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i am thinking of killing myself.
i have struggled so long. nothing works. i have tried so much.
everything I do, the credit goes to other people, and the blame goes to me. i’m about to lose my job, because I’ve been outmanipulated for almost a decade by people who are famous and rich from my work. my wife is going to leave me because the suffering is getting to her.
i am so tired of life.
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do somthing productive like outwit, out smart everybody get craft and mean. dont let people walk over you. suiside is not the answer talk with your wife and get help… you have with you right now the power to deal with what ever life throws at you…
Explain to your wife you’re going to change jobs and ask her to give you some more time so you can try to fix things in the best possible circumstances.
Find another job fast. There must be many companies who can use someone with your experience. However, when you get an interview, don’t say negative things about your current job, colleagues and bosses, but just that you need a new challenge or something (nobody wants to hire someone who is negative about his boss or colleagues). Once you get a new one, quit your current job.
There’s always a solution. But sometimes you must become desperate before having the courage to implement drastic measures.
There are other jobs. There are (should she leave you anyway) other women. And there will always be the kind people, animals, kind people, food, nature and sunshine…
Hang in there mate! But take decisions.
wow, there have been long replies to this one.
no1 can’;t really stop u from trying to commit suicide. ud be making the decision for urself. the real person who can only get u through this is urself, which is why its important to allow people to help u and guide u through this.
sounds to me like u dont enjoy ur job and it isn’t helping you, so perhaps u could ask to urself whether carrying on with it is doing u any favours, because its making u unhappy and im sure it makes it difficult for ur wife.
changing ur job may help, as long as u do what u want to do.
no1 can really stop u from trying to commit suicide*
me too, if you ever want to talk about it my sn is JesicaSmelwell on aim
Even though I don’t know you, I can tell that you’re an amazing person. You’re taking the whole burden of other people’s shortcomings onto yourself. That takes someone with a very big heart. But your suffering isn’t going to change their behavior, and it hasn’t hurt them one bit - has it?
You’re a fighter too, or you wouldn’t have tried so many things and you wouldn’t be posting here. Keep fighting, but fight for only what is YOURS - your integrity, your experience, your strengths, your family. The manipulation and the lies - those are OTHER people’s problems, OTHER people’s shortcomings. They don’t belong to you. Don’t try to fight against them - fight FOR YOU. There’s a huge difference, I hope you can see it. Don’t take the burden of their shortcomings onto yourself - don’t hurt or kill yourself because of people like that. How is it fair for you to pay the price of their hurtful deeds by giving up your very life, or even “just” your emotional sanity? You’re worth MORE than that - WAY more.
If you haven’t realized it yet, let me tell you something that I know from personal experience - the world needs people like you. If you can find a way, once you have healed from this, to focus the energies of that huge heart of yours into helping others in need, imagine what could happen!
There is always a way out, without checking out. PLEASE ask someone who knows you, who you can trust, to help you find a way out. If your wife is feeling like she wants to leave you because your suffering is getting to her, maybe she will stay if you will let her help you. I don’t know the situation - it’s just my thought, as a complete outsider. But I will be praying fiercely that you keep going.
You dont want to do what you think, in time you will see great things come your way and when you see the miracles and good things that come from misfortunes you have had in the past. You need to go past this thought, find GOD and go see a doctor and get medication and dont try to medicate yourself for you will only come back to the place where you started suicide. My brother was in law enforcement and felt as you. I could only sell him on going to God. He listened and now he has all new freinds and more freinds than me, He just got a brand new 80,000 BMW and is really happy, his misfortune came 3 years ago.
Go to God and you will see alot of things come your way so dont cheat yourself from the beauty this life has. You new job will be better and your new girlfreind or wife will be better than what you have. replace your old freinds that do nothing for you and have faith that people in this screwy world do care. God Bless and may all your misfortunes pass
If this is stk3650 I am dong this right. God does not leave any one for dead although he lets people go through some crazy things. “wWHY” BECAUSE he needs you to realize you cannot do your life without him so he makes crazy things happen.
I could write a book on all the great things God has done for me and I dont think we have time to tell it all to you. I can say this God is like a husband to a girl and a wife to a man. The wants committment and if you commit to GOD he will reward you in so many ways.
Mankind takes him for granted and you probably have to. all the great things you have are because of him and if you sincerly make that committment to him he will reward you in ways that you cannot even fathom. You are probably a great girl it is because of God you are probably a great person.
HUGS AND CARE FROM THE BOYS IN THE HEAVENS
i lost my faith yes, but with good reason so God needs a good reason to get me back
I couldnt find your postings to see your problem. But I hope you are safe and remember you have some one in California. Boys in the Heavens
i feel like killing myself. i worked hard at 40 something, i was working full-time, going to school full-time. nothing was ever good enough. i always seemed like i didnt have what it takes. i turned to crack cocaine, and everything went to hell for sure. i have been clean for along time but no one will forgive me. or at least let me forget what i had done in the year i was using. no one remembers the other good 40 years. i sabotaged everything. i dont know where to turn. it seems like everyone now relates me to a crack head. i cant believe how people are so judgemental. even my family. they hurt me more than anyone else. good-bye world. i hope tht someone reads this and it at least keeps them from doing drugs. believe me i did all drugs an never became addicted so dont think u can do them, and it won’t happen to u.b
where u going bemorrow1?
make a new post so more people can read. this ones rather old.
