its unbareable…
and im so fed up. i beleve help is needed?
my friend and i are having some problems…. and well she beleves hers are worse than mine. yest neither of us know what exactly is going on with eachtother. she said i hate you and all that lovely crap and i just got fed up…..
this guy likes me but i have just gotten out of a horribal break up on my behalf.. yet i still have feelings for him [ my 1st love ] i told this guy im not ready for e relationship. then he told all my friends he didnt care for me any more. . . but its not that i dont like him its that im not ready to have some one tell me they care and then shoot me down - it hurts. badly…
i cant stand my sisters b/f they have been dating for about 3 weeks.. and are already talking about marriage and children. she is still a child. and i am younger than her!… its so bothersome because all her free time between work and school is spent with him. im her little sister and she sould be my person to look up to…
and there is a lot of pressure given off by my parents… i know its demanded some times but ive wanted to be a lawyer sence i was 7… my dreams have chanced and id love to work as a physician…. big goal for a little girl is what they always say and i know that thoes kind of goals need alot of work and time… but how do i tell them that i want to be an artist too..? how do i pick on or the other…. i cant.
on top of all this. im coping with the loss of some one dear to me…. my hero and my idol. he was everything i wanted to be and so much more. i’d like to visit him more often but im only 15 and cannot walk 10-15 miles to the site… i cant let my parents know loosing him killed me forever…. family is everything and even more when one becomes a bestfriend… i miss him … i want to make him proud. i want to make my parents proud. i want to be a sister to my sister. and a daughter to my mother… but its so difficult constantly thinking about leaving the world.
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