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I think I’m going crazy.

I’ve been alone for 2 years and this feeling has been tearing me apart. I have no one to talk to, no one to cry to, I have no one but me and I can’t take it anymore. And to think that I used to be an optimist. Lost all hope that something will change, cause how long can a human being keep believing?

Sorry for this. I guess this is probably the only place where I can write about matters that make me sick and tired.

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Barbyman offline Verified User (2 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Unknown Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (7 minutes after post)

no, no, come on its not that bad ,how come you are alone for two years?tell me a little bit more and we may sort it all out,are you working?are you a student?is there a sicknes?please tell us!!!

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DoubleO offline Verified User (3 years) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Sayreville, NJ, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (18 minutes after post)

Yes. More info would be good. Then we can help better.
And this is what this site is for. Don’t ever apologize unless you’ve done something wrong and you haven’t.

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Thepp offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (22 minutes after post)

Hi there yoda1.

Why and how is it you are so loney? According to your profile you play guitar, act, sing etc. These are things that should bring you into contact with other people.

Like the two replies above say, just carry on talking right here on Help.com.

From Thepp.

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Thepp offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (28 minutes after post)

Dont know if you have noticed, You have had 1 reply from Australia, 1 from America and I come from England. It’s something special when you can communicate with people from different parts of the world.

From Thepp.

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yoda1 offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 26 #
Augustw, 61, PL | 2 years, 4 months ago (43 minutes after post)

I’m a student. I’m alone, cause the only friends I’ve ever had - my brother and my sister have gone to a university, 300 kilometers away from home. The distance and the fact that they have to study a lot, so they can’t call often, separeted me from them. What I mean is that this specific bond that was between us disappeared. I can’t talk to them the way I once could. That’s one thing.

Another thing is that my mother works form 7 a.m. to 4 p.m., so she doesn’t have much time for me. And even when she does, I can’t turn to her for help, cause when I try to explain her something, she lectures me. She’s a psychologist, so lecturing is what she does for living. I tried asking her just to listen to me, without saying a word. I tried that many times, but she can’t.
My father is abroad, that’s not good for me either. He’s been abroad for 9 years now. He’s home for two weeks three times a year.

It’s not that I don’t love them, I really do. They’re everything to me. But I feel like they don’t know me at all and it’s hard.

I’m not an outsider, I’m rather popular. But you know what they say, if you have many friends, you have none friends. When my “friends” need something, I’m always there for them, but when I’m in trouble or having a hard time, they don’t even talk to me. Like I was sick, or something.

As for my hobbies, well… I live in a small town. Playing guitar and singing are things that most people do at home. Me too. And here, in my hometown, I can act only at my school. With my classmates, which is ironic.

You’re right, the Internet is a great thing. You may find it weird, but I’m very grateful to you for replying. It uplifted me a bit.

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jd77058 offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Houston, TX, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (45 minutes after post)

you’ll be fine, you sound more human than most people I know, what’s going on in your life that seems unreal?

J

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Thepp offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (52 minutes after post)

Have you tried getting together with some of your student friends? Playing the guitar and singing together. Is there any activity in you local churches that you can get involved in? Can you join any local acting groups, or other things that you are interested in?

It seems that you have to try to change your lifes ways, to make things work out better for you.

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yoda1 offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 26 #
Augustw, 61, PL | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 12 minutes after post)

The thing is that I’ve tried. But guess what, there are NO acting groups outside of schools, NO church activities for young people and even if there are, you can sign up to them only at the beginning of September. No youth activities here, cause the town invests in tourists, not the inhabitants.
As I said, my student friends don’t give a **** about me (even going out for a walk with me is too much for them to do). I don’t know anyone else. Besides, it’s July now and summer holidays are not favourable for lonely people. Poles are rather unfriendly and xenophobic, at least most of them. They really don’t like changes and new people around.
I’m not looking for excuses, these are the facts. Believe me, I’d give anything to find someone I’d be able to talk to. Anything.

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Thepp offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 21 minutes after post)

I’m not a great person for conversing with others, but I am going to leave a shout with all of my friends and a few other members. In a while you should get some responses from some of them. I know it’s not the same as having friends where you live but you should find some of them very friendly. I hope that this will be helpfull to you.

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Thepp offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 25 minutes after post)

Just sent some invites out.

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yoda1 offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 26 #
Augustw, 61, PL | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 31 minutes after post)

Thepp, you’re an angel. I’d hug you, if I could:)

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Thepp offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 34 minutes after post)

Thankyou, I’ve almost got the urge to come over there for a hug.

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DoubleO offline Verified User (3 years) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Sayreville, NJ, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 39 minutes after post)

Hi. I’m sorry you feel so lonely. Sounds like you need to find one friend that cares about you. One good friend is better then 100 “friends”.
What about volunteering somewhere? Are there any hospitals around you or retirement homes. Retirment homes are really good because a lot of those people are also lonely and they would love to talk and listen to someone. And old people most of the time give the best advise. There isn’t much they haven’t done.

