My car is old. I don’t own my house, I rent. I am unemployed. I don’t get unemployment or other government benefits or a pension. I am 50 and finding out that my college degree and skill set are obsolete.

But I am happy.

My children are healthy and relatively well-adjusted. I’m healthy. I live near the beach, in a warm climate. I have a girlfriend. I have good friends, including many of you. I exercise. I use my mind. I try to let go of the past, and to find balance.

I am very imperfect, and okay with that. For now.

Although disillusioned and even disgusted with religion, I have hope that everything will work out, that there is a God (or will be as the Universe awakens).

Things will come and go. Health will diminish. Relationships, friendships will vanish, fade and sometimes reemerge or spring up like wildflowers.

When my body is dead and a feast for bacteria, some way, in some form (or formless), whether embedded in matter and energy or hidden in unknown an unknown dimension, I will exist, change, learn and grow. What you believe or don’t won’t stop me.

Until then, I’ll live now.

I’m Content!

I am a 31 yr old single mother of three kids-14,13,10. They between them all play 8-10 sports per year as well as other extracurricular activities due to the fact that I have instilled them with this thought process….

You only have one life to live so you wanna enjoy it. If something is not making you happy then change it. It is your life and only you can live it.

So people here have given you options to change it and you haven’t been exactly open to those, which it may not be your cup of tea, but it is still change. you won’t know what is going to fill your emptiness by not trying to fill it so you mind as well try something that you are interested in.

If you feel you are stuck in an everyday schedule then change it and add new things. Maybe you need to take some road trips, I take at least 2 vacations a year to places I have never been. This gives me enough travel to keep me content until my children are ready to be on thier own.

I have hobbies. I scrapbook feverishly. I would love to ski, but there’s no time or money for it anymore. And now that I don’t live in the middle of the ski resorts, I would have to drive for an hour and a half to ski.

[quote JellyBelly]My life is very intense>>>>>>>>>I have a husband; three small children, ages 3, 6, and 7. I just began work (9 months ago) on my master’s degree in elementary education. It’s a “post bac” accelerated program. I will have a nice, “mommy friendly” job when I’m finished in August; and I will pursue my PhD. eventually.I was a stay at home mother for 8 years. During that time, I volunteered for many community programs such as CASA; United Way; Right to Read; the Democratic Party; and was a member of MOPS.I own my own home. It’s in a wonderful neighborhood near a great elementary school. Our back yard looks out onto a park/playground. The house is moderately sized and classy, with solid wood (real) floors; oak trim; decks; etc. I have beautiful furniture…but we have only “beautifully furnished” 4 rooms to date…. :)I own a couple of rental properties, and they are pretty much always rented out for a profit.I have some money in savings. I have a traditional IRA; a roth IRA; and medical insurance. I have a couple of CD’s. I own a 2004 suburban and just purchased a 2008 cobalt that is a standard with a sun roof and leather seats….very fun to drive. I have never been in trouble with the law. I have two home based businesses, and they are relatively successful; I make a few hundred dollars a month with them.And I’m miserable…!!! I’m lonely. I have nightmares. I cry.[/quote]

I have troubles and problems like everyone else, but long ago decided to enjoy them, to see them as challenges to overcome, and not to allow them to make me miserable.

I have a husband; three small children, ages 3, 6, and 7.

I just began work (9 months ago) on my master’s degree in elementary education. It’s a “post bac” accelerated program. I will have a nice, “mommy friendly” job when I’m finished in August; and I will pursue my PhD. eventually.

I was a stay at home mother for 8 years. During that time, I volunteered for many community programs such as CASA; United Way; Right to Read; the Democratic Party; and was a member of MOPS.

I own my own home. It’s in a wonderful neighborhood near a great elementary school. Our back yard looks out onto a park/playground. The house is moderately sized and classy, with solid wood (real) floors; oak trim; decks; etc. I have beautiful furniture…but we have only “beautifully furnished” 4 rooms to date…. :)

I own a couple of rental properties, and they are pretty much always rented out for a profit.

I have some money in savings. I have a traditional IRA; a roth IRA; and medical insurance. I have a couple of CD’s.

I own a 2004 suburban and just purchased a 2008 cobalt that is a standard with a sun roof and leather seats….very fun to drive.

I have never been in trouble with the law.

I have two home based businesses, and they are relatively successful; I make a few hundred dollars a month with them.

And I’m miserable…!!! I’m lonely. I have nightmares. I cry.

I wake every day grateful for the day ahead… grateful the opportunities that are out there for me. I pray that I’m wise enough to see them, and brave enough to go for them. Do I suffer fear of the uncertain? Of course - everyone does to some extent. But when I go to bed at night, I’m grateful the day that unfolded for me. If I feel there could have been more I acknowledge that, and just tell myself tomorrow is another day, and that I can try again tomorrow.
Bright blessings ~ Richard

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Trick yourself?

Creating something beautiful and pleasing makes you enthused about it. I can’t do it though.

How about an art?

Only maid I got Alpha.

Might make me be more sociable and try to enjoy myself.

what does that signify?

No real passion. I was happier in 7th, got worse in 8th, got bit worse in 9th…

Eh, void isn’t the right word for it. I do lack a drive though.

No, let’s don’t get into “religion.” I have that (in my own fashion).

i am the void
****, that sounds like some emo rock band

Go climb Everest Florie or go to the Inauguration.

I want intensity. I feel I am sleep-walking, or just being a passive observer somehow. I don’t know what to do about it, that isn’t trite.[/quote]i know the feeling.you want a better life,to feel like your truly living and not just existing?I want to make sure b4 i say something not relevant

You need steady progress.

Take up running. I went from couch potato to running a half marathon in a year.

Take up biking. I biked to work and eventually did long trips with a great social group.

Travel. Explore new places, learn the language and culture.

Go to meetup.com.

I want intensity. I feel I am sleep-walking, or just being a passive observer somehow. I don’t know what to do about it, that isn’t trite.

Yes?

Calm’s the way to be.

Intensity is a waste of energy. Every peak has its deep valley.[/quote]

I’m tired of being calm!

Intensity is a waste of energy. Every peak has its deep valley.

Well, were all in this together then!

No!!

I also think we all should think a little more about wich influence we have on the world. We could be seeds of hope and positivity or we could be the opposite.

What about you?