like a machine, on track, like i was getting stuff done, focused, it felt kinda good actually..

Something you might want to consider is that this is something that is always with you, but that certain consumptions or activities might hinder it, such as, a poor diet (that is, processed foods (like hot pockets) or foods with excessive grease, sugar, etc. It can also be something that you DO eat/drink, like maybe when you get enough of certain amino acids, your brain kicks into high gear and you feel highly aware of your surroundings.

In addition, I find that when I spend extended periods of time “vegging out”, just watching reruns of Family Guy and just watching whatever’s on TV, rather than thinking about things and doing things, creating things, listening to good music, talking with people and showing a genuine interest in them… I find that my sensitivity fades as well. The mind is like a muscle which only stays large with use. The more you use your mind, the more uses you find for it.

I am glad that you are excited about the possibilities of feeling connected with your surroundings. Please just forgive nay-sayers, they simply haven’t experienced what you have. But we can still love them anyway… perhaps someday they’ll realize the interconnectedness of everything! (love that word)