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Have you thought about getting help?
i am too… nothing goes right eh? just cry out loud… let it all go… all go within your tears…
I was diagnosed with Depression over a year ago, and was able to get myself help. I would really like to try to help you, which it seems like you are asking for. That goes for LivingShame as well. Leave me a shoutout or make me a friend, or some other way of contacting you, that way, I can tell you my story, and hopefully help you as well.
What is making you so sad?
my e-mail address is jakeman1020 @ comcast.net (minus the spaces) I do not know you, and you dont know me, which is why it might work. You dont even need to tell me your name, but I would truly like to talk to the both of you and hear your stories. Please e-mail me. I want to try to help.
I know what you mean. Everything is going so right for me right now, but I just can’t be happy about it. I just want to die…I’ve never felt so alone in my life.
i feel the same… only that everything is going wrong for me… got no friends… got nobody… loneliness… i dont know what to say… i dont think it will ever change for me…
Ok, it is great that you guys are talking about how you feel, now do some of you want to talk about why you feel this way and what you can do about it?
Its funny how all of us are alone and crying the same pain.
Surrounded by people, yet we cry our loneliness.
Anonymus, there must be something bothering you; depression doesn’t just come out of nowhere; you have to think and deal with what is bothering you. I’m sure it’s something big but worth fighting against.(Maybe ask for professional help if you see that you can not deal with it by yourself.)
Why do I feel this way? I don’t know why I feel this way, I just do. Does it matter either way? Still end up the same…
Okey, I answered that already, It’s up to you to stay pitying yourself forever or you can do what I adviced you to.
Actually that reply was directed toward JoJo response, not yours.
Okey, Pitying yourself it is :)
I’m not pitying myself…idk what you’re talking about. I feel awful like dying even though everything is fine in my life. Idk why and I really don’t care. This is why I don’t bother posting here…you people are assholes. Just so you know, I’m not the one who started the post, I just feel the same as the person who did.
Hey, Amelia and anonymous if you are not the same person, I would love to talk to you. I have had similar problems and would love to try and help you find a way to move forward in your life. Can you tell me when you first started feeling this way?
Ya know i really dont know the littlest things will set me off screaming at my kids to be quit and then when my husbond get pissy it makes me really made because he takes it all out on me i have enough trying to find out waht is wrong with me. I hate crying all of the time I am tired of it I would like to know what to do. I if i talk to my husbond about it he will just tell me to get over it and deal with it. that is life
do u have any advice to give me
I know what you mean. Everything is going so right for me right now, but I just can’t be happy about it. I just want to die…I’ve never felt so alone in my life.
You don’t ever have to feel alone. There are people out there who really care. I didn’t realize this until I met my best friend Michelle. We have basically the same life. We both have our men to deal with, and our little boys to put up with. But I figured out that life is what you make it. And if you died, you could be missing out on something great. Like true love, or kids, or something really great. Death is never the answer, it’s the easy way out. Don’t give up. Things will get better. Just when you think they won’t, it normally does get better.
I feel the same as anonymous. I think is’s amazing finding others that feel the same as I do. I feel I am the only one. I have always been the optimistic one. But after my husband left I felt my world as I know it ended. I am now waiting for things to get better.
i’ve been crying for days, I am on medication but its not working, I;m scared and lonely and the world just hurts. help
All this **** emotional crap. Survival of the fittest. Maybe you wouldn’t be so **** depressed if you did something with your life.
theres just no point.
were all going to be like the dinosaurs anyhow,
forgotten. try to make it better by god or not, im just going to rot in a coffin forgotten.
come on, look arround you. life is POINTLESS
I know life isn’t pointless, but today I just feel like I don’t want to be alive anymore. I know this will pass, but it keeps going on for weeks at a time.
it is really difficult to find a doctor here - just moved to a new city, and no one seems to be taking new patients.
Just have to wrench out the energy to get things done, only it isn’t there,and then I feel lousy about all of the things i haven’t done.
I am alone, and I know it will get better, i just want to hold on until it does.
only the pain in my head hurts so much, and it feels easier sometimes just to let go.
