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i hate that i like someone who doesnt know i exist!

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ok, since i first saw this person, i have liked noone else.
ive liked him for 4 years and he doesnt even know it.. but he could probebly have anyone he wanted, he is so kind hearted, he helps people, he listens to his friends.. hes perfect not to mention he is FIT!! hes kind of shy, so he is not the type to make the first move… i think. every time i do see him, my heart is beating so fast, i feel weak (almost light-headed), and i cant help but look no matter how much i dont want to. But i dont think he likes me at all.. i start to get down when i think about how he doesnt like me.. i am really shy and it took alot for me to add him on facebook but he declined it :( (this was about 3 years ago.. but stll!) and im scared if i try again i will get the same result, he has a routine he does every day.. that he goes to the shop, crosses the road and then goes of with his friends, but one of my friends dragged me to the shop, but that day he went to his friends and he croosed the road to go to the shop as we were crossing the road (like he was avoiding me :’( ). i look at him alot and one day he was volenteering to sell drinks (i bought one ofcourse) at this piontless thing and i couldnt stop looking but i think he realised because him and his friend started looking our way alot and then he walked towards us and stopped like 2meters away and stood there for no reason for about 2-3minutes before walking back to his friend.. i couldnt help but look lolz. but then his friend did the same thing.. which confused me.. i didnt look at his friend. so he might know i like him.. i dont know. my friend says she saw him staring at me that day but i dont if to believe it because i was freaking out and she has been known to lie :(. Some of my friends have also said that it could put him of liking me because of the age difference ( im 15 nearly 16 and hes about 17 nearly 18). but it might be because of looks… i get told im pretty/fit alot and guys always try to talk to me or ask me out but i dont feel nearly good enough for him. he isnt the most popular… more average like me and i never see him with girls so i dont think he has a girlfriend.. but thats the role i will always dream of playing, and i know it might sound stupid but i love him :)
i have finished my little rant lolz.. please tell me what you think of the situation

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