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Right there with you, Last week i was even planning to take all of my
newly filled prescription. I saw a man today. read my rant
take deep breathes, talk to people here.
They are very helpful
Sending you a Giant Cyber Hug

I’m sorry you’ve been feeling so bad. The important thing is to keep trying. Life is the potential to be happy. You have it. Never give it up. Happiness is worth every misery, so don’t stop trying to outweigh the depression. It is achievable.

Erm, well I’ve been suffering for, years now and been on meds for a while, I have my phases of taking and not taking but one of the main things of not taking and then continuing is your body has to readjust to the effects and during the first few weeks/months the tablets are designed to make your feel worse… Well my ones are, doesn’t make sense really but eventually they kick in and as you’ve seen can help… I would advise to keep on taking them and feel free to talk to me or other people on here, best of luck and hope it helps :D

ORIGINAL POSTER: My biggest problem when it comes to taking them is to remember to take them. The original reason that I stopped was I wasn’t remembering… it was sporadic at best, so I stopped. Now I’m running into the same issue.
And it has just come to my attention that my parents (whom I’m staying with currently) are going to be gone for the next week on vacation.
I’m worried. Before the suicidal thoughts came on so quickly before… I don’t have any other people that can stay with me, or that I can stay with…

Anonymous wrote:
ORIGINAL POSTER: My biggest problem when it comes to taking them is to remember to take them. The original reason that I stopped was I wasn’t remembering… it was sporadic at best, so I stopped. Now I’m running into the same issue.
And it has just come to my attention that my parents (whom I’m staying with currently) are going to be gone for the next week on vacation.
I’m worried. Before the suicidal thoughts came on so quickly before… I don’t have any other people that can stay with me, or that I can stay with…

I know that feeling, I was never up in the morning or was too hurried to remember most of the time but it really messes with a person when that happens…
Don’t think into it, take it a day at a time, I’m not quite sure but talk to whoever you can, even if it is on here…

ORIGINAL POSTER: I think that it is my parents leaving that prompted me to post here tonight…
… I know depression can effect the body, and maybe that is what it is, but ever since I found out I’ve been getting sick too. Physically ill. I hate this feeling, and I just don’t know what to do.

Anonymous wrote:
ORIGINAL POSTER: I think that it is my parents leaving that prompted me to post here tonight…
… I know depression can effect the body, and maybe that is what it is, but ever since I found out I’ve been getting sick too. Physically ill. I hate this feeling, and I just don’t know what to do.

Psychologically when you come to terms with something and accept it your mind and body will act different, it’s amazing how a mind controls the body when it affiliates words and conditions with itself…
Well continue to post, keep yourself occupied elsewhere, maybe a hobby or something, what things do you do in your spare time…

ORIGINAL POSTER: my hobbies include, Table-top-RPG’s (Dungeons & Dragons, etc.) Reading, computer gamming… the usual. I also enjoy fishing, but I’m leery about that. The last time I went fishing when feeling like this, was when I cut my wrist, and I DON’T want to do that.
I have been playing on the computer, almost solid, during my waking hours… I haven’t been able to play any RPG’s for some time, due to all of my friends having moved away for work, or other reasons.

Anonymous wrote:
ORIGINAL POSTER: my hobbies include, Table-top-RPG’s (Dungeons & Dragons, etc.) Reading, computer gamming… the usual. I also enjoy fishing, but I’m leery about that. The last time I went fishing when feeling like this, was when I cut my wrist, and I DON’T want to do that.
I have been playing on the computer, almost solid, during my waking hours… I haven’t been able to play any RPG’s for some time, due to all of my friends having moved away for work, or other reasons.

Ha-ha, fairs, I love gaming and Dungeons and Dragons is awesome :D See that’s a good start but it’s about keeping your mind preoccupied and focus on the positives of life, set goals for yourself… Fishing would be good but if you don’t feel ready to then it doesn’t matter.

ORIGINAL POSTER: I really would like to go fishing… My parents leave tomorrow, and I’ve been trying to talk my dad into going with me today, but no go. I don’t know if I should go by myself while there gone.
I wish I had someone to play Dungeons and Dragons with I’ve been dieing to play. It’s been close to a year now since I’ve played a character.

Anonymous wrote:
ORIGINAL POSTER: I really would like to go fishing… My parents leave tomorrow, and I’ve been trying to talk my dad into going with me today, but no go. I don’t know if I should go by myself while there gone.
I wish I had someone to play Dungeons and Dragons with I’ve been dieing to play. It’s been close to a year now since I’ve played a character.

