[Help] i just want to SCREAM. Updates to this post /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream Sat, 06 Sep 2008 17:11:45 +0100 Reply from wikihow12 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3689337 llllllll

I’m sorry you feel depressed…I’m depressed too…I can’t get girlfriend! It’s always something wrong…I’m not a cutter, but I feel like i should start.

I keep having this clenching feeling in my gut…I want to cry, I want to scream, I want to hit something, but it won’t come out…and talking about it doesn’t help at all, I actually yelled at my parents today, and that didn’t make me feel better!

I’m at a loss of what to do, I doubt I’ll cut, cause I don’t see the purpose…but I am so pissed right now I could kill my dog

]]> wikihow12 Wed, 30 Apr 2008 22:38:13 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3648401 i have seen the video before and ya it make sence

]]> oneword Sun, 20 Apr 2008 01:26:20 +0100 Reply from nsns7 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619815 alright gtg, well best of luck 2 u all…maybe we’ll talk again soon

]]> nsns7 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:43:16 +0100 Reply from nsns7 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619795 it sounds like your set on being depressed. that’s cool. but can we at least agree on the fact that all of us are just pretending not to be lost and in pain.

]]> nsns7 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:35:15 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619794 my father would never …. to this day admit anything like this….but ….thinking back….I remeber seeing it in his eyes….and I still think he has the perfect life.

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:34:41 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619791 heres a REALITY check…..how much do you wanna bet…..even your parents have days like this!

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:33:40 +0100 Reply from nsns7 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619788 and if they don’t share…understand that it’s not that they’re any better than you…or they know something you don’t, just accept that and appreciate the fact that you’ve tried. someone will eventually come around. but again opposites. if you talk about pain, then all ur thinking about is pain. talk about something funny, watch the daily show for ideas. they love mcdonalds in italy too.

]]> nsns7 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:32:53 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619786 well whatever we maybe the same but we all have our own problems

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:32:43 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619781 AMEN….ive been everywhere….even other contries, and one thing is for sure….human is human…..despite the ACTING we all use to portray a “normal” life….we are all the same….they do love McDonalds in germany too.

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:31:23 +0100 Reply from nsns7 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619773 have you ever thought of the possibility that maybe they’re scared, like you. why should you expect people to understand you if you don’t try to understand them. you have to consider, again, we’re all struggling - all of us including the jocks, the cheerleaders, the goths, headbangers, student body president etc…. we’re all trying to figure out what the hell is going on? don’t be fooled by your peers, they’re just as scared you as you…smiling to hide the pain but they’re usually not as brave a you in the sense of trying to share it. give people time.

]]> nsns7 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:29:08 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619771 life is to compucated

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:28:57 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619768 if I could go to sleep and stay asleep …i would. but then tommorrow a buddy might come over and say “lets go ….do whatever”, and life resumes. I never know what next, but I am open to anything

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:27:45 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619764 but i kinda know…..i feel it too….right now! NUMB….no direction, no ambition, or motivation to find ambition…..I sat here today thinking about what do I do next….I still dont know.

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:26:29 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619760 im glad you want to listen but i dont know how to tell what i think

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:25:14 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619757 i found this site…..looking for someone to listen…..and wound up doing the listening. Try a real smile….for huh? I KNOW how you feel, and we are listening right NOW! but like nsns7 said, and I think this is correct….It’s ok not to know. maybe, we’re not supposed to.

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:24:06 +0100 Reply from nsns7 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619754 i am.

]]> nsns7 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:22:49 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619751 its hard to try if no one whats to listen

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:21:51 +0100 Reply from nsns7 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619750 soooooo…what? that’s it. u quit?

]]> nsns7 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:21:11 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619747 iv tried to tell some one at my school but that failed soooo…

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:20:28 +0100 Reply from nsns7 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619740 you don’t have to know. you’ll never know. look at the gentleman who’s still stuggling and he’s in his 40’s. It’s ok not to know. maybe, we’re not supposed to. ur in high school - perfect, high school can be hell or heaven, often both. i hated high school so much i dropped out and got a ged. i’m in my twenties now, and i learned something. i alienated myself completely from everyone in high school b/c i was afraid of being rejected, misunderstood - i felt different and alone. funny thing is look at all these people posting their drama…how similar their stories are 2 yours…they’re are people in ur school right now who are just like you but b/c we all feel alone and refuse to open up///then we suffer for nothing…should i go on or am i a bit much?

]]> nsns7 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:18:47 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619739 i smile everyday to hide what i feel

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:18:35 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619735 lol….i suck…..I dont know what the answer is….but talking out loud REALLY helps

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:17:28 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619733 change can be as simple as wearing a smile….everyday for one hour…
:)

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:16:48 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619728 been years (unless you count the ‘family moment’ commercials)

I dont have the answer, but I know what it is….change.

How to do that is, the whole reason lllllll started this post, and perhaps what led us to search this particular post.
GOD I wish I knew. I do KNOW….there are hundreds….thousands of us out here….not FEELING, because we believe we are alone.

I come to these webposts to see who is like me. Its nice to know….even if YOU dont think so, Im not the only one who feels like this in a world full of normal 9-5 people, living the TV family life.

One thing that keeps me going when I think life is ****…..could have been born in Ia different life…..2000 years ago, as a slave in Egypt, or 200 years ago, as a black man in the south, or this or that. life is pretty good as far as, we do live in an age where more people do care, and we have things pretty easy.

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:15:04 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619712 iv talked to my friend about me cutting and stuff but i dont know any more im 16 and just tring to get through school the best i can.

