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I’m at an utter loss of what to do with myself right now.
Someone please give me some advice. This may be lengthy, but I need to get it out, and I would love for someone to give me advice and an ear. Please!
First of all, I’m not suicidal. Far from it. I am just pretty down in the dumps. I’m unsure what step to take next. Here’s a break down:
I have my bachelors of science in psychology. I’m currently in a masters of science degree program in kinesiology. I have 5 classes left (should graduate in spring of 2013 if the world doesn’t end). My job was a temporary job funded by a federal grant that ended in May. I had been going very strong up until this point, graduating with high GPAs (currently 4.0 in my field) and always being one of the most intellectual in my class. So, I took a break from life (after I hit a deer with my car, I took time to fix it and relax).
For the past couple months, I’ve just been relaxing. No school, no work, just me taking a break.
It’s time for things to start back in my life, and it’s got me worried/scared/anxious. I don’t know what to do in my life. I am worried about my future. Here’s why:
With my degree(s), I find it hard to find jobs that I qualify for. I am ready to settle down, get a 9-5 job, have a family, etc. However, I want to be able to get a job which I will use my degrees in and that is secure enough for my family. Yes, I know the economy is sucking, and I’m not really complaining about that. But, I don’t know what I want to do with my life/degrees. I simply do not know what to do with my life!
Part of me could see myself teaching. I worked with kids in a scientific study that was an after school program. I loved to teach them. In all my classes where I had to give presentations, I loved it. I got teacher of the year each time. I am a good lecturer.
However, to be able to teach, I’d have to finish my masters degree (which isn’t a problem), and I’d only be able to teach kinesiology courses (since it has to be 18 credit hours in your masters program). Then, I’d have to find a college hiring someone with little to no experience professionally teaching. I just don’t see how that would be possible.
I don’t want to teach solely on that one subject. I like psychology too, and philosophy, and other subjects. However, I couldn’t teach those, and I couldn’t do as much teaching kinesiology as anything else. I know a lot about a little, and very little about a lot.
I… want to find a job that involves common knowledge, me talking with people, helping them, and spending time with them. I know so much, and I give advice to people all the time. It’s not like your average joe helping or giving advice… I do it well, and I’ve saved a good amount of lives from suicide and other things. It brings me pleasure.
I could see myself being on a radio show just helping people late at night talking with them, or counseling individuals that are needing to talk. But, I do not know how I’d go about doing that, what the experience requirements are, or what licenses you’d need to even do that.
I’ve talked with my fiance about this every night so far. I don’t have much time before I graduate (less than a year). If there is something I need to be doing in preparation for my career, I’d like to prepare for it. But I have NEVER figured out what I wanted to do with my life. I chose psychology because I wanted to learn how people think, and I wanted to learn kinesiology to figure out the dualist perspective of mind and body.
I thought at times about counseling, but psychology got boring after I graduated. I did kinesiology as a minor in my undergraduate, and I enjoyed it, which is why I majored in it. But I quickly found there is not much you can do with it. Sports Psychology has been suggested by some, but I can’t find anyone to talk to about it, I’d have to get my doctorate (I’m sick of school), and probably beef up on my biologies. I just don’t think that’s right for me.
What I would like: I’d like someone to sit me down and say, “You have these qualities. You are special in that you have a knack for ‘this.’ We’d like you to come work for us here/we’d like you to do this with us.” I need guidance. I need help. I need direction.
I’ve been praying about it, talking to my fiance about it, and trying to mull everything over in my head about it. My life seems like it’s so uncertain… so unclear.
Please… someone help? I don’t know what to say anymore. I don’t even know how coherent this is. I’m sorry.
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