It’s always a good idea to be out and about, the air gives you time to think, but sometimes it can lead to the wrong train of thought… Try just a walk or something first before going straight to a big day out with yourself.
Ha-ha tell me about it, last time I did was couple years back, me and some people had a big gathering and we managed to have a big game.

ORIGINAL POSTER: my friends and I used to play for a few hours once a week, (our weekly poker game :D) But all of us have had to move for one reason or another and not an option to get together. Since then my dad and I will play occasionally but lately my dad hasn’t wanted to do any gamming. So I’ve gone through and made a campaign for the next time I have to DM. I used to find it enjoyable and rewarding to make a campaign, but after a year of working on it… the luster wears off.

Anonymous wrote:
ORIGINAL POSTER: my friends and I used to play for a few hours once a week, (our weekly poker game :D) But all of us have had to move for one reason or another and not an option to get together. Since then my dad and I will play occasionally but lately my dad hasn’t wanted to do any gamming. So I’ve gone through and made a campaign for the next time I have to DM. I used to find it enjoyable and rewarding to make a campaign, but after a year of working on it… the luster wears off.

Yeah, I think I prefer poker over it, but that’s mainly because most of the people I know can barely the hang of Texas Hold ‘Em… Well maybe it’s time to do something new, keep it as a hobby and an idea but put it to one side, maybe try something you’ve always wanted to, it’s the whole reason I got into becoming a singer/songwriter and learning more about music, for an example, art and creativity are said to aid depression and anxiety.

ORIGINAL POSTER: (although this is negative ) Any of the other things that I wanted to do, require money that I don’t have. The only exception to this is writing. But for that, my psychiatrist has recommended that I don’t do that at the moment. Believe me I have thought about doing other things.

As for remembering to take your medication get one of those plastic containers for pills that have the day on each little box and put your medication in them. That way you can see every day what you need to take and not miss days.

This sounds elmentary but it really is not! It has helped my oldest son who has 3 differant medications he takes everyday. he was always forgetting if he took them and would over take or under take and not know till the end of the month when it was time for his refill.

Just an idea if you aren’t already doing this.
Do you still see your wife and kids? This is messed up that they can prohibit you from living with your Wife and kids…I honestly don’yt get that. Unless something else happened.

Sorry you are feeling scared right now about your parents leaving. Maybe you could schedule sometime while they are gone to see your kids and keep yourself busy while they are gone. We will be here on help if you need someone to talk with. You can do a post or shout at us……Smile ok….you will be fine and they will be back before you know it!

Anonymous wrote:
ORIGINAL POSTER: (although this is negative ) Any of the other things that I wanted to do, require money that I don’t have. The only exception to this is writing. But for that, my psychiatrist has recommended that I don’t do that at the moment. Believe me I have thought about doing other things.

Recommended against writing?.. I suppose if that’s what you have been advised.. I know, money sucks but there are things to do for free, you just have to decide on things you like, or for heading towards goals you want to achieve in life.

ORIGINAL POSTER: I have tried using the plastic containers, but my problem, isn’t remembering if I have or have not taken the meds, it is completely forgetting to take them. It didn’t make a difference what container the pills were in.
I do see my wife and kids as often as possible, however my visits have to be supervised by my parents… And unfortunately they can keep me out, as “pre-emptive, protective measures” Until I have this counselling that they want I’m a “danger” to my family. I talked to a lawyer about it and I could fight it but they would take the kids until the courts finalized the decision. So it is better to have me at my parents and our kids at home. One parent is better than none.

Bamby wrote:

Anonymous wrote:
ORIGINAL POSTER: (although this is negative ) Any of the other things that I wanted to do, require money that I don’t have. The only exception to this is writing. But for that, my psychiatrist has recommended that I don’t do that at the moment. Believe me I have thought about doing other things.

Recommended against writing?.. I suppose if that’s what you have been advised.. I know, money sucks but there are things to do for free, you just have to decide on things you like, or for heading towards goals you want to achieve in life.

ORIGINAL POSTER: I just don’t know… I’ve even taken to embroidery to pass the time… I don’t know…

Anonymous wrote:

Bamby wrote:

Anonymous wrote:
ORIGINAL POSTER: (although this is negative ) Any of the other things that I wanted to do, require money that I don’t have. The only exception to this is writing. But for that, my psychiatrist has recommended that I don’t do that at the moment. Believe me I have thought about doing other things.

