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I’m physically and emotionally drained from this fight for a better day.
It seems as though my whole life has been marked with bad decisions and getting screwed over by the ones I trusted and/or loved. I put my whole life on hold just to try and make my girlfriend’s (now my ex) better. In the end, the thank I received was her infidelity. Just when I got over that horrible relationship and thought I was in the clearing for a better day, hanging with the wrong crowd got me a DUI (in which I took full responsibility for and am glad no one was physically affected by) 4 years ago. And then to top it off, I had someone who at the time thought was a trustworthy friend screwed my credit up last year from delinquencies on a car I’d leased for him. The ramifications from them still resonate today. I’m not a horrible person. In fact, I’ve always been a nice guy, never screwed anyone over, put everyone before me, and in returned, get screwed over so badly that it affects my future. I’ve been slowly but surely turning my life around and have disassociated myself from ones who have potential to hurt me. I just graduated college and am vigorously seeking an entry level job to start my career. But I have all these negative elements from my past working against me. It’s been an emotional roller coaster ride with these employers and their mind games: false leads to cold shoulders. And it’s slowly eating me away. I understand that at the end of the day, it’s strictly business and they want to choose the best candidate possible (in which, on paper I am not). I’ve been overcome with despair and honestly, am at a crossroad. Not sure what my next move is anymore, if there still is one. I’m tired and lost all hope…
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