life help: It is all become unfamiliar and alien. - Help.com

supergeek00 wrote:
you’re like me. you need to get out more.

I don’t think we are alike.

*Fairytale* wrote:
don’t stay home and fantasize about every thing,just go out and talk to people.it’s the best way to solve this mood.i was like you but now i’m a freshman

Who told you that I spend my entire time in my room! I was just fishing and canoeing yesterday. I caught two fish and had plenty of fun at that time. I spend a lot of my time outside working, and i am getting a tan from that… The issue is not there..

supergeek00 wrote:
you’re right, we’re completely different but what i meant was you were thinking very deeply, I do that sometimes, and I think you need to be around more people when that happens. I’m not saying you’re a recluss, just when I get into deep thought I need to talk to someone I know or go out and meet people.

Thank you for your explanation and reply. However, the problem is that i am very skeptical about this life that i live in, and for most people this much disbelief is unbearable, hence it is too difficult to discuss with others. I honestly don’t know a single person around me who will think in the same direction as me. You can call me a pessimist, but i might somehow be a realist. I am deeply, to the core of my being confused about our existence and this whole life.

i seek desparity sometimes, because i think it is unfair to turn a blind eye from the reality that befalls others all around the world. When i am enjoying my fishing trip, i can’t help but fall back everynow and then to the scenary of the soon to come future, after the trip. The bordom of everyday life, and responsibility that is true at the end meaningless. The meaning that we have carved up mindlessly through expereince and human nature without having the slightest clue of it or ourselves.

I have reached a point in life where nothing surprises me, and i sometimes think that it would be much easier to just not feel a thing and not sense a thing and to break apart this faculty of logic with a mere death of body…

supergeek00 wrote:
I can attempt to share some of my wisdom with you if you want?

Please do, that is one reason why i posted here.

You know the problem is that when you see a situation from so many different sides, your left wondering whether any of the sides are special in themselves or whether it is our mere connection to them that makes them of significance. Existence is like a prison cell that we are born to. We don’t know any of our past actions or birthplace (nature), we only know that we are living in this confinement. Due to the natural displeasure that comes out of reality, we like to pretend that we live a life of freedom, and that most of who we now are is a product of choice. But it is only true that much of who we are and what we have become is a mere misfortune of life. We did not chose our parents, nor their bad habits, nor their financial status, nor their nationality, nor their addictions and disabilities and genes.

We can sit here and say that all of these are mere barriers that we must transcend, but for what reason, and for what cause. I am not sure what moral is. I know i have it, but it seems to me no more than a product of my own misfortune and my ability to remember my own misfotuns and associate these terrible expereinces with others who i sometimes chose to relate to. Not all people have it. Not all people associate things in the same manner. Not all people relate to the same people.

God seems to be no more then a concept. He has not come down from the heavens to punish the wicked. To the contrary am not even sure that it is even logical to criticize the wicked. We don’t know what expereinces formed their unconcious and their emotional bundle. Logically wicked is sometimes and to an extent just another word that we use to describe something that offends us.

I really don’t know anything. All i know is that this is not a safe world for our childhood. I have more than once been frightfull awaken from my day dreams to this horrible reality. I don’t know if God exist, or if there is a purpose, or if there is right or wrong, or a soul. I have no meaning to ascribe to this life, and for this very reason it is unbearably difficult to even contemplate of hope…

Seven wrote:
You write eloquently. Thank you. Beautiful words. To know people exist in the world who have these thoughts and feelings is reassuring.

Play. The best people to teach us are children. Study how they play. Go and play. Be a child and experience time the way a child absorbed in play experiences time.

God is in you my friend. Whether you like it or not. And it Wont EVER leave you. You have truth. Well done. What a paradox eh?!!!

Heart felt, Thank you friend :)