I get so angry and upset with my husband all the time. The littlest, most insignificant comments and actions affect me so much - it’s ridiculous. I can’t seem to not let anything get to me anymore. Have used medication, just eases the crying a bit, but being so irritable all the time is taking it’s toll. Every piece of advice, comment, people trying to help me, I can’t seem to not take personally. I’m stupidly oversensitive and am always so depressed these days. I have no motivation to do anything anymore. I have little excitement or positive feelings about living but I don’t want to commit suicide either - I’m a strong catholic, even though my prayers remain unanswered. Can anyone help? I don’t know what to do. Neither does my husband. He just wakes up each morning and puts the past day behind him. Guess I don’t blame him. He just takes all of of my anger, disrespect and snapping at him. I really need help but the medication is not near enough help.
Hi rinny, i know what you mean. I was ready to give up this morning, it was like the other mornings only more so. I prayed to God for help, and then was asked, how can he get through to me; i didn’t want to talk to anyone, my phone was off, i was cut off from the world. I opened up. I checked my email. i called friends, i gave when I didn’t feel like giving, and they gave back. Rinny, i want to give you a hug too, and tell you it will be okay even if it doesn’t feel like, it and even if things feel terrible. It isn’t easy to get through things. I wish it was, but it isn’t. There are many causes to depression - low grade pain, allergies, hormones. Not all medications work. Please don’t give up hope. You are important, and loveable.
thank you for your kind words marie. It just feels like an endless waiting period for a permanent change. It’s difficult when you feel that there is no one to reach out to and explicitly describe how you feel. It makes you realise how alone you are in your life. I admire you for your ability to stay more positive about your situation than I seem to be able to.
Hi Rinny, i’m lucky, i took the chance, and told other people i was close to what i was going through. They have given me support. The other thing that really helped me was reaching out to others in the same situation as i am in, to give support. I reached out on this site and other people helped me, I am happy to pass that on. I was ready to die yesterday, and i prayed, and reached out, and so many people answered, i was amazed. Rinny there is joy in our lives, it may only seem like small things, but there is joy. Change often happens in small things first.
I hope you can find joy in something today. You are loveable, and acceptable as you are.
I feel harassed and upset though I don’t have a clear reason why. Sometimes people get fed up, and they want to go and tell life to just get it over with and send them into a coffin. I’ve thought that a lot of times and I’m still a kid compared to everyone else (don’t judge a persons words by their age).
But, to anyone who has those kind of thoughts and is reading this: stop being weak, stop being selfish.
When you’re depressed and when I’m depressed, it’s just because we’re sick and tired of things the way they are now and we’re upset with how we’re leading our lives. It’s like we have no goal. No reason to be here.
Well, you do have a reason.
You’re here because you’re here. If you’re upset with how you’re living then go out there and help someone else with their life. You think the people in war-filled countries are thinking about suicide? You think single Mom’s trying to find food for their kids think about suicide? Show some gratitude.
God’s there you know. He’s always, always there whether you feel him or not. No matter what religion, situation or person. God’s always with the people He has made. Are you just gonna turn around and say “Nah, I’m fed up. Take me back to hell or heaven or whatever”
You’re not in charge of your life and how things go. You can’t just throw in the towel. Whoever you are, listen to this; till your times up you better not take the easy way out of this, because if you do, I will never, ever forgive you. You can make things better. You can call people and they’ll help you out. Don’t ruin your life by giving into depression. Lots of people have good reasons to be depressed but do you see war-victims commitiing suicide? Do you see starving people committing suicide? Do you see thirsty children commiting suicide? Do you see the elderly, the sick and the injured committing suicide?! NO! Because they want to live.
So don’t you dare mock the people fighting for their lives by trashing up your life for silly reasons like depression! I’ve been in and out of it before and if a thirteen year old girl can do it then, by God, so can you!
And if you read this and don’t take my advise, believe me I will cry when I see you wherever you end up.
That’s all I have to say. Thankfully, now I don’t feel so bothered because I remembered how dum it is to act like I’m acting now. I’m off to wake up my Mom and tell her I love her, because I don’t know how long I’ll be able to. I’m sensitive. I could be back in the hospital tomorrow or in my coffin WAY before my time. But I’m not complaining. I’m getting through this, just you see if I’m not here in twenty years!
