Because this is a long story, I’ll try to make it short.
I need help. I need to talk to someone, something. I have a few problems, the worst being my social anxiety. I literally start shaking when I’m in large crowds, and trying to talk to people I don’t know is a huge challenge. Lately, I haven’t been able to even talk to my family about what’s been going on. I just sit in my room almost all day. After events of the last two years of school, I was seriously contemplating suicide. I’m not anymore, but that bit of want is still there. I’ve just generally lost interest in many things I used to love to do. Every day feels like I’m just a robot or something, programmed to do my daily tasks. I also get these streaks of… Not quite sadness, but kind of like it. It’s almost like being sad, but also emotionless. I’m not sure how to describe it. They can go on for anywhere from hours to days.
So, to sum it up, I need help. I need it badly. It’s starting to become a battle to get through every day. It’s getting worse, thinking about going back to the awful school I go to in a few weeks. It nearly breaks me into tears just thinking about being around those people again.
I want to ask for help, but I’m not sure how. I’m just so ashamed. I feel like a freak.
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