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So you finally saw the comment in your post lol

My mom was on prozac and did not like it at all. As a matter of fact she did not like none of the medications she was put on. Neither did i because i had to be next to when she was going through all her side affects. Im terrified of pills because i know what they can do to a person. I had to drive my mom to the hospital once because she had a bad reaction to some medication.

So thanks for your advice but i refuse to put that crap in my body

Hello - sorry i missed you in chat - just saying hi and how are you? - Mas

I’m back early. I see you’re still awake. Lol.

Did you see my messages on Gmail? You didn’t reply and I think you got signed out.

I was worried as hell. I’m glad it’s just your Internet. Do you know when you’ll get it working again?

Gah! It did, stupid Yahoo. Night night, sleep well.

Oh, well then that clears it all up then. At least you admit to typing it. Lol.

And no, I was talking about about when you asked if I had plans.

My Yahoo is sending fake messages? Lol. Or just that it might be possessed?

(9/9/2008 12:08:02 PM): where’d this come from?
(9/9/2008 12:08:16 PM): is it because I thought that song was about me?
(9/9/2008 12:08:24 PM): is it?

Want to make a wager on that? Lol.

Weird. And it was only 2 hours ago…

I don’t know. You typed it, not me! Lol.

Somehow the offlines are being saved to my archives.

You asked “where’d this come from?” and then asked if it was because you thought the song was about you. I don’t even remember playing any songs then.

Meh, maybe it’s just me then.

Oh, and what’s with the offline about a song I was playing? I wasn’t playing any song I don’t think.

(Ugh, and I just shouted this to myself before. Dumb)

Lol. Styx, blondie.

I’ve never noticed it until now, but Tommy Shaw sounds like Freddie Mercury.

Lol. No. I just found it funny in your response. I was supposed to be going to the annual show with Caz today, but I couldn’t. That’s why she came over last night.

Lol. Because when you asked me if I had any plans today, I told you no, I did but they fell through. Then you said “No I didn’t”. I asked you “huh?” but you didn’t answer after you said brb.

It wasn’t anything harsh if that’s what you’re paranoid about, I just found it funny. Unless I got lost and you were talking about something else I missed.

your picture is really cool(:
DollyxXx

Hey Pae

Well, if you’re patient enough to wait a while, you could download MSN again. Lol. I haven’t been having any problems with that one.

Nope. Keeps saying “could not connect to the HTTP tunnel”. Whatever that means.

My Yahoo has gone loopy and I can’t even sign in. :| I’ve been trying for hours.

My ICQ for some reason has decided to behave itself now. I’m logged on there.

I had a trojan, and it’s still scanning.

Quit apologizing. As far as I’m concerned, whatever was sad about that subject never needs to be apologized for from you. I don’t even care if you apologize for anything else anymore, just not that.

Hopefully my Yahoo will behave itself tomorrow. I have to get this damn computer fixed before everything stops working.

I love you too, so much. I always will. Sleep well, or I’ll kick your ass.

Thank you very much Pae :D

yeah bye pae hope to chat with you again your real cool,it’s been fun!!!*big hug’s from me to you*

yeah bye pae hope to chat with you again your real cool,it’s been fun!!!*big hug’s from me to you*

Though, there’s a brightside. Apparently my Yahoo is working now that I’ve rebooted.

ICQ isn’t letting me sign in now.

Stupid piece of faeces! DX

Adicted to you.

I don’t know why I care so much,
But it’s so hard to be dead to the world,
I just can’t let you feel this way,
Because you have to know how much you mean to me.

You know I’m addicted to,
Your smile it makes me smile,
Your words they make me blush,
Your thoughts I need to read them,
You know I’m addicted to you.

I can feel your arms around me,
Even though they have never been there,
I always know when your holding me,
Because I am holding you too.

I can’t wait till we meet,
I just can’t wait to be with you,
Although I guess, It will hurt when your gone,
I will miss you even more.

