[Help] my life sucks i just feel like killing myself i've Updates to this post /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill Tue, 07 Oct 2008 03:55:32 +0100 The post was closed by joan15 /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-5374655 joan15 Sun, 18 May 2008 11:50:38 +0100 Reply from rlbood /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3747448 I completely understand how you feel. My husband and I have struggled with money for years. We just can’t seem to get ahead and we always argue about money. I can’t say that I haven’t thought about suicide because I have but I’ve never done it. You just have to remember that you have each other and no matter what it’s never worth taking your own life. In your community if your struggling you should be able to get some kind of assistance either from Social Services or something. They will even help you pay some of your bills. I’m so sorry to hear that your struggling & will pray that things will get better for you. Keep your chin up and remember that your life is precious and I know that I’ve been there and understand what your going through.

]]> rlbood Sat, 17 May 2008 01:38:50 +0100 Reply from adiokid /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3738666 The devil wants you to kill yourself because yo’ll die with him talk to a priest go to church www.masstimes.org
[quote libbyc]Dear friend, I’ve been just like you and thought things would never get better. But I’m living proof that they can. It sounds like you are panicking all the time, just like I was doing until I tried suicide and was hospitalized last September. While in the hospital a chaplain talked to me about how it hurts so bad when we realize we don’t have total control over our lives. But I slowly learned that I can control (not always, but mostly) my panicking. I want you to do some things: First of all, call churches until you find a pastor who will help you decide if you can stay in this marriage. Your husband sounds like bad news, and I think you are terrified to leave and try to be on your own.

Find some free counseling, or call a women’s shelter–somebody will talk with you and help you figure out something. There is help for people in your situation–but you have to talk to people to find out where it is.

To help you calm down, if you can go to a free clinic, please go and get some med for anxiety. There are some really good ones.

To help you think better–if you can, go to counseling somewhere. But if you can’t, please do what I am doing. I am studying 3 books that help me be stronger no matter what mess is going on. One book is called “Faith for Personal Crises” by Carl Michalson”. It is dirt cheap at Alibris books and it is awesome. Even if you don’t have faith now, reading that book will give you faith and hope. Then, read from the Bible–Psalms, Isaiah (Here is Isaiah 43: Fear not, you are mine. When you pass through the water, I will be with you; in the rivers you shall not drown. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned) Also First Peter 5:7 Cast all your cares on Him because He cares for you! Stay calm and aware. Your enemy the devil is prowling like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, solid in your faith, realizing that the brotherhood of believers is undergoing the same sufferings throughout the world. But God, in Christ, will himself restore, strengthen, and establish those who have suffered a little while.

Last of all, can I give you some tips I have learned to help myself calm down, no matter how upset and afraid I am. I have learned to say to myself, “Hey, there’s no point in trying to mentally force everything to change–I try to just accept that it is bad, but I’ll deal with it one day, one hour, one minute at a time. Or to put it another way, my Mama used to say, “You ain’t supposed to get all high about things!.” Yes, your life sucks right now! Yes, it’s not fair that you are stuck in a rotten marriage, and that society is not providing you all with enough money for you to feel secure. It sucks out loud, honey. But with the Lord’s help you can take it, and you can take steps, just one step at at time, to make things better. Call people, look for help, find ways to calm down, find faith by reading the Bible. Don’t give up. I will pray for you tonight.

Libbyc[/quote]

]]> adiokid Thu, 15 May 2008 00:28:11 +0100 Reply from aliza- /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3734489 ahh ya my parents are having big trouble to i mean like we live in a huge house like an estate home and the bills are to expensive and we really need to keep on living here he is a real estate agent and no ones bying anymore houses so he also has to pay rent for that its crazy and we have to kiosks in baltimore in one of the malls and people steel crap and the rent for it every month is so much!!!! we are on loans too daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmnnnnnnnnnnnnn much!!!!atkeast u guys dont have kids to pay for i hope u guys get money somehow (not by anything bad though) i wish the same for me

]]> aliza- Tue, 13 May 2008 21:52:31 +0100 Reply from adiokid /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3726439 If you are contemplating suicide call emergency services (911 in most places) NOW get help get marige councling but remember killing yourself will send you to hell read this passage

