My heart is broken.
My boyfriend broke up with me 5 months ago. I know that’s quite a while but the truth is I’m still thinking about him. For those who want to read me, here’s the story. We had been together for seven months when I had to travel overseas. We were going to be apart for four months. We made it through the first two months and then, one night, we talked on skype and he said it wasn’t working out for him. He told me it was hard for him to have me on his mind every day and that he couldn’t fall in love with me. He always said that I was beautiful, kind, amazing and that we had a great time together. But for whatever reason, he just wasn’t falling for me. Two months later, I went back home. I was indecisive on what to do but finally I pulled myself together and wrote him an email telling him that I missed him and wanted us to be together. He said he’d been meaning to talk to me but he just didn’t have the guts to do so. Then he asked me to meet in person to talk. And I said yes of course. I was hanging on to my last shred of hope, thinking that maybe when he saw me, all those feelings would come back to him and he’d want me back. But it didn’t happen. He thought he’d made the right decision when he broke up with me. Needless to say, my heart shattered into thousands of pieces.
Going through that was so painful. Getting stabbed through the heart would’ve hurt less I think. You guys have no idea how hard I tried to make this relationship work. I gave the best of me, tried to make him happy as much as I could. But that wouldn’t cut it. I felt so rejected and worthless. Very worthless. The man that I was so in love with just didn’t love me back and he said he didn’t even know why.
I know you might be thinking it wasn’t a really long relationship so why is she so upset about it. But the thing is, he was the first man that I fell in love with. (For the record I’m 24.. 23 when we started going out together). I’m not a person that falls for the first guy that pays her a compliment, so when I finally found someone that left me head over heels, he rejects me. I’ve always been really honest to my friends when telling them a story, like if I screwed up I would tell them that I did and not just pretend that I’m perfect and don’t make mistakes, but the truth is I gave the best of me to him. So that’s why people tell me not to take this personal, because I really tried to make it work. I really want to understand why this is supposedly not a personal issue, but I’m having a hard time trying to figure it out. Rejection is all I feel.
It’d be great if any of you would like to give me your opinion, piece of advice, or even share your own story.
Thank you so much.
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