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I lost my wife of 42 years on february 26, 2012.
She was 59 when w got married when she was 17 and I was 21. It was love at first sight. we were married in just a few weeks after meeting one another.
We both worked all our lives and we were a complete team. She leaned on me and I leaned on her. We even got a diovorce early on, but lasted one year and back together for another 32 years. We never stopped loving one another.
we were meant for each other. she was my everything and my only friend I have or how had. i feel totally alone and always emty and lonely inside.
I am renewing my faith in the Lord and my committment. i know I may be kinda selfish, but i feel like my life truly happiness is when i make it to heaven and see my wife again. That is my major sole driving force today. Clearing up my bills whereby my two sons dont have major problems. I can see no happines in life ever again and do not know how another woman would really help. My life with my wife was not about our love life, it was just being with her was all i needed in life. these days are endless and my job is taken on a new meaning. just a job and do enough to leep the job. if I did not have financial concerns I would of already quit and lived out my life the best way I can. when you lose someone as special as she was to me, there are no words can help. Even thiough she has given me plenty signs that she is close by watching over me. I never want her to leave me again. she left me when she passed away, but all i have now is periodically things her spirit does to tell me she is with me. she is all I got, I cannot let her go . and I know her love for me she has nom problem staying close. I belive that is theway it should be. There are some who can move on easy enough, but they may not have the deep love we shared. thanks so much for letting me write this. I trust in the Lord to help me and help all others.
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