I don’t judge your words by your age. I judge your age by your words.
Depression is an illness. Just remember that. People with depression can’t always get through it on their own - just like many other ilnesses, it can incapacitate people, just in a different way. Depression often inhibits people in such a way that they really do really on the help and the psychological and emotional strength of other people. What do you think this forum is for? It is for people to externalise their thoughts, and heaven forbid may even get a response from some kind person who empathises with them. Sometimes just that in itself, empathy, helps.
Do as little harm to others as you can; make any sacrifice for your true friends; be responsible for yourself and ask nothing of others; and grab all the fun you can. Don’t give much thought to yesterday, don’t worry about tomorrow, live in the moment, and trust that your existence has meaning even when the world seems to be all blind chance and chaos.
rinny10, in my opinion, illnesses and depression only happen because we let them. I’m not saying you need to face it by yourself BUT you need to WANT to fight an illness before you can face it. Doctors can’t cure someone if they don’t want to be cured.
Though most people won’t agree with me, there’s always a little part of yourself that enjoys being weak and frail and getting attention from people. I’m warning that -we-you-I-people shouldn’t let that part grow.
You have to pick up the phone to call for help, otherwise you might end up on your own.
Depression does not only happen because you let it. It can be caused by many things, such as a chemical imbalance in your brain.
i am tired i finally am coming to the conclusion that i have depression and maniac bipolar disorder i am hurt all the time all i talk about at home is for wanting to be loved…and in tha back of my mind i know i am loved i if have people to support me in the way that i feel but at the same time peopleall the just saying i am going through a faze i think it is a little bit past a faze for the first time the other day i trying to cut my wrist and i think the only thing stopped me from doing it cause i though that is was going to hurt but something else trigered in my mind that right now is the only time that i happy. but if i am so happy then why do i hurt when i get mad it is always at my boyfriend for not paying attention to me whick i know he does i just want it all the time because if do not get it the time i feel like he does not love me which i do know he DOES but i hurt……..by cry all the time i feel like i am the one that always does something wrong….. i have mood swings and want to hurt the man of my dreams….i need help really really bad i dont want to lose the last thing that i have left that is good……..someone talk to me or help me please i just want to talk to someone i NEED to talk to someone ………….. please
i want to die
I have plenty of reasons to cry, but I can’t. I just have this piercing ache in my chest. I just want to die. Why can’t I just die? I’m tired of holding this whole family together. It’s all going to just go to **** on me anyway.
to all of you, it isn’t in your head. Depression is real. Guys and girls go thru it all time. I am a guy and have had it on and off for years. My doctor said I can’t be depressed because when you are depressed you don’t eat. I was eating. I had gained 40 pounds in a year.
I have tried to re-establish my faith in god and it has helped. It hasn’t cured but it has helped. This year my wife left me and took the baby who I only see 2x a week. This has caused my depression and there are times when I cry.
It was magnified in October when I got laid off and there are still times when I do cry.
But I never felt like I wanted to die. I can’t. My child needs me and that is what keeps me going. If you are depressed and meds haven’t helped throw yourself into something. Join a charitable organization and do something great for someone. Perhaps the feeling of being needed, along with meds (either from a doctor or a holistic medicine program) may help. Also, go and talk to your clergy and there are many excellent books to look at including my favorite-man plans god laughs, anything by napoleon hill and many good books on changing your mental attitude in the psychology section of Borders.
I myself don’t have all the answers but I know that feeling like I want to die is NOT the answer.
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alll i do is cry,, and its geting worse when i hear a song relative to what i been thur or watchin tv and theres a loss of life invovling children or a happy momment my chest hurts
im 18 i spent 6 months in a mental hostpital i have started taking drugs all i want is to give up im feel like im getting worse by the day. all i want to do is drop to the ground and die..help please
Ii wannna die…i breaken up wivmy ex boyfriends tht i have bin wiv for over a year and i jus dnt want to be here anymur all i do all day is cryy i never go out feel so lonly nd my family makein it worser cz they believe i have changed nd keep havin ago at me i think everyone would be much happyer if i wanst round anymur every would get over it in few hours after findin out
I just want to cry all the time for no reason. Tears roll out of my eyes
The brain is such a complex thing…super hugs to everyone…:)
Life really suck sometimes…it’s like no matter what you do or say it is always wrong. Best friends became strangers to you, and everyone just stabbs you in the back whenever opportunity arise. Just because you look younger than you actually are, they all think you’re stupid and weird for thinking and behaving differently than them.
