Hello there .
is there anyone really there? i sit on my back porch and see that i lucky enoungh to pass on this torch . I wake in the mornings feeling like a disease ,but as far as i know im clean. im scared to walk in the yard .wonder about voices in my head.wonder about the bugs or if its all in my head. Or is it a bullit hole and im already dead. Im a 34 yr old male single father i guess . Wifes come and go . U make em cry they leave dont u know. everyone is caught up in their own fun ,when u take away their sun ,own smiles they run . i ve traveled and feed homeless although they ve had homes. Where we lay our heads where ever we roam . i believe in a god cause thats easy to see. Love im not so sure cause everyone just wants to be free. they say live for today ,cause tomorrows not promised.yeasterday is gone .and today is here to haunt us . we all have bills ,but today who can afford to pay. mine r minor compared to sum .but there as big as the world when ur scared of the sun . for it burns us Radiation and such . living like a hermit is no fun .my family deserves better . can u help us a step son with cancer ,a stepdaughter who wants to be more popular . a friend that needs more than a broken down truck driven man .they called me around .full circle ive become a clown. a right handed fool to the world sum how . never fought in a war .at least not in the world but loses one in my head. under the talbe ive worked ,so no ssi .but the goverments just gonna take it all some how . gas is too high to just fly away. to find a better place to work .so this is where i lay my head ive read some of ur pains and i understand too .when this road feels colds what do u do. raped as a youth beat as a child robbed as a working juvenille stoled from as a young adult. turn into a slave as a working adult . Just to be told we werent resposible adults. our leaders get raises while we stuggle in the mud .live on lies while we work though our ever dreaming eye lips .when if each of them could spare a ten .it would erase all my credited sin for a few bucks more .i could live again . heal my stepson pay my child support from when they kicked me too. under a bus and took my shoes . well u never fought back is what can be said , fight the world and ull end up dead. so fight ur self and u ll end up there too . so what are u supposed to do .against chemical warfare ,or if ur just a waste of time. ive giving mine away . even here trying to find help for not just me billons others have . i will work thee. for better treatment for him a place to help my kin . a purpose for all our self hate within y where we never good enough , y must we fight on a small little world .what happen to flying kites. life was so simple when we started out my friends. were never famous until we meet our end. dont worry be happy is how the song goes. a tear in a bucket so no one knows the rivers run deep from our blood i never killed . so y does the leaders get away with it . why arent they stricken with guilt .of days gone by . when they judge who lives and who dies. when they work from where they live . they dont touch money and have more credit than god . walk through the doors and thyer cured must not be to hard . so for now i will go struggle for a nother day ,just wanted to drop a few and say hey ,wake up please before ur life sails away .ur not the only one whos scared today .give food to ur friends and a good words or two and by thankfull to live in this zoo. cause know when u find ur self to old , to enjoy ur last minutes before we are through . this is just part of our bucket list . then we turn blue .
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