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This is my story of how I became homeless and what I have learned so far to this point.

What is normal? Who can you trust? and When does the suffering end?

My name is Cindy, 34 yr old, mother of 2 beautiful girls, yet can not provide a home for them or see them. I had gone through very severe depression after the break up of my ex-fiance, who was mentally abusive. I turned to drugs for seven months but that did not help so I got clean and things got worse. I ended up homeless, carless, jobless, and childless. I felt the world would be better off without me, so I picked up a gun for the first time in my life, and aimed for my heart and pulled the trigger. Thank God I did not know where my heart was but I clipped every other organ inside of me below my heart. Only by the Grace of God am I alive today to tell you my story. I have to wear a colostomy bag, waiting on reversal of the surgery, yet it costs $5000.00 as a down payment to get it done without insurance. After I left the hospital I came to what i thought was a Christian based facilty called Women In Crisis, which cost me $3000.00 to find out that the place was a fraud. Now again I am homeless, jobless, carless, and still can not support my 2 beautiful daughters.
I don’t know where else to turn but I need help with the down payment for my surgery, and for money to help pay my bills so I won’t be on the street under a bridge. I have faith in God and Beleive he will meet my every need, so now I am asking for your help as well. If you or someone you know will find it in your heart to help me it would be greatly appreciated, may God bless you always.

Sincerely,
Cynthia L. Simmons
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cake23u offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Norfolk, VA, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (13 minutes after post)

I wish much blessing to you, and I am sure you know it is not your time yet. I commend you for being strong and wanting to stay in this life. It is hard and I do not think that people today realize how much hurt and pain a person goes through emotionally especially when it comes to kids and a relationship. I do not want to dwell on what is now your past and you are moving forward. I do not know your religious status, but I will share this with you because it enlightened me. I was in church Sunday and the preacher said something that I knew but haven’t really listened to. He said, when you are down and out and so many bad things seem to be happening to you and you just can’t seem to get out of it, you think it is the evil that binds you but sometimes it is the one who loves you meaning GOD. He backed up his statement by saying just like we punish our kids for disobedience and misbehaving God does the same just to wake us up and be who we should be in life. I do not know if this means anything to you, but it did for me. I also learn to not ignore those doubts in life because those doubts are soon to become actions that you wish you were never apart of. I hope that this site will help you and we all need help and you will be able to get the surgery even if it doesn’t you still do not give up, patience is a might thing to have. I wish you much blessings and wisdom.

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OccultPizz offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Spokane, WA, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (41 minutes after post)

Honestly, if I ever had to wear a crap or pee bag I would kill myself! I know some people are capable of living through anything that is not me. You can call it weakness, I prefer to call it dignity and everyone should be able to live with it ~smiles~.

I would love to help, unfortunately I am dying of a terminal illness and unable to work. My wife makes good money but our income has been cut in half or less when I closed my business down ~sighs~.

I hope you find what you are seeking ~smiles~

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UCreateUrReality offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Atlanta, GA, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 26 minutes after post)

Wow! with this kind of help, who needs enemies.
Hi Cindy, I think it is brave of you to tell your story, and seek help yet again. I’ve been homeless before and I know what you are going through. The depression that can set in is the worst. But since you have realized you’re going to live through this, you have to do everything in your power to fight depression and takes steps foward in getting your needs met. Dont focus on what you havent done but what you can do, right now.
I can do more later, but I pulled up this link for Mobile:
http://paula.edmiston.org/nb/homeless…
and if you think you have exhausted every kind of help in Mobile, why not try Birmingham or Atlanta. In Atlanta, I know there is plenty of help for people with depression, homelessness, drug addiction, and disability. Step by step is all you can do… but you’ll get there. Believe me, if I can get through it, you can too

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OccultPizz offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 2 #
Spokane, WA, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 hour, 57 minutes after post)

Yeah sorry I guess that wasn’t very helpful. It was meant to be a personal opionon of which I guess was not warranted…just thinking outloud ~cringes~.