I’m so sick of those judgemental and heartless people surrounding me everywhere I turn.
Listen if you have too cry just cry it out.to tell you the truth we can all get upset and some people can not help it if they cry.but.. just remeber this never give up of what’s hurting you so much in life fight it away.^^_^^ it will always help :) maybe it depends on how bad your hurting .T_.
I feel like crying all the time and don’t know why either. My doctor says I suffer from depression and anxiety. i want to feel better but i don’t know how. I am on anti-depresants and anxiety medicine but I don’t seem to be getting any better. My life is getting more and more hopeless every day. Is there anyone out there who can help me?
Everybody’s talking about the reasons to live. I simply can tell, I have all the right reasons not to. It really should be a choice. And I don’t generally like people that much to actually want to help them ( I suck at pretending as well), so this pretty much makes me useless. So why waste this precious oxygen? I never learned, or wanted to be a part of any community. But you, people, should stick to each other ;)good luck!
HEEELLLPPP why cant i justbe normal like others!!!!!!
im sat crying as i write this, its all i seem to do theses days. my husband and kids have had enough of me shouting and crying, ive had enough of me shouting and crying,. i take anti depresants but they dont do anything and all my doctor says is do i want to talk to someone argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh like thats gunna solve all my problems.
I have been talking off and on to man for 3+ years. Sometimes just the thought of him makes me want to cry. He just called. I cant even put words together to say hi. I feel like when it comes to Alfonzo, I have lost my mind. I don’t know if maybe i’m just so in love it hurts me to be away from him. But were aren’t in a relationship like regular people. He has 3 kids with different women. I don’t see room for me in his life. And it just tears me up inside, that we mat never be together. Im 22 aqnd very mature if I’m just being petty and stupid it shouldn’t bother me so much right. But now i’m putting my business on the world wide web hoping someone can feel me…. If we don’t end up together i think i might crack. MY boyfriend before him was shot and killed. Alfonzo was the first man after him i could be with and not feel like i was betraying my dead boyfriend.
Who will commit suicide with me? I feel like I don’t have the nurve to do it alone, but I want to get it over with.
My name is Sarah and I am 26 years old. I have had panic disorder with anxiety and agoraphobia the past two months. I recently started taking Lexapro (5 mg) and my anxiety has stopped but now I want to cry all the time. If I am not crying, I feel short of breath and I get scared that something is wrong with me.
My fiance and I have been arguing a lot because of my issues. I feel as though I am going to lose everything if I don’t get better but I don’t know how! Can anyone offer me any advice???
I don’t know what to do anymore. Putting up this happy facade is exhausting. I have no thoughts of suicide, although the notion of it all going away is attractive, I must say.
Anyhoo, seemed like a nice place to vent.
how many of you are on hormonal contraceptives?
could this be a contributor?
Oh man i feel the same way. all i want to do is cry nowadays. i cant even do that, the only place i can be alone would be in the shower. then when i get happy i just get sad again. trust me i still wanna live but i just want to sleep. i feel alone all the time alot even before i was sad 24/7 alls i can say for advise is that your not alone and rember that.
all you people need is to be optimistic guys..i know its easier said than done but come on its worth a try.i also suffered from severe depression i year back and it took me alost 9 months to recover to my original state..no i did not take any medication or took any counselling..all i did was enjoy life and tried 2 eliminate the problems in my life
severe depression and u got over it without medications or counselling…?
thats really hard to believe. probably u never suffered any depression..
i used to talk to my friend about it..she helped me through out this hard period..all i used to do was cry for no reason at all.i used to avoid going to places lik anywhere out,it used to make me a nervous freak,i used to get so anxious that i used to panic and wanted to get out of that place ASAP.trust me guys talking to a friend helps a great deal.and try to find the reason,az in wts th reason u r in depression.my friend helped in finding my problem,although i knew my problem but it was somewhere deep down and i didnt realized.
