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don’t kill yourself! think of you children! they need you. maybe someday their moms will forgive you. you can fight for your right to see your children. keep yourself alive with that hope.
try to find love again. maybe that would help (But no more children until you can stabilize your financial situation!!) :)

you have a lot to live for!
we’re here for you, listening

You’re changing what you can, and that’s the right thing to do. Your girl’s mom doesn’t sound like someone I’d want to be with, and you don’t have to be with her either. All you have to do is what the court ordered, and be there for your children because you love them — they will always be your reason for living.

I know some women will use children to control and manipulate men, some men will, too, but you don’t have to put up with the BS — just take care of business.

Doesn’t sound like you should be alone, either. It’s been really tough, and talking to friends, family, a counselor or people at church can pull you through the rough spots.

Take that hotline number in HelpBot’s post. Call. Write it down and keep it with you at all times, just in case you need someone to talk to.

Remember, when you change, you’re the first to know. Everyone else has to be convinced. Be consistent.

You have to take care of yourself, too. Are you paying child support? What has the court ordered you to do?

Sell your computer. By your kids a toy, and buy yourself some freakin’ condoms.

As Mr. Church said many years ago, “Yes, Virginia - there is a Santa Claus”. That famous editorial was not designed to convince people that there was this fat guy that came down your chimney every year… it was written to give people hope in the things they believe in. Trust me, you think you have problems? Your problems are NOTHING. Somewhere in this world… there is someone that you would NEVER want to trade places with… and taking your life is a huge insult to them, as they struggle with their life. As Oster said (a very good point) you are making changes… you recognize this… and that is GREAT! That alone should be giving you the hope you need to survive. I do recommend my book. It’s not so exspensive, and it’s the beginning to a new life if you are willing to continue to make changes.
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Bright blessings ~R

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You should not kill yourself, you have children and if you know you are changing all you can do is plug on and eventually you will be able to convince others. Help your children as much as you can and hopefully become a stable father figure in their lives. Something they desperately need (it’s been proven over and over). So no you definitely should kill yourself.

I do want to say that that comparing your pain to other peoples struggles isn’t right. It’s your pain and it’s hurting you badly. Don’t let people belittle that and make you feel even worse for the inner troubles you have. You and your pain and unhappines are valid, I don’t care if some kid in Rwanda has it worse off than you–it doesn’t mean you hurt less.

That said, just remember, getting your life together takes time and the best way to deal with the guilt you seem to feel over your children is to become thta stable father figure in their lives and be there for them. Even if you can never really be financially secure, hopefully you will do your best, and remember no matter how poor you are you can still be a father to your children. (Although I’m not encouraging you to be lazy by any means, and I don’t think you are.) You sound like you have the strength to do what you have to, so go for it.