depression help: Help, i sound and look like a jerk because of my numbed emotions - Help.com

Space Weaver wrote:
talk to people and write it out on paper

I still screw up to people online even and writing stuff down people can think its faked. I just want my emotions to be felt not using other ways to express them. I have no problem expressing through words written. I have trouble speaking though since i get nervous around people or i sound like an idiot =(

The Sherlockian wrote:
Step One: Every day, perform a random act of kindness.

Step Two: Work on the spiritual component of your life. We are all on a spiritual journey.

Step Three: Surround yourselves with others in whose company you wish to continue your spiritual journey.

Step Four: Give thanks for every day of life. Life is a precious gift. It is more precious when it is not lived solely for oneself.

Step Five: Take care of yourself. Love yourself. Before you can love others, you must love yourself.

1. I usually try to

2. Trying to learn to meditate but i keep forgetting to practice and i read about all kinds of religions and philosophies but i never read deeply enough into stuff since its so much info to take in. I dont have much desire on material things.

3. Umm I dont really have anyone around me .. online only so does that count?

4. Okay

5. Disagree with that one unless its whats causing my emotions to be blocked

Im not sure if this is going in the right direction or not. LIke im emotionally supressed. I am quite capable ofbeing nice to people still and caring but its like emotional blockage thats stopping me from feeling alive and feeling connected as much as i should be. I will try some ofthis anyways though

lifelover wrote:
You can still be kind to others while having numbed emotions. Empathy is way over-rated, especially in situations where it generally is doubling misery rather than healing it (i.e. taking on others’ pain.)

But for yourself, your emotions are very important. You need to be in touch with your feelings to know your truth and know what matters to you. Maybe look up some articles on emotional intelligence or “how to get in touch with your feelings”?

yes i still can be but im screwing up where i forget to show empathy because i cant feel empathy so people think im selfish sometimes or i might act a little selfish even though im very selfless. I dont think empathy is overrated at all i enjoy feeling the pain of othrs to help me understand them. I want it bad.

Yeah i cant feel emotions much. I can feel depressed but without feeling sad. I can feel happy like without actually being happy but rather just depressed feeling. I cant even get mad or sad to where i can cry. I feel some emotions but they dont express. My facial expressions dont always change much.

Maybe i could look it up.

What it i tried to self medicate myself with the same stuff they use to help autistic people? but i dont know what that owuld be.

will ahve to watch that video later my internet is quite slow right now.

lifelover wrote:
One thing that works, noticing a reference to meditation, is a mindfulness practice of closing your eyes and letting go of involvement with any trains of thought, but noticing all the sensations and feelings you have in your stream of consciousness, feelings in body and mind. If you do this for a while, like half an hour, disengaging from all your actual intellectual thoughts every time you notice yourself getting involved in them, and just enjoying the feeling of all the feelings, like the feelings of the thoughts, and the feeling of your body, and of where you are — if you keep bringing your attention back to the feelings as a meditative practice, that can get you back in touch with all your feelings.

I still maintain that empathy is over-rated. People like me who are far more sensitive and empathic than average tend to have to waste a lot of time getting over everybody else’s problems and pains, not that it does them any good to take it on in the first place, it’s just natural when you try to help and are very sensitive.

I asked about meta meditation before but for some stupid reason i never got myself to do it =( I could try mindful some too. I just dont know how to get started on it since i cant focus or shut my brain up and it keeps taking me to dark thoughts.

I enjoy feeling pains of others because it takes away from my own pain since it gives me something to solve that i feel worthy.

lifelover wrote:
I have no idea about medication. All the psych drugs I know of interfere with natural feeling and thinking, and generally drain mental energy over time.

doesnt have to be med meds i mean like homeopathic treatments or illicit drugs although its highly unlikely i would get ahold of any drugs but i have heard MDMA is under research as a treatment for post traumatic stress and autism since it gets rid of peoples negative emotion pickup of other people so they act more empathetic while on it. Im not stupid though oi would be wise about it but like i said i could do that anyways