WELL DONE! I am so proud of you. :) You should treat yourself to something special. :)

You don’t have to compulsively post to show you’re alive, to show you care, to support everyone. Yes, well I mean, worried a bit but life happens and we can’t control everything we want. So if someone is gone for a while, makes mistakes all I can do is hope for the best..

Are you coming back again someday? Why do you feel like you should go? (you don’t have to answer if you don’t feel like it)

You are welcome here! What mistakes have you made? Are you ok?

[quote bookworm16]Of course you’re not irritating, your helping us![/quote]

Agree, agree, agree!

I know this may be hard to understand, but look at it this way. A lot of self-harmers don’t talk about thier problem. Everyone here, has made that first step. You have talked about it and you want to try and get it sorted out. It’s progress (small, but it still means something). We need to make the second step now.

Just trying to put some thoughts and ideas out on the table.

Make sure you keep your wounds clean and banaged up. Try not to worry about it too much (I know it’s hard). We’re here for you :)

The burns from last month are healing well - more damage then I thought, but I finally went outside once more to get the gauze with the ointment (that doesn’t grow into the wounds).

I’m actually happier about going outside then the not self-harming.

How did everyone else do?

I’ve locked myself in my room from moday afternoon till yeasterday evening, just crying and sleeping - being confused about why it’s dark, why I’m alone, what I should be doing, why it’s so cold, why I feel people are going to murder me (oh paranoia, crap). I haven’t even written in my diary or done anything positively empowering. I want, I can, I am…. and all my mind could come up with was negative junk.

I haven’t harmed myself. Today I’ve changed bandages like every day from the burns I made wednesday the 24th and thursday the 25th september, they’re begining to have that nasty smell already. Disgusting. But I want to overdose, not to die, jsut to sleep, I already made my favourite icecream sprinkled with valium and lorazepam, when I woke up after cheanging the bandages the first thing I did was grab some more valium.. I haven’t used it in weeks/months but it feels so familiar, to have some control to feel a little better, to take some more and sleep for a while. Problem is I just can’t afford it, cost too much money and if I keep on going I’ll get addicted - another thing I can’t use.

Basicly I’m really inspired by how you’re all hanging on and keep trying, how you say caring words to eachother, I just can’t see past the fog I’m in. Because the docter says I’m fine, your physical pain is all in your head, my psychologist told me once more how everything is my responsebillity, how I have to find out what’s wrong & how to fix it. He also called me a borderliner, just because he found out I self harm, before he knew that he seemed to be taking me serious: talking about my anxeities, my panic attacks, my social life.. now I’m just “some borderliner” waste of time and space. He made me feel so low.

I wish you all well, you’re doing so great, every hour you make it I’m so proud of you all, bookworm, nargi, nikki, grayson, *00* with the liqour! You can do this, I have faith in you.

What to people think is best? A wait for a few days, or just going straight back into it?

Don’t let this get you down Grayson. Act like this event never happened. *smiles*

Congratulations everyone for doing so well. I think we need to decide now, when the next checkpoint is.

Why do you want to cut?

Yeah, she’s really helped me so I’m trying to be there for her when she needs me too.

i think it does. its along time to go without SH, you should be proud of that, but i think we will do it again this weekend and hopefully everyone can make it, then after that we can all decide on a slightly longer time.

Bookworm im Narg2’s boyfriend by the way, *waves* i know how much she struggles and it hurts me to know she feels she has to do this, but i will always be there for her, she knows this but she still doesn’t like to phone me up and talk to me if she hits a trigger, she has support but is reluctant to use it, please dont be reluctant to use this site whenever you hit a trigger, people will listen to you, talking it out often works the best.

it will be difficult but in the end will it not be worth it?
this was only the first step and you guys will relapse a lot, the trick is to not get stressed about relapsing becouse it is going to happen. you all need to take each day as it comes and take it slow and easy together we can all beat this. we are all here for each other.

*beats head against wall*[/quote]

Yeah, I have to second that! :([/quote]

I third it to
I’m stupid I thought that the back of my hand is a well hidden place lol

*beats head against wall*[/quote]

Yeah, I have to second that! :(

*beats head against wall*

I hit a huge trigger last night, one that came without anything to provoke it, I was desprete not to, particularly after making the weekend… I have sleep meds, and took them to get away from it. I know that knocking myself out is not the right way to deal with it, but as a short term solution it worked.

Anyone who feels the need, send me a shout, I’ll put a link to my bebo on here for you too, so if anyone has that you can add me, and hopefully you can find me one of them if anyone needs someone to talk to.
http://www.bebo.com/Profile.jsp?Membe…

I’m so sorry Grayson, but don’t beat yourself up over it. Stay strong!!

ps. *hug* for Bleeding Heart! *hugs* for all in the thread actually because you all spread so much positive energy! I did make it and now I’m obsessing about being fat, which I find so very boring because I keep hearing myself repeat the same nonsense. Wonder how 2heap and AnotherNikki are doing..

You are all awesome *hugs*

what do you do if you have random urges :/

Hah, well actually not too good. But I’m going to try and make it.

YAY!!! Well done!

How is everyone else??[/quote]

Well done Narg2!

How is everyone else??

I wouldn’t get out the party poppers just yet. It’s only Friday :)

Going for what?

We can share the praise! :D

Maybe you could try some sort of energetic activity. Maybe try running or some sort of exercise.[/quote]

thats what i was gonna suggest :)

Maybe you could try some sort of energetic activity. Maybe try running or some sort of exercise.

do you not have anything to replace it with, that won’t cause you harm?

Eat ice cream!

Grayson, thank you, I would hope that its a good atmosphere for people to talk if they need to :)

But I’m hoping that this will offer some support to others in the position of trying to stop. Sunday is the target, and i want to help as many people as possible make it!
(I’m getting all enthusiastic here lol)

I’ll try to offer as much support to you if I can. :)

Thank you too Sir James!

I second that thanks!

Well, you msy regret that at some point … :)

For the next two days i’ll be thinking of you all ok? And i want you to post on here if you have any problems!

Feel free! The more the merrier :)

Yay! :D