[Help] Had my first gay dance just a few hours ago! Updates to this post /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h Tue, 01 Dec 2009 19:20:47 +0100 Reply from dimmingstar1376 /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4554235 enjoy your new style and keeping to being you it truely is the best and the best you

]]> dimmingstar1376 Tue, 02 Dec 2008 00:16:30 +0100 Reply from chunkymove /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4553279 [quote dimmingstar1376]happy for you =][/quote]

Thanks dimm,

It’s strange, what felt scary taboo only two days ago, now feels so normal that I forgot what the post was about.

]]> chunkymove Mon, 01 Dec 2008 15:44:21 +0100 Reply from dimmingstar1376 /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4551977 happy for you =]

]]> dimmingstar1376 Mon, 01 Dec 2008 03:19:53 +0100 Reply from chunkymove /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4547527 [quote littlenick]I’m doing another “happy” dance right now![/quote]

A genuine LOL. Was suprised as its so quiet here.

]]> chunkymove Sat, 29 Nov 2008 18:20:17 +0100 Reply from chunkymove /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4547519 thanks. I’m not feeling conflicted anymore. I went out dancing tonight with my best mate of 13 years, and it was absolutely no different. He’s a big dutch lad and I’ve never felt the slightest sexual attraction to him. He got a new girlfriend ,and we went to new art cafe that is losing money and decided to get some decks in and play soul music. I was worried that dacing with musical loving, outragerously dressed gay man would change anything. It hasn’t and now I embrase the wisdom I once feared…

No one cares :-)

]]> chunkymove Sat, 29 Nov 2008 18:17:47 +0100 Reply from ¡Nellie.Skywalker! /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4547478 [quote chunkymove][quote ¡Nellie.Skywalker!]Oh, I see. I thought you were mocking homosexuality. Well this is an interesting predicament you’re in….have fun with it![/quote]

mocking homosexuality? Hella no :-)

Interesting… yeah ,that’s a good viewpoint.[/quote]

Lol, I couldn’t think of a better word. But seriously though, I’m sorry that you are so conflicted! I’ll be cheering for that other 20% side of you.
:D

]]> ¡Nellie.Skywalker! Sat, 29 Nov 2008 18:05:42 +0100 Reply from littlenick /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4547468 I’m doing another “happy” dance right now!

]]> littlenick Sat, 29 Nov 2008 18:02:03 +0100 Reply from chunkymove /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4547465 [quote ¡Nellie.Skywalker!]Oh, I see. I thought you were mocking homosexuality. Well this is an interesting predicament you’re in….have fun with it![/quote]

mocking homosexuality? Hella no :-)

Interesting… yeah ,that’s a good viewpoint.

]]> chunkymove Sat, 29 Nov 2008 18:00:53 +0100 Reply from ¡Nellie.Skywalker! /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4547386 Oh, I see. I thought you were mocking homosexuality. Well this is an interesting predicament you’re in….have fun with it!

]]> ¡Nellie.Skywalker! Sat, 29 Nov 2008 17:32:36 +0100 Reply from chunkymove /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4547242 [quote dimmingstar1376]sorry if that didn’t make sense.[/quote]

Thanks dim, yeah that “fiction” thing was a joke, but it expressed how I feel.

You say the worst thing you can do ignore your affections, and this seems so right, but it’s not always so simple when you are younger and dependent on an enviroment that doesn’t allow it.

I’m not gay, I’m bi, as I believe everyone is to point. I use to over there at the 100% straight mark, but I am probably at about the 80% straight mark. But jsut now, I feel like that 20% has got some catching up and expressing to do. Part of it is just say “f*** you” to the voices in my head that tell me to not be me as its not safe. It is safe now, so today I hired singing in the rain and bought some more fitting colourful cloths. Huarrah for me out of the box. I’m not “out of the closet”, I’m just not in anyones box ;-)

Decided I didn’t care for labels,and was just goign to do what ever the **** I wanted and fall for the trap of enjoying my life.

]]> chunkymove Sat, 29 Nov 2008 16:49:36 +0100 Reply from dimmingstar1376 /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4545145 sorry if that didn’t make sense.

]]> dimmingstar1376 Sat, 29 Nov 2008 02:33:21 +0100 Reply from dimmingstar1376 /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4545144 if your gay or homosexual or bisexual it truely is okay the worst thing you can do is torture yourself and ignore your affections. you say what you wrote is fiction but they way you say it sounds to me like you havent accepted it yet. seems like denial it happens. if it helps this might just be temporary but do your best you’ll only be hurting yourself so just think about it you’ll discover your true path of feeling just let time pass

]]> dimmingstar1376 Sat, 29 Nov 2008 02:32:45 +0100 Reply from littlenick /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4543552 Exactly!

]]> littlenick Fri, 28 Nov 2008 18:53:48 +0100 Reply from chunkymove /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4543543 [quote littlenick]I had my first “happy” dance just one minute ago.[/quote]

happy dance? How’s go for you? anything like …
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=bNF_P28…

]]> chunkymove Fri, 28 Nov 2008 18:51:06 +0100 Reply from littlenick /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4543529 I had my first “happy” dance just one minute ago.

]]> littlenick Fri, 28 Nov 2008 18:44:50 +0100 The post was edited by chunkymove /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-7399940 chunkymove Fri, 28 Nov 2008 18:32:03 +0100 Reply from chunkymove /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4543424 [quote ¡Nellie.Skywalker!]Huh.[/quote]

bluh!

It’s just a rant, no question asked. Just getting comfortable with reality vs the make believe I had to do for too long.

]]> chunkymove Fri, 28 Nov 2008 18:16:51 +0100 Reply from ¡Nellie.Skywalker! /post/222205-had-my-first-gay-dance-just-a-few-h#reply-4543231 Huh.

]]> ¡Nellie.Skywalker! Fri, 28 Nov 2008 17:23:17 +0100