Antidepressant use and damage
I’m Michael. I was once an extremely intelligent child but I became depressed at 15, used one batch of antidepressants for a year, Citalopram 60mg, overdosed on 1500mg at the end of that year, then began to use Mirtazapine 30mg. I used that for nine months. I feel faceless, soulless, without any emotion or affect at all. I live my life in a sick, muddy mess of ill health, with a complete inability to concentrate, think abstract thoughts or reason properly. My body parts feel incongruent to each other and I never feel physically ok, or natural. My intelligence has been completely and probably irrevocably destroyed, although I can be eloquent there is absolutely nothing behind my words. I block in exams and am failing at school, getting averages of 12/20 when I used to be getting flat 19/20s every single assignment I did. I was reading Nietzsche at 15 and now I can barely read a few lines of anything without needing to restart. Books, serious information is impossible. I react to so many foods it is just not funny, and get completely wasted if I eat, say, a slice of cheese or a bottle of coke or something. There are certainly a lot of factors but what I’m really looking for, I guess, is someone who has been through the same thing, or someone that may be able to give me a glimpse of hope. I am so far beyond it now that I’ve come out the other side and I just couldn’t give a ****. Anyone who knows anything or has felt something similar please respond, I’ve been living in this for two years.
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