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helpisfinallyhere offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Louisville, KY, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (8 hours, 2 minutes after post)

I am on the phone right now with Neighborhood Community Services and they said to call the homeless coalition of mobile and here is the number two five one four three two seven two two seven They can help you find medical services also then you can look up my website and see what else I can help you with at www.freewebs.com/helpisfinallyhere this place is called 15 place they will set you up with a case worker durring the day from 8 to 4 you need to talk to robert keen or ms. throrton or josh willis and they are casemangers that will help you with your special needs. if you come tonight you can come by police escort and they will take you in. this is from the manager of the place. they don’t want to put you in any danager her name is angalia lewis

Call them Now

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cindysgrlz offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Mobile, AL, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 day, 7 hours after post)

i am no longer on drugs and i am not in any danger i am just in need of monies for rent and utilitites, and for gas to get back to and from the doctors thank you

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UCreateUrReality offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Atlanta, GA, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 day, 7 hours after post)

Well Cindy, any of the organizations we posted and maybe the red cross or Salvation Army might be able to help you with that, but this website is not the place to look for free money or donations. Good luck.

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UCreateUrReality offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Atlanta, GA, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (1 day, 10 hours after post)

I hope that didnt sound too harsh, but when it comes to money everyone has to create the resources to take care of themselves. Psychologically, when you rely on others to take care of you it takes part of your soul and you know deep down it isnt right and thats when addictions and self-destructive behavior begins. You have to take the steps necessary to fix your own problems. We can help you help yourself but thats all we can do

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cindysgrlz offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Mobile, AL, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (2 days, 9 hours after post)

first off i am not looking for money to come stright to me any one can pay my landlady or pay the hospital for my surgery. If you think i am begging for money then you are saddly mistaken i am hoping that god will touch someones heart and help me where i need it most i am not a bum or a druggie or alcoholic needing money for my fix i am a serious person in need of rent money and surgery money if you cant help and if god did not tell you to help then dont help and please dont get rude or mean with me on here i am not a mean or rude person to any body all i hope is that god will touch those that will help me thank you for your reply and for your concern

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helpisfinallyhere offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Louisville, KY, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (5 days, 13 hours after post)

well cindy, personally since you yet to contact, and you didn’t get intouch with those people I don’t buy your story any longer. I am able to put you in a place and help you with your surgery, all you had to do was contact me like I asked you to do in the post I have above. I have done pretty good for people, and I was on the phone as I was typing that message and yes in fact had you done like I said you would not be homeless today and you would have a doctor and your surgery date would be set. So I am sorry you didn’t listen. see they would have gotten you a case worker that would have helped you. so what do you say about that?

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cindysgrlz offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Mobile, AL, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (6 days, 1 hour after post)

i had called them way before i even got on the internet to try to get help they told me at the time there was nothing they could do there for that is the reason i did not call and that i did not go there i am not homeless yet but if i dont get help with my rent i will be i have till the 15th then i will be homeless i find out if i get my ssi this week and then i will be able to get medicaid and get my surgery but i was trying to get it now before it is non reversible it is not that i am trying to avoid getting help but i have called all the help lines here and half called 211 which is the united way number here and they have given me many numbers and more numbers and it is just hard to get help in alabama since this is a poor state thank you and if you can think of anything please let me know but at the 15th place mr. king has always told me there was nothing they could do again thank you and may god bless you

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cindysgrlz offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Mobile, AL, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (6 days, 1 hour after post)

This is my story of how I became homeless and what I have learned so far to this point.

What is normal? Who can you trust? and When does the suffering end?

