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ooooo i like it! :)

Do what makes you happy. :)

these are all great ideas! thanks! i just dont want my parents to spend all their savings and retirement money so i can go to college. i wanna help out too.

hmm…i guess i could babysit. anything else? I just need some simple ways to make money.

I dont have a car right now so I can’t get a job yet. No one would give me a ride, their all busy with their own lives.

accidently bump into him. its a classic, but it works :) it’ll be awkward but jus be rly sweet and start a conversation and see how it goes from there.

lol omg i dont kno!!!

oh sry it’s idlyxailsa16

my bad..

yup i see you on my buddy list lol

mine’s idlyxailsa

whats ur sn

lol wish i could read it, well if you ever have anything on here to read i’d love to read it lol

wow i see i see. :)

thanks :)
lol darn, i would have loved to have read something of yours.

(I wrote this about 6 months ago and i think i posted it up a while ago)

How is it that when you finally believe everything is going to be okay and you can finally live a good simple life…what made you believe this to be so, turns around and slaps you right across the face. How is it that you put yourself in that position when you knew that it would end up that way in the first place. Your world comes crashing down around you and you find yourself alone and hurt and wounded. When you fall in love with someone, you don’t recognize anything the same way you did before. You are willing to trade anything that means a lot to you just for this one person you hardly even know. You are willing to give up five years of friendship for a boy who is going to turn around and throw it back in your face. You ask yourself: Why did I do this? Who am I? What kind of person have I become? Why do I keep doing this to myself? Why does it hurt so much? Does he even care? Does he even know how much he meant to me? Did he know before? Was it ever worth it? Is giving your heart to someone even worth it?

I don’t want to live my life without someone… But I don’t want to live with this pain. I don’t want to move on with my life pretending that it’s okay when everyone around me can see that it’s not. I wish I could start my life over. I want to fix all of the mistakes that I have made. I want my life to be better. I’m so tired of this.

I thought maybe if I put in a little effort and poured my heart out to someone…everything would be okay. I thought that if I tried one more time to live my life with someone that I really liked, loved even, that everything would fall into place. I’m tired of love. I’m tired of the lies. I’m tired of getting my hopes up. I’m tired of getting hurt and killing myself the way that I am when there’s no real need for it. It has no purpose other than to break what’s left of my heart over and over again. So I’m going to take what’s left of my heart and put what I can of it back together and I’m going to keep walking forward. I won’t look back and I won’t dwell on the past. I’ll never forget and the pain will never die. But I refuse to reject myself and wallow in self-pity. I will make it through.