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I’m physically and emotionally drained from this fight for a better day.

It seems as though my whole life has been marked with bad decisions and getting screwed over by the ones I trusted and/or loved. I put my whole life on hold just to try and make my girlfriend’s (now my ex) better. In the end, the thank I received was her infidelity. Just when I got over that horrible relationship and thought I was in the clearing for a better day, hanging with the wrong crowd got me a DUI (in which I took full responsibility for and am glad no one was physically affected by) 4 years ago. And then to top it off, I had someone who at the time thought was a trustworthy friend screwed my credit up last year from delinquencies on a car I’d leased for him. The ramifications from them still resonate today. I’m not a horrible person. In fact, I’ve always been a nice guy, never screwed anyone over, put everyone before me, and in returned, get screwed over so badly that it affects my future. I’ve been slowly but surely turning my life around and have disassociated myself from ones who have potential to hurt me. I just graduated college and am vigorously seeking an entry level job to start my career. But I have all these negative elements from my past working against me. It’s been an emotional roller coaster ride with these employers and their mind games: false leads to cold shoulders. And it’s slowly eating me away. I understand that at the end of the day, it’s strictly business and they want to choose the best candidate possible (in which, on paper I am not). I’ve been overcome with despair and honestly, am at a crossroad. Not sure what my next move is anymore, if there still is one. I’m tired and lost all hope…

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monkichirmo offline Verified User (3 years, 12 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (17 minutes after post)

it’s hard to face consequences sometimes but we all do it at some point. you’re trying to move your life forward all this time, obviously ’cause you’ve had some reason to think it could be better. and it can. life in itself is the journey you while going wherever it is you’re trying to go. i also hope you realize there’s a huge difference between being a ‘nice guy’ and being a doormat.

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An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (48 minutes after post)

I do realize the difference (and there is a fine line between the two) and I admit, I’ve been a doormat at some point in my life. That’s the old me. I’ve been through too much to still be naive and ignorant today. I am a positive person for the most part but can’t seem to catch that break. And it isn’t like I’m laying around and just hoping for a change. I’m actually doing all that’s in my control to put me at the best position to move on. I’ve always been positive (up until now) no matter how tough it has been. It’s just been very difficult trying to break through. The career/job seeking and its vicious cycle is tiring me by the day.

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Coalesce offline Verified User (4 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 2 minutes after post)

Every success story starts with pounding on hundreds of closed doors… until you find the one that is open. It sucks the big one… but that’s the nature of the beast.

Just keep slapping your head against the wall long enough, and some of the bricks are bound to crumble.

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verge offline Verified User (1 year, 1 month) Long Term User Shouts: 134 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months ago (5 hours, 31 minutes after post)

Don’t lose hope. You have taken control of you life and responsibility for your actions in a very great way. Just keep on moving, the worst is behind you :)

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