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Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you are going to get…

[quote Cajun]Heartland? Why noy drive for swift, come on did you just start driving last week? Dont drive for someone who gets no respect out on the road.[/quote]

If you read the question I ask, I’m buying my own truck, if I was to lease on to a company and pull van trailer then, so far the best paying I’ve found is Heartland, they are paying .94 cents a mile, all the rest I’ve seen are only paying .90 cents, Heartland is a debt free company, and it pays more than anyone else will pay me then, I would lease on with them, I’m not worried about getting respect, I’m trying to make a living……

The going rate seems to be .90 cents a mile. Heartland is the highest I’ve found at .94 with a .01 annual safety bonus, as far as a van, I guess I should go flatbed for a percentage of the load which would be a much higher…

People never cease to amaze me, I would bet that you would get a 100 different answers to that question. I guess I’m just me, I use the same screen name on every site I’m on…

Friday the 13th was definitely a lucky day for you!!!!!!

Don’t blow it, invest it, you may want to work until the day you die, but who is to say you will be able to….

Sell your house, put it up for sale today!!!!, go on Dave Ramsey’s website and look for his endorsed local provider in your town and hire that realtor to sell your house. If you rent and the refrigerator goes out you just call the landlord. You can’t afford the house now that you are divorced. If you aren’t working at a job that you can have dental insurance, you need to find a better job also… You are just going to have to start all over again and you will do everything right this time, and find a good man to share you life with….

Use that as an excuse to buy a new computer, thats what I would do!!!!!!

So who are you looking for and why, maybe I can help!!!!!

I was in band in high school and if you can’t do what it takes or be where you are suppose to, and you parents aren’t dedicated to make sure that all happens to then, then you need to quit, or dedicate yourself to doing so cause it doesn’t just effect you it effects the whole group….

I would recommend that you check out www.fhu.com that is Roy Masters foundation of human understanding this is one of his articles:

Surviving God?
How to Overcome Depression and Despair

by Roy Masters

Any lie believed and acted out produces a hypnotic state of sin. When you allow others to make you doubt your common sense, the natural loyalty to God emotionally transfers to a confusing and seductive source. From that point, when overwhelmed by emotional stress, doubt overrides reason, and the will of others begins to act out through you.

As if from nowhere, excuses arise, a myriad of little lies you tell yourself. If you can admit this, then you might glimpse a vain attempt to save face. To fall for the excuse is far more dangerous than the deception that led to the deed, as Adam belatedly found out.

The saving excuse is the ego surviving God’s redemption. The lying excuse dooms you to the morbid faith of doubting, that is to say, not wanting to be wrong. Because the truth is painful and not beautiful as it is supposed to be, you make the fatal mistake of becoming emotional, thereby rejecting the humbling inner light.

From the very first recorded excuse, the mechanism of survival has always backfired, magnifying our collective suggestibility to deception. Because the denial game saves you from the redeeming pain, the programming is unstoppable. Therefore, you are compelled to go on sinning and cannot change your faults. Most people cannot, or will not, see they are programmed.

Stubborn, and unable to stand the pain of shame, most people defend their miserable existence through excuses, religiously addicted to hearing lies as though they were truths. Slowly but surely, enlightened reason ceases to be trusted, and conscience becomes the enemy.

The soul should function as a sentry at the holy temple of your body, but the spirit of doubt emotionally drugs this guard to remain asleep on duty.

You could not help but believe the first lie because you were an easily confused child; you may not even remember the moment. However, the second lie you can see; it rises up as the excuse that shields you from the light of truth, against every folly and condemning you to a hopeless life of depression. Strong emotions, such as being upset, sustain the blame game with friendly lying enablers.

Do not remain disconnected from the Divine Power of faith in that emotionalized stupor. Be still and know that your painful conscience is in fact God’s salvation. Discover how to drop anger, because that is what keeps you emotionally lost in your head and blind to reality.

[quote christineobier]Hi,it ain’t that bad at all,smile!
YOU SURELY aren’t that badly off dear,consider myself in £ 20 k and salary attached already and i’ve got 2 kids to feed and pay child minding for.andd…. the list is long,
you are on the right track, just carry on paying what you can and remember, don’t whine over yesterday’s choices, yesterday is gone live fully today and don’t burden today with tommorrow’s worries, tommorrow is a speculation and today is the tommorrow you already worried about anyway.
have fun!!
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Thanks for the words of encouragement, I hope your situation improves also, you sound like a really wonderful person so I’m sure that it will… Thanks again John..

Some people are self destructive and they make choices that bring chaos into their lives. They are use to choas so when things get to going to well, they resort back to sabotaging their lives. You are too smart to do this to yourself. You deserve better so don’t sell yourself short, wakeup and think more than 5 minutes ahead, set goals in your life and work towards them!!!!

[quote ixluvxboy]i kno how u feel[/quote]

Well talk to me tell me all about it!!!!!!!!!!

Where is your family??? Why would you up and move off to a new city where you didn’t know anyone???? Why would a very serious relationship end because of financial reasons???? You are 22 years old, ditch the married guy and find someone your own age who hasn’t been married and doesn’t have kids!!!! A perfect marriage or relationship is a lot of work, so don’t make a difficult situation worse by adding more complications please!!!!! John…..