i dont know much about PTSD really, but when your going through this sruggle you have to fight.(i dont mean litterly fight.)i have had many srtuggles that i have been through too,and even though your case is different than mine were, the only thing that really got me through them was to believe that i was going to get through them.
not only that though, at first i thought that whatever i was going through would just eventually go away. but im telling you it doesn’t and thats where i have learned my lesson. most people think the problem will just eventually go away so they’re reluctant, and just think that they’ll indure the pain and soon everthing will be over. things don’t work that way, heck LIFE doesn’t work that way! evreything seems messed up and screwed most the time.
but then i remeber good times and i cant wait to feel that way again. im telling you your going to get through this,your going to believe, your going to fight, and most of all not let anything stop you.
your going to get through this. and when you do the happiness will be exhilirating and you’ll be happy that you didnt end what could come to somthing so welcoming, so calming, that you never thought existed.

Umm, well, i’m extremely anxious. I keep having these weird and really scary sexually orientated ‘awake nightmares’, that my counsellor thinks are ‘flashbacks’. I don’t remember most of what happens in these nightmare like things, but my counsellor is suggesting that they may be repressed memories, and that I may have PTSD.

It’s freaking me out.

I can’t handle it.

I want these things to stop intruding on my mind. I want them to go away, so I never have to question them again.

I’m so scared of them. And i’m so scared they are real…