i dont like my life anymore!
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i was just lookin up da net to see if i cud get some help on somethin dats been a huge issue in my life and then i came upon this site. Its about trust…………and basically about how i wish i cud get bak to luv life as i used to.
i was a bit naive, rigid n immature at 18 when i started my grad. i had to go to a different place, live in a dorm for da first time…..had a galfrend…..thought i was da happiest, ignored a lot of people durin dat time…..and then it happened. i got to know my galfrend was cheating on me for a senior guy wh had finished his grad wid a grt job…..i told myself dat its life for he is mayb a better choice. then i found after my galfrend left me there was such a vacuum in my life, we were doin so much together…..and i hadnt been careful to make great frenz….just frenz to go around wid. and everytime i thot i was gettin somewhere in makin frenz i felt my trust was betrayed. now i feel as if i can never trust…..can never expect to b understud….and dats realy lonely. i cant stand when people speak fine on somebodys face n then bad behind their back…..even wen dat someone isnt me…..its somethin like many things seem to trigger me back into my past….really awful stuff.i do hav many frenz…..but everyone seems superficial. its as if there is no one who realy cares. i knw am sounding stupid…….but dats how i feel.my father and sis died in an accident…..and mom never seems to b in good spirits.so now after grad when i am home i feel even more worse n find myself spendin all my time on worthless entertainment on da net.
i knw i shud allow da past to bury itself….but i am findin it hard to do. my best frenz r not in my field n live far away.and my productivity in my career has been so hardhit……i am really lookin fwd to wen this will end.yes, understandin ourselves helps a lot….it will tell us where we went wrong, especially what we assumed wrong. “A man is not hurt by what happens, but by his opinion of what happens.” but da past doesnt really leave u even wid all dat understanding either.i must b doin somethin wrong here.
am goin to a new place for postgrad….many of my grad mates are gonna come too…hope i wil find myself there….hope!!! any kind of suggestions r welcome…plz gimme hope!!!
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