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I am a teenage girl. I am very social. My circle of friends consists of boys and girls. I have dated boys, Ive been “liked” by boys. My thoughts are, to my knowledge, normal. I make rational decisions, know the difference between right and wrong, real and fantasy, etc. But there’s one thing about me, I have an imaginary boyfriend. This isn’t new. He has existed in my head since I was about 3 years old. Only, back then he of course was not my imaginary boyfriend. It was like he was a fake older brother. I’ve always called him James. He isn’t based off of anyone or anything. He is completely a frigment of my imagination. He has physical features that can not be matched to any real person,and he has friends, a family, and a girlfriend. I call her Brielle. I guess I sort of use her to portray me. But she is nothing like me. When I think about these characters, I don’t communicate with them. It’s like I’m their narrator. Maybe I should write a story. But it’s more than that, I have an emotional attachment to this boy. He isn’t perfect, he has flaws. And I know he isn’t real, but there’s a part of me that hopes he is a real boy that is somewhere else and has no idea that I literally control his whole life. I just wish I could make him real. He is my greatest wish.
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