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I need sooo much help, I want to commit suicide.

I don’t really want to die, but I don’t know how else to get out of the mess I’m in. It all statred when I left my husband of ten years. I moved home to missouri from georgia where we tried to live with his family and it didnt work out. I wanted to come home and he wouldnt come with me, so we are now getting a divorce. When I got home I moved in with my sister and her husband to get back on my feet. Everything was going perfect I was so close to getting my own place and starting over on my own for the first time, so it took about a year to get things straight. Then my sisters husband began creeping in to my room at night ang doing things to to me he had no buissness doing I immedietly went to my other sister and explained the situation to her. Her boyfriend had an appartment he never used becauce they were always together, so I moved in with my 19 year old niece and my 1 year old son then 2 weeks later we were told he was being evicted and we had to 30 days to find somewhere to go. None of my family is able or willing to help us, so I cried on my friends shoulder at work. She let us stay with her but she is on assisted living and can get in big trouble for us being there, and kind of needs us to go, even though she wont say it, it’s a fact. but where, I have nothing and 2 people besides myself to support, on a job that doent even pay enough for me to make it paycheck to paycheck. Even with no real bills such as rent, electric, ect…. I am in need of so much help and cant find any at all can someone please offer some advice as what to do. I mean other than a better job or that it just takes time, blah blah, I dont have time and there is no real work for someone who got married enstead of finishing school. please help with some advise please.

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San Francisco, CA, US | 1 year, 2 months ago (0 minutes after post)

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Oster: Gettin' It. offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 3 #
Atlanta, GA, US | 1 year, 2 months ago (16 minutes after post)

A church is one option. Talk to someone at one of the big churches around. United Methodist churches are usually big on community outreach. Very often people will have rooms to let for people in just your situation.

You should consider talking to your state’s family and children’s services department. if they can’t help directly, they’ll know all the state and many non-government services available. You may qualify for food stamps, financial support, etc. Are you receiving alimony or child support?

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makhaiandmomi offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (1 hour, 18 minutes after post)

You cant get help without an address and Im sorry if it sounds like I’m too good for a homeless shelter but I refuse to take charity or to have my son stay in a homeless shelter he is innocent in all this and I cant figure out what I did to deserve it. I just want some advise on some kind of job that doesnt require skills and pays decent or someway to make a quik buck Im not going to commit suicide I love my son too much to be that selfish I just feel like at this point I’m never gonna pull myself out of the rut I’m in I feel like I’m drowning and that maybe I want a miracle to happen or something but no homeless shelters and no charity just someway that I can make better money quickly. and this isnt even half my storry this is just the part I pray about everynight that never seems to get any better I know this is confusing and doesnt make since but it is much more complicated than than I made it sound.

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jason.c.john offline Verified User (1 year, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Washington, DC, US | 1 year, 2 months ago (1 hour, 56 minutes after post)

well lady killing yourself wont do anything for your child. Its so selfish that you would even entertain the idea, and leave your child behind to pick up the pieces. Not trying to be mean but you need to think about it. Get real and do whats right by your kid. Please

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jason.c.john offline Verified User (1 year, 10 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Washington, DC, US | 1 year, 2 months ago (1 hour, 57 minutes after post)

opps just read the last post. sorry

/inserts foot in mouth

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makhaiandmomi offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (2 hours, 27 minutes after post)

I am fully aware of that fact if you will read my last entry before you replied I dont plan on killing myself it is a figure of speach that I used to let people know how hard it is for me right now you know like takin the easy way out but that isnt what I will or even want it just seems like it is the only way I will get any relief do you understand what I mean. and by all means I dont want to take the easy way out or I would accept charity before I let myself kill me. It seems like people focus on the catch frase too much before getting all the facts. I just want some friendly old advise as to how too pull myself out of this ditch before it becomes my grave. I have exhuasted every resource that I have available to me and I havnt stayed one night in a homless shelter yet but I dont want it to get to that point and it seems like the harder I try the worse it gets Im about to break down and that is the last thing that my son needs so if I could please have someone focus on the problem at hand (homlessness) I would greatly appeciate it

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mazdstar offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Prestwich, L5, GB | 1 year, 2 months ago (2 hours, 31 minutes after post)

i know you feel like giving up and you also feel so alone but you are not life is never meant to be easy its about learning, your son is the most important person in your life and you are in his you are the be all and end all in his life you are his beautiful mother who gives him endless love he doesnt care about material things he only cares for the love and comfort you give him. you can change things in your life and when you feel that you have hit rock bottom get up and start again never stay down because you can change your life you have that power. stsy focused. love a friend

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makhaiandmomi offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (2 hours, 44 minutes after post)

thank you and I am ware of this and this is what I pray about material things are not really myconcern Ive never been a material person its just the scary thought of sleeping in a box kinda thing that makes you hyperventalte at work and your boss looks at you funny but still doesnt care that your on time every day never miss a day and work the hardest you still cant get a raise and not to sound predjuduce because im not but you cant get a raise because your boss is indian and wont pay anyone one penny over min wage there for when your world comes crumbling down you have absolutly no finantual help and it seems like everyone you have loved and help your whole life turns their back on you so you have to turn to someone you barely know for help and the thing that hurts me the most is that even after my own family does this to methey have the nerve to track me down and ask to borrow money from me as if I have any money to spare thanks to them

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Schwartzkopf offline Verified User (1 year, 4 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
Charleston, WV, US | 1 year, 2 months ago (3 hours, 14 minutes after post)

suicide is never the answer i promise you don’t want to die

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weirdone8158 offline Verified User (1 year, 3 months) Long Term User Shouts: 0 #
Indianapolis, IN, US | 1 year, 2 months ago (3 hours, 49 minutes after post)

have you applied for food stamps, do you get child support or afdc? there are also food banks, i dont know if your kids are in school, but my son qualifys for free lunches and his book fees i didnt have to worry about thank god ,cause i didnt have the money… if my license was not expired i would find acouple of houses to clean on the side there is good money in that for quick cashalso i probably schould not say this but get a boyfriend that could maby help….