“And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire.” Revalation 20:15

]]> adiokid Sun, 11 May 2008 20:59:20 +0100 Reply from Anonymous /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3722880 Ok… Men do not like to think of themselves as ones that can not provide for the family. Who pays the bills? If it is you then let him have total controll over that so he see what is coming in and going out. As far as you feeling like things are ok between you and him … the fight is over and he is ignoring you because he feels bad himself and is probably thinking about what is going on. NOT for sure but I know how my husband is. We have our disagreements and he gets quite. I think if you have a family member you can visit… not for a long period of time … maybe just a day or two. Just to give you each time away and maybe he will realize what he has and doesn’t want to lose you. Also when fighting you need to stop thinking about killing yourself …. cutting yourself whatever. Crying is ok but don’t go to the extreme of thinking other thoughts. I know when I was a teenager I would say I was going to do those things just because I wanted attention … never did but now that I am older I realize that is all that it was. I wanted someone to step up and tell me they don’t want to lose me. If you continue to think these thoughts on a serious note then maybe some medical help would be best. YOu have to decide on your own if it’s for attention or not. I am going through alot right now and (it maybe wrong) but I cried to my son. I owed him 50.00 and he told me (he is 8) that don’t worry about paying him back. I cried to him cause we are on the verg of being kicked out of our house because we are behind on rent so when he told me this I cried because it meant alot. (I wasn’t planning on paying him back anytime soon cause other things come first but)

Hope this helps!

]]> Anonymous Sat, 10 May 2008 16:01:29 +0100 Reply from Dragon_Lady /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3722793 Do you have someone else you can stay with for awhile? This guy is beginning to sound like a ocntrolling jerk to me, and I think maybe you need some distance from him so you can think a little more clearly.

Tearing up your money is a bizarre thing to do. And the fact he doesn’t seem to have any respect for your feelings is a real red flag for continuing emotional abuse.

]]> Dragon_Lady Sat, 10 May 2008 15:05:07 +0100 Reply from joan15 /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3722746 I dont know what to do we had this big arguement over such a little thing to me it was i tryed to explain my worry over paying the bills but he just didnt understand and took this as a sign i was angry which i wasnt then went ahead and ripped up what money we did have for the bills and started to shout at me in fact it kind of scared me a little i then went ahead and started to cry which made things even worse i tryed to talk to him and tell him i was not angry yet to him i was not telling the truth and continued to shout at me in which point i went into the kitchen and got a knife i thought about cutting my wrist which i didnt instead i started to cut my arn which i have done before.and now today i started to think that everything was ok between us that we had gotten it sorted but he is acting like i am not even here will not talk to me nothing i dont know what to do im starting to feel like i have had it and i want to go but i love him and i want to stay i just feel like crying all the time

]]> joan15 Sat, 10 May 2008 14:48:49 +0100 Reply from libbyc /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3721314 Dear friend, I’ve been just like you and thought things would never get better. But I’m living proof that they can. It sounds like you are panicking all the time, just like I was doing until I tried suicide and was hospitalized last September. While in the hospital a chaplain talked to me about how it hurts so bad when we realize we don’t have total control over our lives. But I slowly learned that I can control (not always, but mostly) my panicking. I want you to do some things: First of all, call churches until you find a pastor who will help you decide if you can stay in this marriage. Your husband sounds like bad news, and I think you are terrified to leave and try to be on your own.

Find some free counseling, or call a women’s shelter–somebody will talk with you and help you figure out something. There is help for people in your situation–but you have to talk to people to find out where it is.

To help you calm down, if you can go to a free clinic, please go and get some med for anxiety. There are some really good ones.

To help you think better–if you can, go to counseling somewhere. But if you can’t, please do what I am doing. I am studying 3 books that help me be stronger no matter what mess is going on. One book is called “Faith for Personal Crises” by Carl Michalson”. It is dirt cheap at Alibris books and it is awesome. Even if you don’t have faith now, reading that book will give you faith and hope. Then, read from the Bible–Psalms, Isaiah (Here is Isaiah 43: Fear not, you are mine. When you pass through the water, I will be with you; in the rivers you shall not drown. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned) Also First Peter 5:7 Cast all your cares on Him because He cares for you! Stay calm and aware. Your enemy the devil is prowling like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, solid in your faith, realizing that the brotherhood of believers is undergoing the same sufferings throughout the world. But God, in Christ, will himself restore, strengthen, and establish those who have suffered a little while.

