Drinking myself to death, depressed.
I’ve come on here before, posting about my relationship troubles, trying to get objective opinions about things from the internet…Well that stops today. I got kicked to the curb, after five years of devotion. I was told by my (ex) significant other that she just “didn’t love me anymore” and she didn’t know why. She says the problems started a year ago, when I FINALLY met her parents, which leads me to believe they probably instilled these feelings in her, but one way or the other, it’s beyond my control. I’ve talked to her, explained my thoughts and feelings, and we decided to give it a chance…but I’m dying inside. She’s not treating me the same way anymore. If anything, she’s treating me like LESS than a friend…there’s no affection, no love, none of the sweetness or innocence that has defined our relationship up to this point, and its sent me into a downward spiral of depression. I wonder if there’s anyone out there for me…I’m smart, funny, on a good career path, affectionate, caring…by all accounts, I was the “perfect” boyfriend if such a thing can exist…and yet the one woman I cared about has lost interest in me.
Add to that the fact that I’ve just been screwed over by the bank providing me with student loans, meaning I probably won’t be going back to university this year…and I’m pretty depressed. I’ve been drinking constantly for a week an a half…every night, just trying to get ****** up and forget about things…I don’t know what to do with myself.
My whole world has shattered before my eyes. Someone out there just convince me this isn’t the end, because life is certainly looking bleak right now.
In the past, this site has been good for venting, and getting interesting viewpoints about life events…Well, Help.com, I need that now more than ever.
Lend me a hand.
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