PS:nd yea i did not go to any doc.for professinal counselling nd i did nt take any medications,cez medicines won’t help,ul onli gt addicted to them and ruin your lif..nd yea therez this program online lessons by barry joe mcdonagh its cald panic attack mini course,its a 7 lesson course nd its gna help u alot..
i hope and pray for all of u :)
Heres my story: It has been the worst 2009-2011 I have ever had! First my 3rd son got engaged on Christmas 2009 to a girl he had been with for 5 yrs. I was so excited. Her sister is maid of honor and when she started talking about a shower I sent her an email saying and I quote”I would love to help in anyway possible with the shower, we are so excited to have Jess in our lives” I got back (from the bride to be and her sister)pages upon pages of email ripping me apart and copied to everyone in their family, the whole bridal party and some extended family members for whatever reason - I was crushed, hurt and pissed off. All this after being asked to foot most of the bill for the wedding/recp. because her father refusing to give more than a token amount! Verbal war happens, crying, hollaring etc. Then we come to an understanding, sort of make amends, we now realize this girl has never liked us - which we can deal with, but now our son feels he needs to call everyday to chat he is constantly walking on eggshells trying to please everyone. Then, my managerial job is abolished and I am unemployed at 56yrs old. UGH- that is easy to deal with-then, our 4th child-dtr. is gay and gets an engagement ring from her partner on New Years while we are away and calls to tell us the news - well all in the family have embraced this except me - I am finding that hard to deal with. We sat down to dinner with her as she wants the whole fairy tale wedding - huge wedding, and reception we needed to explain what we were willing to do for her and how we were uncomfortable inviting the whole extended italian catholic family to this affair after she has to get married in another state as its not legal in our state. We told her we would pay for immed. family and 3 of their closest couple friends only for dinner, money towards the wedding gown she wants and a week of our time share whereever they want for a honeymoon. Our immed. family is 13 and their friends would make it 19. She calls me with this grand place for the reception that requires 75 min. 2000. site rental - I asked how they were planning on saving for this in such a short time as we were only paying for the 19 people - she went off on me = screaming now I am dead to her! She really has always just bull dozed her way around when she didn’t get what she wanted until she made such scenes that we ususally compromised - well not this time. I am really not comfortable with this and we really don’t have another 14000.00 to come up with in such a short time. Her and I have always been close - she is a professional-college educated, works for a large co. even if her partner was a male we could not have afforded what they want in such a short amount of time between weddings. so…fighting and uncomfortable family gatherings with the son/fiance, no job, and now dead to my youngest dtr and best friend all I want to do is cry! Anybody have any suggestions?
i want go to die ,i felt in this world not have one can understanding of me and care about me ,all the man only like cheating women the money and love ,they like to playing women the heart .why all the people can unfair to me ,why the man and all people like to cheating me ,what is my fault to them why so bad ,i so hate all china people ,china man its bad and dirty ,and china women its bicth and dirty ,they like to
like to seize other people’s husband,if I can, and have the chance, would I make them all die to avenge all my heart because of their pain
if I can, and have the chance, would I make them all die to avenge all my heart because of their pain .i want kill all the chinese people .i hate them
I too have had a hard time the past couple of years. My oldest daughter and I went to counciling together and worked through some problems that had been long standing between us because of divorce and many mispeceptions .I had an e-coli infection that took three months to recover from and almost killed me. Then my middle daughter announced she was ready to leave her husband after many years of a very difficult marriage,She has been the sole bread winner for 16yrs. I paid for her to go for help and just as she was strong enough to leave, her husband told her he had multiple personality disorder and she caved. I’ve tried many times over the years to develop a relationship with him, but He holds grudges against anyone he perceives is against him and yells and screams if I try to talk with my daughter and she says she will not talk to me anymore , to keep peace in her family, i can’t even contact my three grand daughters and I know he has said negative things to them about me. I send them Christmas and Birthday presents but never hear a thank you from the kids or get to talk withthem.It is so very hard.I am 67 yrs old now and my husband and I are pretty close and supportive of each other. My health has not been good over the years and I’ve had several surgeries and now I’m scheduled for hyper-parathyroid surgery in two weeks, I’m hoping this will help with issues I’ve been dealing for years. My younger sister has been in the hospital now for two months with Crohnes and a very serious bone marrow disorder having blood transfusions and platlets every other day. I think they have gotten her bleeding suppressed for now, but I don’t know how much longer she can exist this way. I cry for her all the time , but have to stay positive when I talk to her on the phone.
