sitting here, wondering where to start…
so much to say…and nothing really at all. 43, never thought this is where i would be. so many blessings along the way…2 amazing children, grown and out into the world. never let them see me, me , me.
seem to keep finding myself in a state of dire need…sometimes a car and no home, other times a home and no car. have been so many things and yet i am really nothing at all. alone with my dog in a home with all my things, now, again, no job and a borrowed car. rationing cans of beans, $4 in my wallet, 3 cigs and just so….alone. alone, alone. except for the wonderful dog at my feet. my best friend….he is what keeps me on the earth. if i were to simply not exist anymore, where would he be? i have such a deep sense of “this is not what i should be” and yet no answers as to who i should be. “lost” is the state i exist in. i am such a different person when i have someone to love an nurture. i know what every next step should be….but alone…its like im waiting for someone to come along and hand me an identity. ok, now this is who you should be. i can do just about anything, high common sense an mechanical ability. dont know, dont know…..
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