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Good ole boy offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 11 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 41 minutes after post)

Hey whats up Yoda, this is a good place to come for help. You’ll make numerous friends on here and learn that we all have something in common. Sometimes, you’ll find an indidual that has way more in common with you than others. So hang around for awhile, talk and get to know us and we’ll be more than happy to get to know you:)

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Bethesda, MD, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 44 minutes after post)

Hey Yoda…
To introduce myself…
I am Jay…
Im the joker on this hur site.
I love to talk, so if you have any messenger prgs, I think I have em
all!
Also, come into chat once in a while…
we’re crazy, but a pickmeup.

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yoda1 offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 26 #
Augustw, 61, PL | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 46 minutes after post)

The local hospital doesn’t take any volunteers. There’s a hospice, though, I can try volunteering there. Thanks:)

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Marc (Sec) offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 56 minutes after post)

Hey, that’s one awesome pic you got there.

Let me introduce myself: I am Seven, the grumpy old stranger on this page. You’ll find here a lot of awesome people, and I freakin’ mean it.

Hope to chat with you some day.

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Thepp offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 56 minutes after post)

If you click on the little blue man by the side of each users avatar picture, you should be able to add them to you friends list. When you get realy boared you can visit my website if you would like to. It is www.theperfectpicture.org.uk

Bye for a little while, will check back a bit later on.

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gimli offline Verified User (3 years, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Marietta, GA, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (2 hours, 7 minutes after post)

Hi Kaya!

If you don’t have any local friends, we’ll have to do. Pull up a chair and get comfortable…I think you’ll like it here!

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Thepp offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (3 hours, 1 minute after post)

Checking back like I said. You should get some more replies yet, some of the users I invited might not get the message untill tomorrow or later. Both “Adriana” and “Cookies and Cream” have sent you a message via the shout it part of the website. I get on particularly well with both of them, they are very good people to talk to.

Thanks for becoming my latest friend.

I am signing off now, will check your post again tomorrow. Goodnight yoda1.

From Thepp.

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amoonmaiden offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Davidsonville, MD, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (3 hours, 12 minutes after post)

Hi Yoda!Hey just about every one that I have asked says that they discovered Help.com by entering HELP into their browser subject line.
Me too.
I have been here for quite a while. And I cannot remember what it was like before I became a member of the Help.com family.
I do gotta tell you though, you simply will NOT find a greater bunch of people anywhere. No matter where you look, or for how long.
Nope.
These are the best….right here.
Please check your bags at the door and stay…..okay?
We welcome you with open arms.
Oh, my name is Mandy.
Shout me anytime….
Welcome!
Mandy (hehe)

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aciraelf offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (3 hours, 52 minutes after post)

try joining some groups in school this is how you can make friends and make sure that your joining something you like so you can find people who share your interests like maybe a musical or something is that’s what you like to do (I made some freinds in the musical this year)P.S. I’m a student too

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apache tear offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
Milverton, ON, CA | 2 years, 4 months ago (4 hours, 28 minutes after post)

hey, if you want to talk, feel free to give me a shoutout.
Take care
Jessica

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graceconnie0 offline Verified User (2 years, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Corinna, ME, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (6 hours, 30 minutes after post)

Hi I’m Grace. I was from a small, narrow minded town too. Don’t worry, once you get out in the world and meet new people, your loniness will lift and you won’t feel so down. Everyone has thier down days when they think no one likes them. Just continue to be a friend to those around you and help them when they need it. They will appeciate it in the end… and be a friend back.

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Gvle, 03, SE | 2 years, 4 months ago (8 hours, 3 minutes after post)

Hi Yoda!
I’m Molotok, living not too far from you (Sweden). I’m just me, having opinions about a lot. Tough times, being apart from your siblings and your father. But I believe that you will get closer to them all again.

A lot of Polish people go abroad to work, finding better jobs/salaries than back home. Many come to Sweden. But Poland is catching up very fast, it wouldn’t surprise me if Swedes go to Poland for better conditions soon…

Thepp mentioned “Cookies & Cream” in his comment. She’s going to Poland next week, for some music stuff. I guess her choir will perform somewhere. Ask her where, because if it’s close to you, why not go and listen to her?

Friends good, here are. Yoda to this, you listen… …lol

Come on, you’ll find yourself comfortable among us! Things will soon ease up around your physical whereabouts!

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BKH199 offline Verified User (2 years, 8 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
An Undisclosed Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (20 hours, 21 minutes after post)

I sorry that you feel alone… but you can always talk to me. Hope that helps.

