normal help: if i have lived thru Hell, as a child,abused and tortured, only to enlist and go thru hell in vietnam. - Help.com

if i have lived thru Hell, as a child,abused and tortured, only to enlist and go thru hell in vietnam.

Then why cant i adjust and find calming peace in a “normal” livestyle within a sound enviroment of caring loving people? am i hopelessly manic and unworthy of appreciative life reward? i am drowning in an empty ocean called life. i struggle with trying to adjust to my everyday trial and test only to find myself either wanting to strike out or retreat, the manic struggle is worsening with each delima. what saves me if i dont feel God has my best interest?

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Dr. Ralph offline Verified User (4 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 3 minutes after post)

The will to survive. What if there is no God? Push on and do all you can to enjoy each and every day. It may be all you have, make the best of it.

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 31 minutes after post)

I had a very rough childhood as well. And I have suffered from PTSD from my time in law enforcement. I may not understand the depth of the suffering you have gone through, but believe me when I say I at least have an idea of where you are coming from.

I don’t have all the answers. But I can tell you what helped me out. I have always been a person that put something (a cause, a belief etc) ahead of myself. And since you say you enlisted in the military then I think you may be the same way. I have decided to live for family. They are my cause now. I don’t know if that reasoning can help, but I hope it does.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (2 hours, 32 minutes after post)

Addicted to crises, maybe? Have you considered getting some counseling to learn to just be happy at times when life is calm and quiet?

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (5 hours after post)

I sense that you don’t feel worthy of good things in life. When you have something you can enjoy, a little voice inside your head says, “You don’t deserve that. You’re unworthy of good things. You still need to be punished.”

Evict those thoughts from your mind. Know that you are a child of God and that God wants the best for you. It’s people, not God, who have screwed up the world with such things as child abuse and unnecessary wars.

Reconnect with friends and family, and get counseling if necessary. Reconnect with God, also, and find the real purpose for your life!

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