My Mom died of cancer when she was pretty young and my first child had downes and died when he was four of heart failure and leukemia, he would have been 44yrs April 7th . I know life throws alot at all of us, but I’m having a very hard time lately. Sometimes life sucks!!
i am 16 years old and I’m currently doing my GCSE exams. and i think it’s stressing me out so much i just cry all the time. I have really nice family days with my mum or brother and then as soon as i get home. boom! i start to cry.
I have had a bad up bringing. my mum and dad split after i witnessed domestic violence towards my mum at 2 years old. i am no longer in contact with my dad and haven’t been for 11 years. i think of him all the time. also none of my family is in contact with each other apart form me. therefore i am being shared around 15 different lives. i just need someone to talk to. please help me!
Uhm well, I don’t know why I wake up and feel like crying, does that mean I’m depressed, I mean I normally just forget everything, all this pain just gets to me when I sleep, I don’t even sleep anymore I just cant fall asleep and when I do that feeling of crying just gets to me really badly but I don’t cry i get the feeling but I don’t let any tears out. I’m 15 and I feel like I’m 80, I always feel so down and tired but I tell my self just be happy lets get over with day, but it happens all over again the next day. I just don’t want it to get to the point where I explode at my friend or someone I care about. Yup that’s about it.
I feel the same way.. I feel really down and i could cry at any moment. If anybody says anything to me, i have the need to cry.
Almost to the point where i lock myself in my room and just let it all out, i try not to hit myself but i do..(not cutting myself but just punching me in the head because I’m mad at myself for crying)
If you were to look at me, you would probably think that I’m a normal looking 18year old… but on the inside I’m seriously down in the dumps all the time. I have no idea why.. it kind of came upon me.
My childhood was a normal happy childhood. But now its all changed..
My parents are not strict and would talk to me about anything, but i just can’t talk to them about this.. its almost embarrassing.
Can anyone help or tell me what is wrong with me?
Actually depression can be a chemical imbalance in your brain. And yes something traumatic or even sad can make it noticeably worse. Depression is not always a chemical imbalance. There are many things that can make one depressed. The best advice I have received was to always tell myself I am good enough no matter what. I also take an anti depresant because I do have have a chemical imbalance and I have had it my whole life. It’s not fun and when people say there is no such thing as depression, you really don’t understand. It feels like the whole world is on ur shoulders and there’s no one to turn to. You feel alone everyday sad and hopeless. I’m really sorry to all of you who suffer from this. Its very tiring.
My sister in law was suffering from depression. She was hiven zoloft. Her and my brother were married for one month. She was an amazing beautiful women. Died at 21. She was a strong christian. I am depressed. I feel like im trapped inside my head. I want a vacation from my own self. Please god help me. What does this all mean?
Post a replyi felt like this too and as I read through each and every post I realized, what we all need is God! To turn to God, I am gravely depressed and have been crying for days now. It’s sad because even my children cry as they see me cry but even though I want to stop crying I can’t. It’s an unbearable pain due to yeqrs of abuse and neglect, and now that my husband is actually changing it seems too late because all the bottled up pain has made me break down. Anyway he shared with me a psalm that made me feel comfort. 1 Be merciful to me, O God, be merciful to me, for in you my soul takes refuge; in the shadow of your wings I will take refuge, till the storms of destruction passby. [Psalms 57 :1] I know we need to talk about it and come up with a plan to get to the root and yank it out and talking to God and reading His word can bring such comfort and peace back into our hearts so that we may properly heal and He can even guide us through these difficult times! That’s my new action plan, thanks to all the previous posts, especially those who mentioned feeling numb/void/empty/like something is missing. Because It was that that made me see what the problem was! ;)
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