Hi bemorrow1! Thanks for the drug warning. I heard crack is really evil stuff. What is your opinion on LSD and marihuana, if consumed occasionally and with care? I haven’t tried them, but I’m curious.
Congrats on being clean. I’m sorry if your family can’t get over the past. Just remember there are lots of *other* people out there on who you can still make a great first impression.
Friendly hug.
Remember every one life could be worse! think of all the things you currently have.
Be safe and remember god loves all of you even the ????
Oh….Its just simple for me….I have beensaving my blood pressure pills and zoloft and I have about 40 pills on 10 mg valium…….
it is in a bottle waiting……whats so funny about it i keep dipping in it an getting the valium like tonite.
i think im ready to do it. I just want to make sure when I take it I will not wake up.
Can I get Responses from this page?
I took 20 valium on Wednesday……I had just shaved ….when I woke up I had a beard….It was so ******* weird.
I have read some of the responses….the point I will make is that I have had a GREAT life…..Im just bored. My boyfriend is a **** up too….all he wants is money
OK…guess no body person human is here to talk….I will be leaving…..Nice chatting with my fellow suicide misssionaries….lol…hey we made a new word
ok one last ditch effort…dont be scared. my phone number is 979 240 8158…..I live on mmatagorda beach south texas….Im about to go outside and smoke a cig…..if any of ou are there call me….. I willl answer
eventualy something in you life will give you a reason to live that might be tomorow or in 20 years but it will eventually happen so dont kill yourself because your might change tomorow and if it dosent maybe the next but just keep waiting until it happens
start smokin some weed dude honstly it will help u relax like 92390423049823094 times better
im really sick of life. 46 years of this ****, nothing to show, cant get any help. death seems so relaxing. nobody left to really talk to..my head feels like its going to split..im affraid to see anybody, do anything, even almost look out of the house. im not going to live this way anymore!
Just do it already! i’ll let you use my big *** .45 pistol! i hate my life too! i have lost my job! i’m getting ready to lose everything! let’s all just quit ******** and f#@~ing do it for christ’s sake!
im 17 years old and i feel as i have the problems of a middle aged man. problems seem to emerge as i keep getting older im doing horrible in school i feel as my gf is ******* everyone in my town. that im a waste of talent physically and mentally. on some days i feel like the best looking kid around but others i feel like a hideous piece of ****. i dont kno what it is but i also feel like im dissapointing my dad whose successful and burdens over me that if i don’t get on the right track im not going to make money in the future. I also have a mom whose never home so that leaves me in a situation where i want to blow my fucken head offf.
I read this and have a hard time believing in God anymore. I doubt I’ll kill myself but honestly I think about it everyday. I’m a normal 36 year old male and jsut have been very unhappy, it’s not my job but I just feel very alone. I’ve been religious for as long as I can remember and continue to go to church. So far I’ve been begging God to help me get through this. I’ve been beggin him for 5 years now and I just keep getting worse. I’m having a hard time believing there is a God anymore, it’s a shame.
I think God hates me.
hi my name is tom and im 17 years old
i live in canada ON.
im thinking about killing my self.i feel like my life is going no were im loosing my GF iv beed with for 2 years and i have a ***** home life my just wants me for the child saport and my dad wants me so he doesnt have to pay .im a tall /meduim build kid i dont like to fight and i get pick on at school all the time
it like evry thing i touch falls apart and im just done i want it all to stop
PLZ HELP ME !!! i dont know whant to do
hey, you’re only 17 years old so i wouldn’t worry soo much. All you have to do is stick it out 1-2 more years, finish school and then move out of your house. things will get better and you’re soo **** young so just give it a little time. When i wrote my last statement, things have gotten better. If you need to vent just shoot me an email and i’ll listen. Im a fairly intelligent guy and give everyone else great advice, jsut cant seem to help myself at times.
As for the kids that pick on you, they’ll prob grow up to be convicts. ; )
don’t give up god will try you sometimes.he will bring you down as far as you can go but he will pick you back up.you have to have hope.this day in time most of the world is looking for hope.be strong god will help you just talk to him.he does answer.i am living proof
thanks wmmfor im glad someone cares
i cut my self today
i feel like **** i just want to die
why would you do that.not going to solve anything.sometimes i wish you would have a good talk to god.i cant seem to help but he can.please you are one of his special children.talk to him he will listen.he will just try.
iv tryed and its just got wors
so what do you suggest to do when you dont see anyway of thing getting better
you have to believe and think more of yourself.look i lost the only think i had in my life besides god.i was married for 37 years.he died may 27th.it hurts bad.he took part of me when he left.if i was to kill myself i want get to see him again.so i am still here trying to help other people
look if you do that what do you think that will solve.nothing!do you think you are the only one.i didn’t say but i am looking at5 to 10 years for trying to keep my husband alive and then i here you talk about wanting to die.look maybe i am wrong try talking to your wife.quit feeling sorry for yourself and fight.i have nothing else to lose.you still have yours fight for it.
do you have any family or friends you can talk to? you may need to vent to someone. whats the issue? why’s your life soo bad? remember i told you that you’re too young to be doing stuff like this
i want to die period im a big failure in life cant go anywhere in life im gone
if you really wanted to die you wouldn’t be talking to us.so why cant you just say what you mean.we all care.do you think all of us wasn’t their before.not! we all have problems in life.you have to believe in yourself before anyone can help you.i don’t know you but i do care and pray for you ever since i read this post.just try .can’t you even do that?
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