At least you still have desires, wants. It`s still better than the other way. I`m still curing myself for my cold hard and sometimes pitch black heart for years now. In a shorter version: I also wanted to get married at a tender age, but I resisted. So I remained to serve my friends and family. The only thing written on my paycheck was “treason”. Then I started to get in and out of depression.
OK, some advise: MOVE TO THE GREATEST POSSIBLE DISTANCE COMPARED TO EVERYONE YOU KNOW!
Not running :P Consider this as a change scenery, as a permanent vacation ;)
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The only thing any of us have is hope for a better future. You seem to have a good head on your shoulders. Maybe it is time to take care of you.
hello, sorry about what you are gonin through, i am willing to help you financially to get through this hard times. please gat back to me as soon as possible.
Jay
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u are a strong one, kudos to you. focus on what u believe in and have a group people for your support. about financial matters, i know it is not that easy dearie. but with the way u expressed with great desire to succeed id say u are in the right tract.
dont lose hope. its what we have now.
Thank you >> beachgirl…i know that time will come when I can take care of me.
Thank you >> Jay…I just need to get through these hard time when all i have is hope and myself..
thank you >> when lilies are daisies…I cannot afford to stay down.I was cught unaware but i know there are still people who will walk not behind me for i may not follow, not infront of me for i may not lead but will walk beside me and help me through….
i need help and i need it now….am losing hope….why is this all happening to me when all i ever did was live a life for someone……
first of all, one should not live his life for someone. life is given bec we deserve to live. a lot of these unfortunate times happen bec we let other people take control of our thoughts–which should never be. i was hoping u were okay days ago. how is everything? has something else happened?
I am down and getting deeper…all i ever mastered here is the art of hiding my pain…when deep inside i am shattered….i was down to zero and soon negative…i hate to but sometimes i can’t help asking why this had to happen…I used to live a simple life happy with simple things like waking up in the morning…having cooked a nice meal for them…..now i feel so bad that i feel robbed of my simple pleasures in life…As if i live day to day always afraid what the next hour would bring…
as of the moment what else are u specific concerns? financaly would there be some support system from relatives or friends who u can count on or at least give u a rod to hold on to. it’s true that sometimes we really need to be with pain and live with it for the moment bec that pain itself will help us see things through. i can’t tell yyou to shun away from everything u are going through right now bec that is beyond our control but in your end i think there are other things that can be done. there is no assurance in this life. anyone must know that the next day is always of no promises. but dealing with it is a process. it has always been that way.
i have been dealing with pain….but it seems they are all pouring in…see before i am contented having 45thousand pesos or $900 for all monthly budget and it covers all…now it was down to 20 thousand or $400…this month it was down to 10thousand or a mere$200…in 2 days time my light can be cut and soon water will be…I am down to really zero….I am asking to borrow but seems all i ask they are in tight situations too.I am borrowing money to start selling stuff again none…..my pastry selling has no capital already…I always hear His song>>>IN HIS TIME……Now all i can ask is ….when is your time…i am getting hopeless…..Thanks to you…at least i can pour my heart out…
hi angel, i hope and pray that something good will happen to you and ur family this week. life really sucks sometimes. in situations like this, what can we do but hope. or they say miracles wont happen unless we let it happen. pastries i think calls for a not so cheap gadgets am i right? does franchising or selling work in your place? u are so welcome. am just around.
Thank you so much i appreciate all from you…i bake and deliver pastries but now it’s the rolling capital i am missing…i was hoping to get a loan of 20thousand pesos and much to my dismay they have no cash…ohhh i have stopped my helping my older brother’s family too withh the litlle of what i can….now i learned he is being harassed by pointing a gun to his face by their old landlord..my eldest son got a job but was fired due to a 2 minute late…my ex stopped the mere hundred dollars each allowance of my kids noting it is vacation…when will this ever end…when will my cries ever stop…well i cry when i am in bed for the last thing i wanted is for them to see that i am losing hope…but i am…what pains me most is when i cannot comfort another’s sorrow because i myself is in great pain…and when i am i retreat to my own shell…
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Financially i need a jumpstart to make my source of income rolling again…I used up my small capital for paying bills.I believe in the saying…teach them to fish…my baking and selling pastries plus my planned apron/potholder business was halted when all seems to be pouring in…Whatever help will be appreciated and time will come i will be able to pay…Here in our place loans get a big interest monthly and am trying to settled each one even paying a little but with the interest even at 10% monthly it seems i am not moving farther…But when my small business will be able to roll,i can at least catch up….Thank you so much even the mere words lessened some burden….
thank you for the concern…i will…bless you!!!
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Hello, your story sounds like mine and I hope I can give you advice.
I lived alone for 6 years, trapped in a home that I hated. What changed my life is when I stood up for myself and left my husband.
I really feel your story and I’m very sad for you, I really hope you have the guts to leave him someday or you’ll lose yourself.
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I have read all the posts and am so sorry that i cannot help you more. If I had money I would give it to you. I lived 12 years in an abusive marriage. I let him control my mind and in the end my thoughts and i cried nightly for an answer. Thank God i had my jobs and my kids to keep me half way sane.
I left 4 years ago with three children because he beat me so badly and I swore he would never control me again. I spent alot of times reading books on self esteem. One really good book is where is god in the hardtimes. Another good one is The purpose driven life. These are good books to help you through the tough times and start to pick yourself up.
Try to focus on good things all the time train yourself to tell yourself something good. I know that can be hard in a life where things are always bad and getting worse. It takes time but i was where you are. I started telling myself that good thing for day was i woke up. Then i would find more good things about the day or my life. soon you will find more good in a day than bad. It will be hard for awhile but YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT.
Marriage is some what very hard to understand when no one wants to, i know first hand what i go through in my own marriage and well the truth its pretty tough. if you wish to read my post please i will try help you with anything i could humanly can
Thanks to all of you my nice friends….I always believed my marriage though it was pretty tough was forever…all i ever wanted was give love yet sometimes somehow it was not enough…I am getting better now and happy picking up my pieces…Now all i can do is look back ..smile and say…i made it through…A love might have stopped but my heart will keep on beating…I take on things slowly now…and embrace the advises given to me…as i walk this thing called life…
I adore the strength that you have. it is something i do not possess. you are one strong woman so capable of facing odds in life. i am overwhelmed on how u see things and just make use of what is there. u could say that u won’t have any choice but to give up–but u never gave up. u spent lowly nights crying for help. but those tears they made u stronger. u used the down moments to think and hope and feel better. i wish i can be like that. thank you angel, u have made a great help for me today.
Thanks too lilies for it makes me feel good that somehow…i helped someone in my own little way…I maybe a small voice in my own little world but I learned that in this road I am travelling …tears are simple ways to wash my eyes and make me realize that pain is a way of telling me I am alive…and being alive I can give…I can share…I can feel…I can love ..but most of all I can be happy…
that’s the spirit. u take care. :o) hugs!
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you are a very wonderful woman
and God fearing too
by just posting your letter
you already did a great help to others like me.
you also have one of the most beautiful smiles I have ever seen.
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hi angel, i have not seen you for a while. drop by when u can. just thinking how you are. -lilies
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