It may seem like she hates you, but I can guarantee that she loves you with all she is, it’s just hard to show it because of the conflict in your family right now. Many people show thier love and frustration in many ways, and although what comes out of someone’s mouth may seem like contempt, it isn’t for you, although that is where it seems like it is directed at times. There is confusion and frustration, and an inablity to help because the ways that your mom has tried, doesn’t work.

Parents feel helpless, and it shows, and I am sorry that you have to see and feel the worst of that frustration.
Parent’s do not come with a hand book, and there is not even one to raise our children, and as parents, we do not want our children to fall into the same traps no matter how mature our children are. It’s instict to protect your loved one ” No matter what” and in some cases, parents would rather have thier child hate them, and to remain safe and secure in thier surroundings, than to be a friend to eachother, and bosoom pals, and have the child lost with no direction in life.

Your life is awesome, eventhough it doesn’t seem that way. It is full of challenges, and those challenges that you go through, give rise to success!
You have the world at your feet, and life doesn’t always have to be so serious… take time out to laugh as a family… and perhaps just listen, even if you know you may be right, being right isn’t always a good thing, just listen… you may find you learn something about yourself and why your mom says and does the things she does.

Do not seek death. Death will find you.
But seek the road which makes death a fulfillment.