life help: well where to start… I guess first I should tell you all that I know I am in a deep depression, it feels like my life has always been that way. - Help.com

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how would you describe your faith? faith in what? religion? love? society? i really cannot offer you greater advice other than to say that your life is probably amazing in so many ways. there is so much beauty in the world around you, and in people. i used to be a very depressive person, and i empathize but after i found spiritual happiness in the universe, i am just deeply inspired. i encourage you to look beyond the negativity in your life. you should think deeply about the things in your life and find at least one positive thing. look at people, the sky, the beautiful full moon out tonight. do not brood on the things that do not go your way. you should realize that YOU ARE ALIVE. the same blood that runs in your veins runs in mine. i know that happiness is within you. no one can bring happiness to you.

People find themselves on this website for similar reasons. You generally have to be in a lonely spirit to be here. However, I’m only saying that because I know at least somewhat what your are talking about, and chances are, so do other folks who reply to your post. There are ways out of depression, but it takes some time. I never gave depression very much credence until I actually lost my job once and had to figure out what to do.

This sounds very familiar. Many times in my life I’ve felt defeated and hopeless. I can’t really give any advice, except to say that it would probably be good to take some kind of initiative. Being willing to do something may be more important than what you do. As you will see, many people have experienced similar things, and have found ways not just to cope, but to grow, and to find hope again, and to feel that life is good.

it’s about survival, it’s like your whole life you are on this fishing boat right, and you get wholes in it constantly, so you have to keep sealing and patching it up.
every once in a while you get a big hole and it keeps getting bigger unless you really make the extra effort to get it sealed up as fast as possible.
at this point you have 2 choices, you can give up and wait for your doom.
or you can get back into action and fight to stay alive.

your ultimate goal is to find land, and get off the boat, our problem is we’re too lazy and hopeless that we think we’ll never make it there.

I guess the question is how do you put self worth into your life? I struggle with that more often than I would like to.
For me it starts by focusing on what is good for me now. I mean I have: my family, My friends, My home, My abilities. I am breathing, etc. After I take stock of the good things in my life and know they are valuable to me, then I can begin to focus on how I want to change.
Maybe it is a change in me I want: I let the TV absorb too much of my time. What can I do to change that: Join a gym and go there three x per week. Spend a few minutes each day in prayer. Make plans to see friends. Have something to look forward to. Plan an outing with my boys, a camp out, a walk in the park, a bike ride.
Maybe my work has become routine and unrewarding: what can I do to change that? Is there some way to expand my responsibilities there. Can I do my job better or faster. Do I value my job? My coworkers?
Maybe there are things in need of repair in my home. What projects do I want to work on next? can I afford to remodel my bathroom. Put new flooring in the dining room. Can I simply get rid of some junk I have stored in the basement. Pick something you can do to get a sense of accomplishment. I refinished my dining/game table.
Is there a hobby you have been neglecting? I started a little aquarium a few months ago.
Any way all this stuff adds up to: Feeling low hurts. Not fighting to correct it hurts more. Letting the low feeling hang around gives depression strength making every day harder and harder. It takes energy and effort to begin to overcome depression. But once you decide to change for the positive it starts to get easier to find that energy, and it becomes easier for that energy to have a positive impact on your feelings. But coasting will not work. Just like anything else friction will slow you down and stop you unless you put energy into your life to keep it going in positive directions. But it usually become easier to find that energy once you get started and get some practice applying it.
I know that I bypass opportunities to do different things every day. These are choices I make sometimes carefully sometimes by rote as habit without thought. The point is you make these choices hundreds of times every day. It is up to you to look for opportunities to do what you want and act on them. That is you putting value into your life.

Oh honey, I am so sorry. I went through that same thing about 6 months ago. I lost my job from a tiny mistake and my marriage fell apart right after that. (The marriage is over now, too).

Just hang in there. It gets easier as time goes by. I still struggle with depression and feeling utterly worthless too. But it gets less and less every few weeks. I’ve been seeing a counselor, too and that has helped.

Hugs. give it time. Yes it’s gonna suck for awhile but it WILL get better. I promise

Remember life is a journey…not a destination. try to let today go, there is always a tomorrow, one that you can have control over. i am very familiar with severe depression. i can only tell you from experience that the meds they give you will probably only hurt you. a good therapist and no sugar in your diet ( really !) can make a huge difference. when life gets this bad, it usually means that you’re going down the wrong paths, change direction, love yourself and know that you are not alone. most of all, ask god for help, no one else hears you or loves you like he does !be strong, you can make it thru the bad times, then you can savour the good ones !yes, as your other rplys said, it sucks, but it will get better..that is very true, tomorrow is always a new day !