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:10:45 +0100 Reply from nsns7 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619698 you know what, me too. but my best friend doesn’t know how crazy i am. if alienating yourself is obviously not helping you, why not try surrounding yourself with good people. i just joined a charity feeding food to people with AIDS. I don’t feel like my life has changed…but I know at least I helped someone eat today. secondly, if i’m going to try and do the opposite of what i do now…i am going to have to keep joining groups and surrounding myself with good people…and definitely people different than me. am i making sense b/c i’m confused myself?

]]> nsns7 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:08:13 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619691 the last time i cried was the day my grandfather died a yr ago

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:05:03 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619685 everyone except my one best friend

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:03:47 +0100 Reply from nsns7 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619677 i used to feel like i felt nothing…i was scared half to death b/c i couldn’t remember the last time i really cried. u feel.trust there’s alot of feeling going on…but we block it with crap we’ve built up in our heads along with way. but lllllll, so what? let me ask u something, do you alienate yourself from people?

]]> nsns7 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:02:06 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619667 i only cut to feel somthing rather than nothing

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:58:36 +0100 Reply from nsns7 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619660 the feeling is mutual. look life isn’t cake but you know this already - all of us do. so if living in our heads is driving us insane then why not shift the focus on something positive. i mean if the way we’ve been all this hasn’t been working- then why not try the opposite and see what comes of it? just a thought…

]]> nsns7 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:57:07 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619654 maybe but still

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:55:40 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619651 BINGO! the one thing I wont fail at is life……gonna go till it is over

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:54:39 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619648 i have tought of suicide but that would be pointless

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:53:50 +0100 Reply from nsns7 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619637 you have a choice. you can scream then do something to help someone else or keep cutting and stop complaining. i’m suicidal every once and awhile…but if I know inside I don’t have the heart to do it and I have to put up with this world…I might as well do what I can to help someone who wants it. Join a charity or an organization- get a different perspective on things.

]]> nsns7 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:50:58 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619636 i know. I was 12 the first time I thought, Enough is Enough, and had my x-mas present (22 shotgun) in my mouth.
I have failed at almost everything that I have tried. I am unemployed, and homeless (crashed a friends couch). Did I mention im over 40….I am supposed to be a responsible adult. And yet, it feels like I am curesed…..the good thing is I know whos fault it all is….mine! I am not going to punish myself tough….I am struggling with a solution to my woes, and talking to others who ….sometimes get angry, because they think “here we go with another ‘pity party’.”, BUT even them yelling, or whatever, still helps REALITY to snap back into play, and I think….maybe there is a future.
Thanks to the internet, we have a way of getting together here, and can try to help others….and by help, I mean….chit-chatting with others who FEEL just like we do. The answer is not in the form of a statement for us….it is in action….DOING something to change the problems…..unfortunitly….I dont know the answer yet either

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:50:35 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619613 iv tried to stop for long time but have given up and telling my parents would be worse both of my sis have depression and its hard to live with that so i dont say anything i keep it to my self.

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:43:59 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619604 I dont think you DONT want to help, or you would still be in the privacy of your room, cutting, instead of here, talking about it. Talking is the best….even if you dont get any answers….Today I have been contemplating my life, and how many bad desicions I have made, and what a mess my life is. I still dont have any more knowledge than I did this morning, but I talked to my neighbor, and ….something about hearing yourself SAY it all, out load….to another PERSON….does help. tommorrow may start like today….but at least there is tommorrow.

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:42:06 +0100 Reply from rebek~always /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619592 if your not interrested in helping yourself then why should anyone care?????
you should want to help yourself and i hope you find help!!!

]]> rebek~always Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:39:19 +0100 Reply from abramthas /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619591 but maybe with help….you wont. I am just as lost as you are, and im 41 years old….I did scream today…..helps a little.

]]> abramthas Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:39:01 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619574 why ill just cut anyway

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:32:55 +0100 Reply from Shakeybritches /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619572 That is very important. There are ways of dealing with this. Please let someone know who can help you.

]]> Shakeybritches Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:32:08 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619565 no

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:29:21 +0100 Reply from Shakeybritches /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619556 Did they get you any help?

]]> Shakeybritches Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:26:45 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619547 they found out once but then dropped it and i still cut

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:25:01 +0100 Reply from Shakeybritches /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619541 [quote llllllll]i am a cutter[/quote]

Do your parents know?

]]> Shakeybritches Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:22:58 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619537 i am a cutter

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:21:51 +0100 Reply from Shakeybritches /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619525 [quote llllllll]i want to so badly so i dont cut but i dont know what to do.[/quote]

Get some professional help right away if you are a cutter.

]]> Shakeybritches Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:18:35 +0100 Reply from oneword /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619522 i want to so badly so i dont cut but i dont know what to do.

]]> oneword Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:17:42 +0100 Reply from kim, again. /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619507 Just scream!!
I would scream too, but my parents would come running into my room with loads of questions.

xP

]]> kim, again. Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:12:17 +0100 Reply from qazsewq123456 /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619506 Go for a walk away from the world, and let it out.
Just remember to come back, take ear plugs, and leave when you’re ready.

]]> qazsewq123456 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:12:00 +0100 Reply from Shakeybritches /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619490 I agree, if the situation allows….scream.

]]> Shakeybritches Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:08:25 +0100 Reply from Anonymous /post/150143-i-just-want-to-scream#reply-3619481 scream!

]]> Anonymous Fri, 11 Apr 2008 01:06:25 +0100