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ɐʇɐɯɹǝɟ.Suc offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
Luton, I1, GB | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 day, 1 hour after post)

Sorry I can’t really help
My opinions on this fluctuate so much

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Mï†z¥-superMODel offline Verified User (2 years, 9 months) Help.com Volunteer Moderator Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
Tullahoma, TN, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (3 days, 6 hours after post)

Hello! I’m Mitzy! Nice to meet ya :D

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An Unknown Location | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 week after post)

Hi Yoda
Umm my name is Obed, Just moved to Canada and im kind of in was kind of in a lonely situation to, all my family is here but i cant talk to anyone so its as if im alone. But i found this one friend who doesnt even live in the city and weve been pals ever since. Were not going out together but its great to have someone that listens to you, sooo im thinking that you probably need a mate, someone that will go out with you maybe then things will get better

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molotok offline Verified User (3 years, 5 months) Long Term User Shouts: 18 #
Gvle, 03, SE | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 week after post)

Hi again,
Don’t forget Cookies’ choir stuff!

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An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 1 month ago (1 year, 3 months after post)

i found this post completely by accident, i just typed in “help me, im going crazy” and this came up. i realize that im not the only one out there whos feeling lost, and although there is almost no chance ANYONE will see this, at least i know im not alone. anyone who wishes to respond to me can send me an email. im here….all the time, alone…waiting.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year ago (1 year, 4 months after post)

Hey, I’m Mario. i live in a small town with extremely narrow minded people that dont like to express any feelings whatsoever. Its driving me insane. Its either A-everything is fine because it seems to be, or B-your your going crazy-theres no use for you. My mother is extremely anxious 24/7 and my father is a paranoid schizophrenic, but noone cares to acknologe this but me. I catch myself behaving just like him and im fearful that i might be developing the same symptoms of it. It feels good to know that there is a website that people go to to vent. It helps that much more. E-mail me anytime

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An Unknown Location | 7 months ago (1 year, 9 months after post)

I thought I was going crazy which is why I googled that phrase and found help.com. I just read shamabalmba’s post and it seems there are many people doing the same. The best thing we can do is encourage each other. Maybe we should put in writing why we have it rough. Better than keeping it locked in. Besides, you guys are the only people I have to talk to (I have found the kindest people online)Anyway, to keep it short, my father recently died of Alzheimer’s disease. I was living in Houston, Texas. Oh, its too long and probably not a good idea anyway. How to deal with this anxiety without getting too hooked on Benzo’s is hard. Thanks for letting me vent. I don’t know what else to say except I think if I read several more posts I will feel a little better….email me anytime too. I am a good listener.

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An Unknown Location | 5 months, 1 week ago (1 year, 11 months after post)

Hi, I’m janice. I’m 19 years old. I have extreme mood swings and bouts of anger. I’m anxious all the time!!! I second guess myself on everything. I feel like I’m goingcrazy…. I don’t know what to do anymore. I have a fear of being in public…. I get extremely nervous when I’m around people… I am usually really quiet because I’m afraid I’ll say something stupid… I really don’t know where else to turn. I’ve been on meds before and tried therapy…. Now it just seems like I’m going crazy and I’m powerless to stop it.

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An Unknown Location | 2 months ago (2 years, 2 months after post)

Janice, I am the exact same way. Your post literally made me cry because I know exactly what you are feeling. I don’t know what to do!

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An Unknown Location | 2 months ago (2 years, 2 months after post)

heeeey i feel exactly the same !!!!

let’s be best friends !!!

take my email

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add me on msn and let’s talk i think we can help each other a lot !!!

see u peace keep ur head up pls !!!

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An Unknown Location | 3 weeks, 5 days ago (2 years, 3 months after post)

Janice, chaddysmit. be strong!!!! k
janice…ive been having mood swings too! sometimes. but then, when im feeling bad or sad, i tend not to talk with my friends…bcoz im afraid of exploding my anger…so its better to keep quiet right..but that was just like…early in the morning(hehe…before the beginning of class session.) i think medical school is tough. i hate reading. i should have taken anything related to maths, but what to do….only 2 years more until my graduation. i need to keep myself strong. that’s one of the things that’s making me anxious(always), for not being able to read things quickly, yet i have many things to do=(
n yeah, since back them when im single(been about 8months)…i always feel sad and lonely. no one to talk to.(do have many friends here…but i only talk to them during classes…at home, everyone seems busy with internet n own boyfriends…u see). and yeah i do call my family every week. but my brother n sisters they already have their own family, so we only chat once a while. huhuhuh…..i hate being alone..just like u yoda1=(

well in my place…we only have 7 boys n 3 girls…so everyday i tend to see the very same faces…what a sad life…my network of friends is not progressing much aite)…huhuh one of the cons studying overseas.

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An Unknown Location | 1 week, 1 day ago (2 years, 4 months after post)

janice. i know. i feel the exact same way. also, its like im sane, but i realize how crazy im going when i look at things im doing and thinking about in situations and compare it to a normal person. i should be ok with talkin to my family, and meeting new people, and speaking up in public. but i feel just, not really sure of anything. i typed “i think im going crazy” in google and i found this place.

i really dont even know if this post is sane.

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