[Help] I want the strength to blow my brains out :( Updates to this post /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai Sun, 29 Nov 2009 14:43:31 +0100 Reply from libbyc /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-5332884 Dear little friend,
I am 53 years old and I’m guessing you are a lot younger than that. Anyway, I often fear death and wonder what’s the point of life, but words come into my mind saying, “We are here to love”. I have lost my parents, my father to suicide when I was 18. My brothers don’t act like brothers–they hurt me deeply all the time. But I am lucky (or blessed?) that I do have a husband who loves me. Now he’s not perfect, and we get real mad sometimes, but bottom line is we are there for each other. We never had children. We have 4 cats and 2 dogs that we love so much.

Now, you may think you are hurting so bad nobody can understand. I feel that way a lot too. But here’s what I’m asking you to do, dear child–just hold on–in this life if you hold on, good things may be just around the corner. But the key is to always look out for ways to give love–and then one day it will be returned to you. I promise you it is true. I don’t know how it comes (maybe from God?), but things do turn in wonderful ways if you hold on and give all the love you are able to find in your hurting heart!

I also want to tell you there have been many times when I was within days of being homeless and then I landed a job just in time. Also when I gave up looking for a husband (I was 33), my dear husband came along. Then, just this year, my doctor said she would not give me my sleep meds anymore (I have terrible insomnia). I had a tantrum and destroyed stuff, and the very next morning I found a wonderful doctor who understands my anxiety, insomnia, and my need for the meds.

I will hope and pray with all my heart that you find peace and love amidst all the trouble and pain of life.

]]> libbyc Sun, 08 Nov 2009 16:11:14 +0100 Reply from girlcrazy91 /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-5332397 **** life it makes no sence thers no reason to live our point here is to die if thats the truth than why are we here i realy dont want to be on this planit any mor life gets harder every day that bullet looks frendlyer with ech passing day and nothing gets eayser i know what life is but i dont know y it is it makes no sence to me

]]> girlcrazy91 Sun, 08 Nov 2009 08:09:01 +0100 Reply from libbyc /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3721116 I have felt that way a lot. I will pray for you. I am trying hard to think of some advice to give you, but all I really know to say is that I made a half-*** attempt at suicide (taking pills) and then chickened out and went to the ER. They put me in the psych ward for 2 weeks, and during that 2 weeks I was at first ashamed that I was too chicken to go through with it–but then I began thinking about a book I had read that told me that God accepts me no matter what, and I knew he was embracing me. If you’re interested, that book is called “Faith for Personal Crises” by Carl Michalson, 1959, I think. It’s real cheap at Alibris books. Hang in there. I love you.

]]> libbyc Sat, 10 May 2008 00:09:12 +0100 Reply from ĐaNi HaŦeS ŸoŪ /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3720359 i give you the strength my man

]]> ĐaNi HaŦeS ŸoŪ Fri, 09 May 2008 20:15:00 +0100 Reply from Just Some Girl /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3720177 Suicide is a permanant solution for a short term problem.

dont do it.

]]> Just Some Girl Fri, 09 May 2008 19:21:55 +0100 Reply from vaselinehil /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3719233 im in the uk, and feel as you do right now, but i have been here before you will get by just need to focus .

]]> vaselinehil Fri, 09 May 2008 08:59:08 +0100 Reply from reeljerc /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3719194 it doesn’t take strength to blow your brains out.
pure cowardice.

]]> reeljerc Fri, 09 May 2008 08:10:06 +0100 Reply from Felicity /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3719177 Lord,give me the courage to rise above fear .Even of danger ,you are near; I would be faithful to face any foe While I am walking with you here below.In Jesus name ,Amen

]]> Felicity Fri, 09 May 2008 07:59:35 +0100 Reply from Felicity /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3719173 Please talk to us!!!

]]> Felicity Fri, 09 May 2008 07:54:35 +0100 Reply from tomjackson2 /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3719165 In order for someone to end there life they have to be at their weakest point! The reason your still here is because you are strong! Stay strong!

]]> tomjackson2 Fri, 09 May 2008 07:45:19 +0100 Reply from Felicity /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3719160 we are here for you, no problem.If you want to talk.And that always helps but thoughts of suicide are not normal.Your thinking is distorted right now.Can you tell us whats going on?No matter what it is,Im sure we can give other perspectives and ideas that you may not have thought about

]]> Felicity Fri, 09 May 2008 07:41:29 +0100 Reply from Felicity /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3719157 Please! call someone for help.We can only talk here.You need immediate attention.

]]> Felicity Fri, 09 May 2008 07:38:43 +0100 16 users were invited to read this post by one.2wi /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-5296308 one.2wi Fri, 09 May 2008 07:17:24 +0100 Reply from one.2wi /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3719133 I had times when I thought I was a coward because I did not kill myself .. then I learned how hard it is to live ..

you’re going through your struggle .. I don’t know the answers .. but I know that you can do it .. and that whatever you hell you are in right now you can climb your way out of one step at a time.

And theres lots of people here to help.

]]> one.2wi Fri, 09 May 2008 07:16:44 +0100 Reply from Dan TL /post/159116-i-want-the-strength-to-blow-my-brai#reply-3719120 Are you thinking of taking your own life ? I don’t recommend it.

]]> Dan TL Fri, 09 May 2008 06:58:38 +0100