i’ve been lying to my peeps, funny, you’re my peeps
i spend nearly every waking moment praying to die
i just can’t stand being alive
did the OD thing more than, a lot in my times, can’t even kill myself
such a loser. for a moment yester, being here i was ok, a joke was made here
but then it faded. You people are all so great.
But i can’t stand the pain, being alone and crying
i can send cyber hugs til the cows come home,
then i can hug all the cows, but still
there’s no one to hold me when i cry
sad now :(
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In the end here all the best of us can do here is give you a little boost, the rest is up to you.
I believe you can do it, i did it, I’ve seen others do it. We can get out of the hole we put ourselves in. Our cages are of our own making.
my depression lifted itself randomly one day, everything seemed brighter.
itll lift, or youll make a choice that makes everything seem so much better/ easier.
chin up :)
aww griffin, why are you in so much pain? :(
aww griffin, why are you in so much pain? :(
just soo soo unhappy, can’t shake it
even Wednesday when i worked with my manager
who’s nice to me. I still didn’t feel better
You should ask for professional help at your place, my dear!
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don’t be sad my dear… I’ll give you hope and cyber hugs . :)
I’m sorry you feel so terrible :(
I hope you recover from this soon.
Exactly. Unless you find genuine good people in your immediate life who are physically there for you, this will likely continue. Talking to people through the internet is great and all, but it does little compared to what a friendship with someone in your immediate life can do.
And so the issue you face is that you are lacking that =/
Aww huni..sending lots and lots of hugs to you…I know cyber hugs arent the same as real hugs…but if we were with you or near you we’d all be giving you proper ones…and mean them…
Is there someone you can talk to? Besides us I mean…
Sorry you are so sad. I wish there was more I could do than wish you well. Doctors can help you with depression.
I struggle plenty with depression these days too. One thing that helped yesterday was an excursion on my bike. I literally attempted to get lost in my own town. Ride until you feel better or pass out… but do NOT check the map before you go even though its tempting.
(Eventually you get hungry and stop to eat at strange places etc… quite an adventure).
Would you like for us to slap you around? Smear you with hot potato salad?
Cheer up! You are a good person and we care about you!
Hang in there . . . tell your demons they are no longer able to rent space in your mind!
You have a beautiful life ahead of you–claim it!
God wouldn’t give you more than you can handle.
You’re stronger than you realize, look at all you’ve been through & you’re still standing, you’ve hit a low, but you’ve hit low times before & got through them, even though there’s been times in the past where you didn’t think you’d get through them, you always have, this time will be no different.
We all treasure our only 195 yr old helper, you’re not on your own.
Remember footprints -
One night I had a dream…
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and
Across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand;
One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of my life flashed before us,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
There was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life
This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it.
“Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
You would walk with me all the way;
But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,
There is only one set of footprints.
I don’t understand why in times when I
needed you the most, you should leave me.
The Lord replied, “My precious, precious
child. I love you, and I would never,
never leave you during your times of
trial and suffering.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you.”
Are you entirely all by yourself?
How about family? Friends? Work mates? School mates? Neighbors? Other co members in group?
too old for school mates, & no on the work mates, Neighbors are beer party animals
don’t like drunks when they get out of hand/ out of mind
You can’t entirely be alone cause you are not living in a cage or a cave.
I am sure you did not grow up in a cage or a cave either!
Help yourself my friend. No one else can. Only you can do it. Do your part.
That’s what i do i go out of my way to help others, it’s just a habit
Make your life worth living. We can only do so much. Advice so much. Give cyber hugs and kisses all we want. But only you can do the greater part.
We don’t want you that way. I don’t want you that way. I sense that you are a kind, loving, lovable and God fearing person. Hang on. Do you part. Help yourself.
Trying but it’s soo hard
Wow okei, that Coping with Crisis is quite a find indeed.
Maybe it is just the grief washing through you Griffen. Keep your mind open to new ideas, and solutions that are creative.
Hi Griff.. I am sorry for the pain that you are carrying around. Only you really know how much weight you can bare, and God indeed is the comforter in the darkest moments, do not forget. I will pray for your strength and to be held up right now where you are, to be given the rest and release of the pain you carry. That the most amazing love will find you and seek you out, that you will be able to endure and find that light that shines in you still. Be well dear, that road seems all alone but many of us have also walked it and came back to life again.
Stand in the light and refuse the shadows any place in you..
Wow. I didn’t know you were going through such bad times Griffin. Please revoke those curses you have placed on your life right now. Confess, repent, revoke.
I had been struggling with loneliness and unworthiness. I think I have outdone you in this though. ‘backsliding’ in faith 15 times (last count) after surrendering my life to Christ. The flesh is strong. But Jesus is much bigger. I have recently been shown this by some hardcore believers.
A guest pastor in church had recently said ‘God cannot be outsmarted by sin. He can use that very thing to get you closer to Him.’ And suddenly I had hope that no humans could give me. And these things are way higher than logic, self-help, intelligence and other human efforts.
USE the scriptures to pray.
USE the scriptures to pray.
i do when reading Psalms i find some & write em down in my little book i keep
Thank you all for being so caring & helpful to such an old lady
Love, Kisses & prayers to all of you :)
saw my therapist today, told her i just am soo sooo tired of being sad
I won’t kill myself, been trying that since i was 16, always did it with pills
whatever was around. Never worked (Loser)
i’ve got to fill out the paper work to get on “Abilify”
it will take about 2 to 3 weeks to get set up with that
Thank you everyone for caring
I Love My Peeps :)
I am so hopeful that this treatment works out for you. Stay strong griffin, you’re tough, and are going to come through this marvelously!
And Griffin. The day I find out who you really are and whenever I meet you face-to-face, I’m going to ask you to tell me why you keep saying that quoted word. It is mental suicide.
- Psychologically (called ‘affirmations’ - sentences made with conviction without doubting them, with emotional power and in the present tense).
- Spiritually (the Bible says there is life and death in the tongue).
I can think that the ONLY one person on earth who can ever REALLY understand you is you. And you yourself go around calling yourself names. NEVER do that.
I don’t know why we do this, but (from some introspection) I think it is because we have let ourselves down - in matters that are important in the worldly sense. All of us do have that. But in the spirit, you condemn yourself too. I’m certain you do not even realize what you are doing to your spirit. (My people are destroyed for lack of understanding. The Bible says this.)
How do we possibly pretend that it our so called ‘failures’ do not affect us? I honestly do now have a straight answer. To quote ‘have faith’ will obviously automatically bring the next question ‘but for how long?’. And I can keep quoting stuff that will not really help you. (That is why so many people start criticizing such advice on this site. Because the issue isn’t getting reached in the state of reality of the person asking for help. I realize that too.)
But, thank God, you are here. Not cut off - with your own thoughts as your only company (very very dangerous). Thank God, you are here. Interacting. I think everyone here can only give words and hope those words will reach somewhere deep inside you and minister to you.
And I trust everyone here WILL keep at it. Stubborn as your situation can be, we are also very stubborn. I think we have to be stubborn.
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