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wendy.lynn416
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sitting here, wondering where to start…

so much to say…and nothing really at all. 43, never thought this is where i would be. so many blessings along the way…2 amazing children, grown and out into the world. never let them see me, me , me.
seem to keep finding myself in a state of dire need…sometimes a car and no home, other times a home and no car. have been so many things and yet i am really nothing at all. alone with my dog in a home with all my things, now, again, no job and a borrowed car. rationing cans of beans, $4 in my wallet, 3 cigs and just so….alone. alone, alone. except for the wonderful dog at my feet. my best friend….he is what keeps me on the earth. if i were to simply not exist anymore, where would he be? i have such a deep sense of “this is not what i should be” and yet no answers as to who i should be. “lost” is the state i exist in. i am such a different person when i have someone to love an nurture. i know what every next step should be….but alone…its like im waiting for someone to come along and hand me an identity. ok, now this is who you should be. i can do just about anything, high common sense an mechanical ability. dont know, dont know…..

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babacup offline Verified User (5 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 7 #
Indianapolis, IN, US | 9 months ago (15 minutes after post)

I get the sense that you are a nurturing person and always take care of everyone else. Never to time to take care of yourself. Now here you are 43 and trying to figure out who am I.

I think we all through that “who am I” I think we constantly are reinventing ourselves as we go through different stages of life. You are at a point where you get to decide who and what you want to be now. What job do you want, what kind of people do you want in your life, what do you enjoy doing. You get start fresh and express who you are with out the title of parent or the title of the job.

There are tons of self help books out ther to help you guide you through figuring out what you want in life. Have fun with this freedom to be a new you.

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DANTHEMAN offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
An Unknown Location | 9 months ago (48 minutes after post)

you need to find a new passion. passion is what keeps people going. for your kids, for your lover, or a thing you like doing. take me for examle my passion is anime.

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