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makhaiandmomi offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (20 hours, 47 minutes after post)

Ok iam not going to commit suicide please read the full paragragh before writting to me about that it was a figure of speach used to get the attention of the reader not because i would ever do it i have alot to live for and i know that my problem is not suicide and it is not food stamps i have used every state, federal, and local help there is.

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makhaiandmomi offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (21 hours, 30 minutes after post)

My problem is not that I need food or that I am going to commit suicide. It is that I am homeless and I need help with that. no I dont get allimony becuase it seems that I make more than my ex (he is unemployeed) I have a job but it isnt enough to save for a place to live by the time I pay a babysitter, gas to and from work, and get my sons diapers, wipes, and any other nessecity he made need that my foodstamps wont buy I have 30 dallors left and that isnt enough to run and get a house. and it will take 26weeks or 6 and a half months to save for one. The problem is that I am homeless and I became homeless overnight. and not because I did or didnt have my priorities in order or that I slacked off on them or that I got behind do to someother reason other than the people I thought I could trust turned on me noone believes that my sisters man (husband)would do that to me except my niece whom claims he did the same to her by the way who I also have to look out for now because she believed me. I am an adult and shouldnt have to be put in any situation that I dont choose to but I found out quickly that there are somethings that are out of your control. every one keeps focusing on the suicide and if I am getting this or that Yes I am getting all of it but a home to put my son in.I cant find another job noone is hiring and all of the hud and section 8 and all the other housing authorities have waiting lists I am on them but I am homeless now not 2-3 or even 4 years from now I wish you could see why I felt like saying I wanted to commit suicide now that I have explained a little better but I am of sound mind and body I would never leave my son in this mess alone, I have no intentions on killing myself at all or I would have not came to this website asking for help with a place to live. I am frustrated because noone has given me any advise concerning the issue I need help with they are all trying to talk me out of something I have no intention of doing, and asking if I am recieving any financual support which I am recieving everythying the state says I qualify for (food stamps). can someone please help me with the real problem I have please

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Silverwings offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 34 #
Adolphus, KY, US | 1 year, 2 months ago (3 days, 20 hours after post)

I have a friend in Missouri that might be willing to help… I will send her the link…. and I live in Ky… I would be willing for you to live with us, until you can get on your feet… we don’t have much to offer, but we would share what we have… I will put the link to our website, and you can contact me thru that, if you want to.

www.freewebs.com/kidsranchusa

You mentioned prayer…

God can work when nothing else will..

here are some links where you can post prayer requests….

wjcr.org

godswork.org

dailyguidepost.org

needhim.org

I will be in agreement with you.. that God will make a way.. where there is no way…

Many Blessings….

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Silverwings offline Verified User (1 year, 6 months) Long Term User Shouts: 34 #
Adolphus, KY, US | 1 year, 2 months ago (4 days, 9 hours after post)

Here are some links.. that might be of help….

Online Charities
Modest Needs - assistance for really needy people http://www.modestneeds.org/
Digital Charity - free online donations
Caring Bridge - for support during hospitalization
http://www.digitalcharity.com/m.php?i
Consolidation Loans
http://www.prosper.com/join/GlobalFun… (people to people loans)

Homelessness

http://www.safehorizon.org/page.php?n…

http://www.cvm.org/index.cfm (voice mail)

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pamelamou offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 1 #
Mountain View, MO, US | 1 year, 2 months ago (5 days, 2 hours after post)

Hi, Silverwings told me about you. I am the friend that lives in Missouri. I live in Mountain View, Mo. We don’t have much but can share what we do have to help you and your child out. I know how hard it is and we have helped others before. No it is not charity in return when you get on your feet you can help some one else out. That is how we work here. Helping each other. We have 6 children 8 grandchildren and we all have to help each other. That is what God wants us to do. I know of a job it is not much but good honest work. And we have a basment with 4 room and 2 baths. not much but has seen several folks get on there feet again. There is posability of a house we don’t know for sure yet. It will need work on but rent free till you get stable. We even have a extra car you can use. Welive in a small town but friendly. We belive in god and no drugs. All we want is to help little children live warm and safe and it sounds like you need that. I understand what you are going threw I was there 25 years ago also. Truly A Friend Pam

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makhaiandmomi offline Verified User (1 year, 2 months) Long Term User Shouts: 5 #
An Undisclosed Location | 1 year, 2 months ago (6 days, 22 hours after post)

Silver and Pam thanks so much You are the only 2 on here acually willing to give advise to me and help, As I did need it I am going to georgia and my ex is gonna help me over the weekend I spoke with him and we decided that we both need to be in the same state as our kids so he is looking for a place that I can stay and I have a carrer that I started when I lived there before that will be waiting for me. many blessings to you

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