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i am now in college and i am going mad. everything is suddenly bombarding me so fast i dun know what to do. i am now in charge of a fund-raising prject, but you see, i am 17, and i am still rather kiddy, i dun know who to go to for logistics like renting tables and chairs, i got no experience in doing this, and the sponsoring organisation, ymca claimed that the mentor will help us, but he is not helping us, yes he told us what to do, but there are some things we as a student dun know how to do. and when we ask for sponsors companies dun take us seriously. i am going mad! and the fund-raising license is ending soon at sept. i dunno wad to do.. i am so stressed. i took up the fund-raise event bcos i like to do such things, but i thought the mentors will lend us more help than jus sit there and tell us what to do, but not how to do.and plus academics stress aside, i am also very stressed over running 2.4km for my physical fitness test, bcos i vomit whenever i run long distance, i got a doc. letter to let me run/walk/jog during pe lessons but the teachers wun let me go unless i got a letter to excuse from physical fitness test, until then, they will jus keep torturing me until they are convinced that i will die if i run, bcos since i was supposed to walk/run/jog, how am i going to pass my 2.4km run? they keep training u harder and harder and the more thay train, the more stress i am as i cannot keep up with them, i feel bad ok.i tink i am having phobia of running! is there such a phobia, omg. my life relatively compared to my high school life is really messy. bcos in this country, i have to be an allrounder, ppl expect u to be, u have to be gd in academics definitely, good in sports, good in musical/aesthetic, gd in record, superb leadership, polite nice and sweet, most importantly, in this place, the culture is that u dun stray off the mainstream, u dun pursue ur dream if ur dream is not on the mainstream, bcos practically speaking, doing the less popular career or work will not keep ur stomach full. so u dun question authority, dun question anything, they wan u to jus follow the rules. for 16 years i had been living like this, then i dunno when, i suddenly come to this realisation that i had actually been doing things ppl told me, doing things i dunlike but bcos ppl told me tO do it, i do it. i know the adults would say, if they dun tell us what to do , we might up astray or what, ok tts true to some extent, but sometimes they are really asking for too much, when they still treat us college students like primary school students:’ u all mus study this and tt, no u cannot do this, it will affect ur conduct, u will gt disciplinary actions from college if u dun turn up for a stupid sch event’, which in other college, it will nt be compulsary. i am not trying to say i wan to do things that i like to do. but i definitely dun wan to do things i dun like to do. yet they keep using discipline stuff to force me. plus which country, except mine, make physical education a compulsary in college, tell u what students usually have little say in everything in sch, but mine, we gt far less say in sch. i should hav gone for polytechnics or other institutes, why in the hell did i choose to go to college?! if university life is going to be so stringent, tell u wad, i tink i will jus die, seriously. my mum will not accept that i dun go university plus, except studying i gt no other things i am gd at. i have a feeling that the college i am enrolled in is a military school under cover.the norm running distance every lesson is 3.2km, with some scary conditioning.

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