look 4 God thats the only way itll have meaning
…Easier said than done for agnostic folk
Everyone has a different idea of what brings meaning to their lives.
What do you enjoy doing? What makes you the happiest?
A mate that doesn’t cheat, have an eating problem or is completely out of her mind. That makes me real happy.
volunteer work will be fulfilling.
sure if blood money goes to someone, otherwise it’s not worth volunteering for IMO.
That could definitely happen (finding a gf).
What other things? Do you have a job?
I work on computers, and carpentry.
computers I like, carpentry is just dirty and preoccupying: which also works for me.
but if I had to do something I really loved to do it would be fighting but it has to be for a purpose which I don’t have, and I don’t go looking for trouble so idk.
as far as the gf finding, that’s possible but not exactly probable.. See I’m 6′5″ 230lbs, hardworking, and I have a personallity that won’t even attract flies for some reason.
You say fighting, what sort of fighting do you mean? Purely hand to hand stuff or are you willing to fight for a cause?
hand to hand fighting for a cause. both, really.
i.e. Someone go get kidnapped so I can crack skulls to rescue you! any volunteers? stuff of that sort
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I think I found it, my salmonheaded friend! I think I have! It’s love or death for me. You can pick between those or scratch your head for half an hour and figure it out for yourself anyway.
Well im an 18 yo with utter contempt for my own life, read my other posts youll understand why, any of you crazy bastards fancy coming off into the world with me and dying heroically for some audacious cause?
Arnday lead the mother f*king way!
Wonderful, tell me, do you know much about the Horn of Africa?
the horny of africa? yea, everyone is.
That good enough, ever considered fighting for the people of a nation? In a sort of revolutionary vanguard?
sure if I can bang a few as payment for my heroic deeds
Okay, please don’t laugh at this question, but have you ever thought about being in the FBI or a bounty hunter or working as a spy or something like that?
nah, thought about being a hitman though.
yeah. as a matter of fact, when i grow up, i want to be a CIA profiler.
Do something that you’ve never done before, set some new goals. Travel the world. Just change something in your life.
yea I need to go to korea where I’m the biggest SOB in existance, lol
Being a hitman is exciting but it wears on your soul after few years ~sighs~.
Sort your life and find out who you are and the women will come, if you are going somewhere and have confidence some women really like that, so there really is someone for everyone out there.
Find something you are passionate it about and then take it to the political platform, or join an organization you believe in. It will give you purpose! ~smiles~.
Your posts show personality you have tons of personality and frankly a fairly positive outlook. Enjoy yourself. Do what you like to do. Have fun. Friends are attracted to people who are having fun.
After running into a few life or death situations that I had to deal with, and fortunately did even as clueless as I was - I trained to be an EMT. I am too wimpy to actually work as an EMT… yet anyway, but at least I know next time I will be ready with my “stabilize and transport” skills.
So… have you ever considered training as an EMT and the eventually a paramedic. You would mean the world to a lot of people if you can do this kind of work. It is extremely challenging and sometimes even scary as hell! And who knows you may even get the chance someday to risk your life for someone (although that is your choice and not a requirement).
It is pretty meaningful that you are even thinking about it :)
I agree with Jim is good enough
Jim, Occult, Wretch. You guys are great. Jim, though I seem to have tons of personality you’d never guess it by looking at me. I look like I’m ready to kill someone when I’m ready to hug someone, then I look like I’m ready to hug someone when I’m really ready to kill someone. It’s a curse, it really is.
Relax. Mellow out. I hope you are never truly so angry that you wish to kill someone. I have heard that our strongest feelings are a reflection of how we feel about ourselves. If you think about it many of your strong feeling may come from mistakes of communication. Nonverbal communication is very strong. Body language often reveals more than words. In your case you mention reversing those cues. Since you transmit body language backwards sometimes you may also receive and understand body language backwards sometimes. Combine that with others transmitting wrong and it can be very frustrating.
If you can hope and assume there is good intention in the vast majority of actions of people you come in contact with you may develope a more positive outlook. I have experienced an enourmous overbalance of good thoughout my life. I doubt and hope that I am not an oddman out in this. Maybe a new outlook - one that backs away from retaliation and looks for understanding instead - will allow you to display an optomistic smile most of the time. People are attracted to that.
Jim I guess you are good enough.
A couple things:
1. If you have seen my posts you will know that I have been working most of my adult life on being good enough to accept the good that comes to me as something I am worthy of. In the past I often rejected or felt bad about taking those thing because I felt unworthy and undeserving. I continue work at keeping myself positive. For me being good enough doesn’t mean I am done - it enables me to do more work on me.
2. I may have been unclear - the overbalance of good I have experienced is that which I see from and in others. Perhaps I experience it this way because that is my outlook. I try to assume good intention and look for it. I recognize that sometimes good intention toward someone other than me may conflict with my hopes. But I usually find ways to make those conflicts end positive for everyone.
Well hit and miss, all in all Jim you got my social defect diagnosed in the dark. I applaud that.
Your last post seems to have hidden meanings. I hope you can open up - tell more about your difficulty.
I’m a very physical being with my environment. If something is of this world I believe I can break it, if something can happen I could make it happen. I’m a very self-revolved individual, I think. I do things for people that would come off initially as kind when really I only do it to see what it leads to. As if I were watching my life more than feeling, and being one with it. I believe that limb for limb I could do something great with my body, and my head but if it costs me my body then I would feel no loss because at the end of the day everyone dies, me too. So my body is expendable yet reliable to me. What matters is that when I do leave this world I will have left behind a mark or a scar that will imbed my memory into the people who come across it forever.. The reason for this what appears to be self-centeredness would be that I don’t have any REAL friends.. That I go out to eat with, watch a game, play a game or have a good time with. So inorder to compensate for this lack of social activity I have to be stronger than I am with my friends because if you let it this world–it could eat you alive. I can’t quite understand why I don’t have any buddies anymore, my friends from highschool are pursuing their dreams or interest as well as sulking in their failures, watching the sow they reap slump down rapidly into a declining or doing nothing, letting day by day pass them by unfullfilled for the lack of the will to fill it. Me? I’m working on my house everyday. Saving up for a car. Why? So I can go somewhere to be with myself or a friend (if I ever get one). My life is fairly boring but my Dad keeps me good company though the man’s not open to new ideas.. That doesn’t bother me, we’re eons apart in generation. What does bother me is that even in this humble home that I seek, and deal with struggle I find myself unsatisfied. I have no woman nor friends to occupy myself with the company of. I would really like that but my aspects on life seem to steer me to a defensive, and colder side. I’m really a great dude once you get to know me but therein lies the trial I guess. Not much of a trial just be hearty, and the gesture will be returned.
You are obviously very bright. It appears you know exactly what causes you trouble. Yet you seem to say that want to behave in ways that push friends away. If that is what you want I guess you are succeeding. If you want something different then you will act in ways that bring you closer to that. And like I said I think you know what to do.
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