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I’m so sad.
i cant stop crying. and i know this is probably just sounds pathetic, like i need to suck it up… but my boyfriend has just been so mean to me, because he feels like i neglect him, because i dont put him first and he is obsessed with making sure our relationship is my one and only priority. I have a family, i have (had) friends… i have a great career. and he is jealous and hates all of this. And i’ve lied to him about going to lunch twice with my ex boyfriend, and about drinking a couple times. he hates me fore having dated someone when we separated for a while. i love him so much and i juts cant let go but i’m just so depressed, i cant stop crying, he calls me stupid and is controlling about how i look, even down to getting my eyebrows done. but he is a very logical person and i can just never be right. i pay for almost everything… but the thing is he says i do nothing for him emotionally. he blames me for his health problems (ulcers), for him shaving his head (against my pleas for him not to)… i just cant leave how do i leave, i care about him so much and i cant see life without him because when things are good they are great and hes just a beautiful person, but i cant understand how he can be so great, and hurt me so bad and deny every bit of it. am i being naive and too immature for him? ive promised that i’ll change and “grow up” like he wants me too, put him first, and i’ve tried but it’s never enough. i need help i need help so bad, i’m just lost. my parents are biased, as are my friends, and i just feel so alone.
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