Recommended against writing?.. I suppose if that’s what you have been advised.. I know, money sucks but there are things to do for free, you just have to decide on things you like, or for heading towards goals you want to achieve in life.

ORIGINAL POSTER: I just don’t know… I’ve even taken to embroidery to pass the time… I don’t know…

It’s difficult and it’s something that you have to deal with yourself in whatever way you feel is right… It’s hard to stay positive but it’s what you have to do and taking your meds xD

ORIGINAL POSTER: As for the not writing, it was because the writing was noticeably worsening my depression.
If you would like I’ll post a link to some of my published work. (from before my depression)

Anonymous wrote:
ORIGINAL POSTER: As for the not writing, it was because the writing was noticeably worsening my depression.
If you would like I’ll post a link to some of my published work. (from before my depression)

I see where you are coming from with that…

ORIGINAL POSTER: my journaling was what really did it, but as all my writing related to, and affected my moods, the dr. said to stop.

Anonymous wrote:
ORIGINAL POSTER: my journaling was what really did it, but as all my writing related to, and affected my moods, the dr. said to stop.

Maybe it is for the best, for the time being that is.

ORIGINAL POSTER: I’m thinking so. I truly hope that it isn’t a permanent end to writing. I quite liked writing, both poetry, and short stories.

What do you lack?

ORIGINAL POSTER: What?

good night for now. and Thank you.

ORIGINAL POSTER: so my parents have left for their holidays.

Anonymous wrote:
good night for now. and Thank you.

Hope you had a better day today.
i’m doing a little better, Did you get to read my rant
it really makes you stop & think

Got to work now :( not really glad to have a job
most of the people are nice & the mean chick quit :)

Giant Cyber Hugs headed your way

Anonymous wrote:
ORIGINAL POSTER: I have tried using the plastic containers, but my problem, isn’t remembering if I have or have not taken the meds, it is completely forgetting to take them. It didn’t make a difference what container the pills were in.
I do see my wife and kids as often as possible, however my visits have to be supervised by my parents… And unfortunately they can keep me out, as “pre-emptive, protective measures” Until I have this counselling that they want I’m a “danger” to my family. I talked to a lawyer about it and I could fight it but they would take the kids until the courts finalized the decision. So it is better to have me at my parents and our kids at home. One parent is better than none.

I see! What about putting them in the bathroom and put a BIG SIGN on the mirrow reminding you….then have them in the plastic container so every time you look in the mirrow you can see if you took them or not!

This is more of a common thing then many realize so I do understand! Maybe try the mirrow thing and see if that works for you!

I respect what you are doing to keep your kids from being taken away from both parent’s but it is still messed up! Do you feel your a danger to your wife and kids if you living were with them?

Do you live in the States?

Hope you have a nice day and look forward to hearing back from you!

nolateri wrote:
I see! What about putting them in the bathroom and put a BIG SIGN on the mirrow reminding you….then have them in the plastic container so every time you look in the mirrow you can see if you took them or not!

This is more of a common thing then many realize so I do understand! Maybe try the mirrow thing and see if that works for you!

I respect what you are doing to keep your kids from being taken away from both parent’s but it is still messed up! Do you feel your a danger to your wife and kids if you living were with them?

Do you live in the States?

Hope you have a nice day and look forward to hearing back from you!

ORIGINAL POSTER: I will try the mirror thing.

As for my kids, No there has never been any concern from me, or any in my family (immediate or extended) about a threat to them.
And no I live in Canada

Well I’m not sure how it works in Canada with the child service’s there. I do know in the States it’s pretty messed up. It’s almost like someone created an agency gave them power and no one monitor’s or regulates what they do. I’m very serious about this.

You need to do everything possible to get your rights back with your family and get out of the system asap! This really makes me ANGRY not to many things get me seriously upset…and this bs does!

When I lived in California I helped so many family’s fight to get their rights back after child protective services got involved and made their life’s a living nightmare. It was honestly criminal what these ppl did that worked for the service. And they get paid to do this to us with our tax money.

If you have an Attorney that will help you do it then use them to do this!

I’m sorry you have this to deal with…..!

ORIGINAL POSTER: It is the same in Canada. CAS (Children’s Aid Society) has no overseeing agency, other than the courts. And as I said CAS will take the kids while the issue is in court.
My lawyer told me that once I go through the counsiling (and been cleared) that if they refuse to let me home there will be options that don’t involve losing my kids.