My name is Cindy, 34 yr old, mother of 2 beautiful girls, yet can not provide a home for them or see them. I had gone through very severe depression after the break up of my ex-fiance, who was mentally abusive. I turned to drugs for seven months but that did not help so I got clean and things got worse. I ended up homeless, carless, jobless, and childless. I felt the world would be better off without me, so I picked up a gun for the first time in my life, and aimed for my heart and pulled the trigger. Thank God I did not know where my heart was but I clipped every other organ inside of me below my heart. Only by the Grace of God am I alive today to tell you my story. I have to wear a colostomy bag, waiting on reversal of the surgery, yet it costs $5000.00 as a down payment to get it done without insurance. After I left the hospital I came to what i thought was a Christian based facilty called Women In Crisis, which cost me $3000.00 to find out that the place was a fraud. Now again I am homeless, jobless, carless, and still can not support my 2 beautiful daughters.
I don’t know where else to turn but I need help with the down payment for my surgery, and for money to help pay my bills so I won’t be on the street under a bridge. I have faith in God and Beleive he will meet my every need, so now I am asking for your help as well. If you or someone you know will find it in your heart to help me it would be greatly appreciated, may God bless you always.

Sincerely,
Cynthia L. Simmons
1002 McCay Ave.
Mobile Alabama 36609
251-633-7917
(email removed)

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helpisfinallyhere offline Verified User (2 years, 7 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Louisville, KY, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (6 days, 2 hours after post)

Again Cindy, I am asking you WHY are you not doing things the way I have laid them out for you. I opened the door. I don’t care if you went there before, I called them and talked to them. As head of another charity calling a charity asking for help for someone in their area they listen a bit closer, I don’t know why, but they do. They said they would help you that is why there are NAMES in the post above, those are the names of the people I talked with and they WERE waiting on you THAT day. YOU blew it. THEY were going to help you. Another thing if you have medicade you DO NOT NEED ANY MONEY for your operation. If you are getting SSI you should have a caseworker that can help you get a home. See you came to a place where we are smart people, and we know how to help people. But you also have to know how to help your self when it is offered to you. I told you to fill out an application to my charity for help you still haven’t done that and I am still asking why?

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UCreateUrReality offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Atlanta, GA, US | 2 years, 4 months ago (6 days, 6 hours after post)

cindysgrlz, if you truly want help, it is being offered to you in a tangible, concrete form. Take it, it’s the same as money. Don’t be like the guy on his roof in a flood who kept asking God to save him, but told all the people in boats that floated by that he’ll wait for God to save him. Just because its not how YOU expected it to happen does not mean it isn’t help. Take it

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DebbiePackenha offline Verified User (1 year, 11 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
An Unknown Location | 1 year, 11 months ago (4 months, 3 weeks after post)

I know exactly what and who you are talking about she has done the same thing to me and my Dad. She is an evil woman and she is going to pay one day soon. Thank God I have one friend to take me in. I have gone to the police I have gone to Catholic Social services, I have even called the television stations nobody will listen to me. She has my Christmas lights and my Christmas Tree up at her house on 6 Florida Street. How can we stop this woman? PLEASE HELP.

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UCreateUrReality offline Verified User (2 years, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 4 #
Atlanta, GA, US | 1 year, 11 months ago (4 months, 4 weeks after post)

DebbiePackenha: I think you might want to start a new post on the start page of help.com

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US | 1 year, 11 months ago (5 months, 1 week after post)

My first blog post. I’d like to revel in this achievement being that i am homeless and carless myself. lol, but this situation doesnt seem to have a place for much happiness right now. I understand your problem Cindy, and can also understand the frustration of those who have provided windows of opportunity to you as well. I can see your disheartenment over having to dial more numbers for more mind numbing questions that you’ve answered over and over before with the same results in your situation, but you have to keep trying something, or that depression will take over again. You see, If GOD removes a demon from your being, you become marked by the evil one, and he keeps sending those same types of demons back to you to attack you, hence one seeking to get back into trouble from usually the same drug addictions later on, or so you see what im trying to say. Actually, if you dont see, what im saying is, keep dialing, listen to those that have taken even a spare minute of their time to try and help and HOPE, have FAITH like you say you do, and perhaps one of those future phone calls will contain your salvation from this problem!! I know thats what im having to do right now. I hope to hear good news from you and i will pray for you.

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An Unknown Location | 1 year, 6 months ago (9 months, 3 weeks after post)

Cindy… geez girl stop looking at a ‘god’ for help. You have yourself and those (real) people that offer you a hand > so take it. Frankly, if you havent yet taken the offers that these kind ppl have offered you are obviously a phonie

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