Last of all, can I give you some tips I have learned to help myself calm down, no matter how upset and afraid I am. I have learned to say to myself, “Hey, there’s no point in trying to mentally force everything to change–I try to just accept that it is bad, but I’ll deal with it one day, one hour, one minute at a time. Or to put it another way, my Mama used to say, “You ain’t supposed to get all high about things!.” Yes, your life sucks right now! Yes, it’s not fair that you are stuck in a rotten marriage, and that society is not providing you all with enough money for you to feel secure. It sucks out loud, honey. But with the Lord’s help you can take it, and you can take steps, just one step at at time, to make things better. Call people, look for help, find ways to calm down, find faith by reading the Bible. Don’t give up. I will pray for you tonight.

Libbyc

]]> libbyc Sat, 10 May 2008 01:00:46 +0100 Reply from krispy29 /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3720817 Time are tuff! I have been there but family is more important. Have a yard sell! Sell off what you can to keep food on the table. Killing yourself is not the answer. I have and still am having money problems but family is keeping me strong. I don’t allow the kids to know anything but money is tight. Look at your marriage…. you got married for a reason. Your husband is out there working. He doesn’t want you gone. Believe that is will get better. It will it has to … there is no where else to go. I believe that it’s going to get better for me! As bad as it has gotten it has got to look up!

]]> krispy29 Fri, 09 May 2008 22:32:22 +0100 Reply from Dragon_Lady /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3719966 Is he your husband? Or your father? You need to decide right now.

If he’s your HUSBAND, then he needs to let you do what you to do to make yourself happy and comfortable.

If he’s your FATHER, you need to fix that. Marriage counselling would be a good start.

It’s not up to him to decide whether or not you work. Your personal sense of security and self-worth have to be pandered to, and sitting around while the bills pile up isn’t going to help.

But cutting yourself certainly won’t help, either. So don’t even go there.

]]> Dragon_Lady Fri, 09 May 2008 17:53:22 +0100 Reply from joan15 /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3719959 ive tryed talking to him about it i tryed to explain to him about my worrys and i have told about me getting a job but he just says no when i tryed to talk to him about my worrys he just started yelling at me and ripped up what money we did have for bills i find myself crying my eyes out running to the kitchean grabing a knife going into the bathroom and cutting myself

]]> joan15 Fri, 09 May 2008 17:50:12 +0100 Reply from Dragon_Lady /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3719737 Been there; done that.

It isn’t easy. It really isn’t. But I agree you need to support your husband in this, and realize that while it takes time, things will get better. It’s very rare for people to starve in America -there are still lots of opportunities, and even a minimum wage job will eventually lead to better.

So calm down.

As annlovestars says, maybe look around for ways you can earn a bit extra? Babysitting, pet sitting, part time somewhere. Explain to your husband that you can’t just sit while things are doing so poorly -that you have to contribute too. I’m sure he will understand that if you really let him see how upset you are.

]]> Dragon_Lady Fri, 09 May 2008 16:49:53 +0100 Reply from annlovestars * /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3719710 Try to be strong for him. See that he needs you in this.
Maybe its hard to see, but he still has a job, some dont have anything.

Is there a way you could make some little money as well, maybe babysitting at other
houses ?

]]> annlovestars * Fri, 09 May 2008 16:30:33 +0100 Reply from johnjoappleseed0 /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3719708 You really have to talk to someone. You feel so trapped but killing yourself is not the answer and thinking your husband or anyone else would be better off is not true. Start off by confiding what your going through to someone. Tell you husband what your going through. Relax and take it easy, this will pass and you’ll be a stronger person for it. Don’t lose the faith….

]]> johnjoappleseed0 Fri, 09 May 2008 16:29:37 +0100 Reply from angelchickjb /post/159185-my-life-sucks-i-just-feel-like-kill#reply-3719700 Please don’t do it…imagine how your family is going to feel. If you have kids imagine them growing up without their loving mother.

]]> angelchickjb Fri, 09 May 2008 16:25:37 +0100