exist again as soon as you start rekindling the things that make you happy. i think more than anything you could use a little vaccation from your dailey life. go out into nature for the weekend or the spa. just take some time to appreciate how special you really are, because most of us dont realize how importnt we are to all of the people in our lives. i hope i was able to help you a little. good luck in the world, and always remember whereever you go be sure to follow your heart.

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