suicide help: Because this is a long story, I’ll try to make it short.

CookiezAreYummiez

Because this is a long story, I’ll try to make it short.

I need help. I need to talk to someone, something. I have a few problems, the worst being my social anxiety. I literally start shaking when I’m in large crowds, and trying to talk to people I don’t know is a huge challenge. Lately, I haven’t been able to even talk to my family about what’s been going on. I just sit in my room almost all day. After events of the last two years of school, I was seriously contemplating suicide. I’m not anymore, but that bit of want is still there. I’ve just generally lost interest in many things I used to love to do. Every day feels like I’m just a robot or something, programmed to do my daily tasks. I also get these streaks of… Not quite sadness, but kind of like it. It’s almost like being sad, but also emotionless. I’m not sure how to describe it. They can go on for anywhere from hours to days.

So, to sum it up, I need help. I need it badly. It’s starting to become a battle to get through every day. It’s getting worse, thinking about going back to the awful school I go to in a few weeks. It nearly breaks me into tears just thinking about being around those people again.
I want to ask for help, but I’m not sure how. I’m just so ashamed. I feel like a freak.
Advice?

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AshLynn 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (7 minutes after post)

Being a teen is difficult, the best advice I can give you is talk to the school counselor, it’ll be tough, but he/ she should be able to help you with both the school aspect and the behavioral issues you’re having difficulties with. Keep remindng yourself that getting the talking out of the way will help you in the end. Good luck to you!

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ritz 0 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (27 minutes after post)

do you have ANY friends at all. if so, will they be going to that school? i had the same social anxiety when i was going to school and what i did was try to refreshen a friendship with a current or old friend right be school starts so i will have some to hang out with on the first day. i was absolutely terrified of the first day of school. though, after the 2nd yr of highschool, i started not giving a f***** about what anyone thought.

do you constantly think and worry about what others may be thinking about you?

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verge 134 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (27 minutes after post)

You are not a freak. Don’t be ashamed and please don’t allow yourself to ever contemplate suicide. You should definitely talk to someone. A school counselor like AshLynn suggested could be a great idea, but also some sort of therapist might be able to really help you. Also, you can always talk to us at help.com :)

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10 months, 1 week ago (1 hour, 17 minutes after post)

NEVER lose your hope. I agree. You’re NOT a freak. You’re definitely not the only going through with this. You can work it out.
Try talking to others, and don’t be so paranoid around people.
I know that it seems like they’re all looking at you, but they really don’t care/mind.
Just pretend that you’re NOT in a crowd of people & that you don’t care.
It will help you so much.
HAHA. How to ask for advice?
Anyone.
Counselor.
Friend.
Family.
Just be honest with them.
It’ll come. :)

wil 1 #
An Unknown Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (3 hours, 33 minutes after post)

Therapist. He/she’ll take you through therapy to identify problem thought patterns and give you coping mechanisms to deal with them when they arrive.
What you’re feeling is abnormal behavior, social anxiety at a debilitating scale, but can be changed quite easily with the right help.
If you get help, you won’t have to feel like this forever. But if you don’t get help, it’s highly likely that if you keep sheltering yourself from social interaction, you will never get better.
Good luck.

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An Undisclosed Location | 10 months, 1 week ago (4 hours, 53 minutes after post)

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