lost help: tomorrow would have been Benjamin’s first birthday. - Help.com

I’m so sorry for your loss.

*Wipes tear from cheek* My heart aches as I think about your loss. I’ll be thinking about you, and pray. I know how hard it can be to lose someone. But, in your case, someone so young… I wish I knew what to say to you that would make your heart gladder. Instead, all I can do is offer my most sincere apologies that Benjamin was taken from this world so young. I don’t know if you believe in Heaven, but I do. And I know in my heart that that is where he must be, and that someday you will be reunited. Until then, I hope you have at least some happy memories of him to hold onto. *hugs tightly* Be strong, Stranger. You’ll be in my prayers.

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Thank you for the kinds words
my family is broken apart because of a divorce and I was not allowed to see or hold Benjamin.
I was only allowed to see him when he was in a coma. My son hasn’t talk to me since before christmas, I got mad at him for dumping on me about his Dad ( who I still love and always will)nothing I say means anything to our children. they blame me for everything that went wrong in their lives.
Yes I do believe in God, I just want to go and be with my grandchild as I need to be with some one who will love me.

That’s just awful! O_O I hope that things start to get better between you and your family. I know families can sometimes be… Difficult. But, you never know. Someday soon, your family and yourself could be closer than ever before. If there was only some way that I could actually help you. All I can do, is offer to listen when you need to talk. My e-mail is i> small>(email removed) /small> /i>, should you decide to take me up on my offer.
I can understand your wanting to be with your grandchild, but you must have someone who truly needs you here. If you are talking suicide, and I hope that you aren’t, know that I’ve been close to that drastic decision a few times. One of the problems with suicide, is that leaves behind victims. Even if your family hasn’t been very fair to you, I’m sure that losing you would make a decent part of them ache terribly.
I’ve also had issues with my family, even though it’s nothing like what you’ve gone through.
I thought for sure that my family and I would never again be on good terms. But, after nearly giving up hope and too many arguments, discussions and walk-outs to count, four years after the worst had happened we are on good terms again. It took a lot of work on everybody’s part, but we’re a family again. It’s not quite the same, nor will it ever be.
All I’m trying to say is, that even though things seem bleak right now, it could be rewarding to be strong and hope for the best. I’m willing to bet that your family regrets things too. Talking about things with your family may prove very difficult, but if it can be managed, it could very well be a stepping stone to a happier future.
I wish you the very best, and truly do hope that your life takes a turn for the wonderful. Again, should you ever need to talk, I’ll be there to listen. I know what it’s like to have nobody to talk to, to not have a support system.