friends help: I’m fifteen years old, I’m a girl, and at school - Help.com

when i was your age i had a similar issue, i think what you need to do is go talk to your counselor at school. they may not be equipped to really help you, but they could refer you to some help. when i was like that, i was very depressed, and it sounds like you’re going through the same thing. i only barely got help 2 years ago, so it’s best for you to get help as soon as you can

well you said you didn’t have anyone to talk to, they can be someone you can talk to. and like i said if they can’t help you, they will show you someone who can. waking up in the middle of the night like is definitely something going on, i’ve been dealing with depression and some other things for years and i’ve read and heard and experienced a lot, so if you can’t go see someone right now, you should wait until school starts back up.

and also how you said you smile in front of everyone else, but behind it there’s so much more. that’s what i’ve done for years, so i’m sure there’s something similar going on here.

Much of what you are experiencing is the “storm and stress” of adolescence. You are trying to figure out who you ARE . . . and who you’re going to BE. And, to tell you the truth, there are very few idyllic homes in this world: couples fight. They shouldn’t, but they do. Modern life puts stresses on families like we haven’t had since the Great Depression. Our economy and social fabric is literally disintegrating. Nobody even knows if he or she is going to have a job tomorrow. Anyway . . . YOUR job in the midst of all this turmoil and chaos is to decide what kind of woman you want to be and then work to become that woman: someone with nobility of character, compassion, and a true concern for others. You should have goals you want to achieve. You should realize that when you look for a lifemate, you should not go looking for a messiah or a “charity case,” but an equal whom you can respect and who respects you. Get a good education–not necessarily so you can get a good job, but so you can go into business for yourself. That way nobody can fire you or lay you off.

Finally–find your passion, and you will find your part of the Divine Plan to fulfill!

Everyone is different. Unless your crying at night is causing you severe discomfort or impairment in your daily functioning then you have absolutely nothing to worry about it.
We have a way of finding things we’re looking for, regardless of whether what we’re looking for is really there.
Be careful you don’t fabricate problems where there aren’t any.
I can’t tell you there is a connect with you crying and your family fighting, I don’t have anywhere near enough information to make that call.
If there was a connection, generally your crying would be triggered by thoughts of low self-worth or whatever other reason, triggered by memories of your parents fighting.
But from the information you’ve given, you don’t know why you cry, and your crying isn’t due to any negative emotion. True?
I would search for information on the internet for people sharing similar experiences which might ease your confusion about why you cry.
Good luck.