You know I’m addicted to,
Your smile it makes me smile,
Your words they make me blush,
Your thoughts I need to read them,
You know I’m addicted to you.

Even though these words seem strong,
Please don’t be scared by them,
You know I thought you felt it too,
But maybe it’s just me.

I am so happy talking to you,
You seem happy talking to me,
I hope you never go,
I’ll be waiting an eternity for you.

You know I’m addicted to,
Your smile it makes me smile,
Your words they make me blush,
Your thoughts I need to read them,
You know I’m addicted to you.

Please don’t return my heart,
I’ll be keeping yours forever,
Please don’t forget this song,
And don’t ever forget me.
By Pollyanna

Hey :)
Thanks…I sorted stuff out last night…I feel bad for being like that on the chatroom when everyone else was…We don’t need that kinda negativity…

Polly x x

idk if i’ll ever be ok again pae but thanx

Cause of your avatar. It’s what he says in that scene, before he slaps him. =P

SLAP!

What did the five fingers say to the face? :)

cool! never seen a avatar like that. was it free? where can i go to get something like this ? appreciate the advice. new here thanks!

I’m really sorry for the way I behaved. I feel like utter shit, and it has nothing to do with you. I’m not mad at you for ANYTHING. Please don’t ever think that.

I was going to get someone from chat to give you a message in your shouts, mainly because I didn’t know if you wanted to hear from me. Hell, I don’t blame you really.

But what the hell is the point in that? I’ve already sent you e-mails to all three of your addresses, and an offline stating so too. Yeah, I’m a chicken shit, we both know this.

Basically, I wanted to say I was sorry. You have no idea how sorry I am. I feel like absolute shit, and rightly so. I love you, with all my heart, no matter what. No matter how it’s returned, I always will.

I just wish we could get passed all this. Please, if you want a few days break, let me know. THAT’S what I meant by dissapearing, to give you some space from me. Lord knows you need it lately. It’s not to get away from you, it’s not to avoid you, I was doing it for you. But I guess you didn’t see it like that.

I’m really sorry for the things I said and the way they were said. I love you.

pae be nice lol

got it.

mina2ty

ok thanx pae :) you coming back to chat?

Sometimes my mind goes corny
So I’m just here to say
I love you more than I can describe
And it grows more every day

You make me smile with random thoughts
You make me laugh with tears
Sometimes I fear I fly too much
And it’s only been a year

You’re my everything, my happiness
But most of all, my friend
And all this day, I’ve just need to say
I’ll love you ‘til the end.

I’m sorry for being rude to you on the reverse racism post.

In my experience, when people ask that, they really don’t care, they just want to belittle you. Not everyone’s the same, though, and I forget that.

So I really do apologize to you. Sorry :/.

If you ever get another one Pae - send it to me - trust me it would be my pleasure to recieve it and stop this. Hope you ok - Mas

Please do not send chain letters on this site.
Thank you,
Mitzy and the Mod Team

Pae - I was just leaving you a shout to make sure you are ok. Couldnt help but notice that not-very-cute chain letter - I dont know your motivation but seriously stop it right now. Anyway I just wanted you to know you are in my thoughts and if you ever want that helpline number just get back to me - mas

i’m okay really, i have aspergers and i’m sure if you had known you wouldnt have sent it me. i take everything at face value, very literal, my mind doesnt switch off and so even though i dont believe that crap, i’ve read it and therefore struggle with accepting its not real, if that makes sense.
JUST DONT DO IT AGAIN

There is one thing I’m going to suggest to you - and you can trust me on this one. I want you to phone a helpline - not AA - no questions, no real names you just call and talk. They are run completely by ex-alcoholics. They are very kind and gentle people who have walked in your boots so they arent there to judge. They dont even care if you are pissed when you phone but my God - I odnt know how they do it but they have you spilling your guts in minutes - and they dont even ask questions. I phone a couple when things were really bad and was astounded at the grace and understanding. They dont make suggestions but they do let you put things into perspective. I honestly believe that it is time you spoke to a living human voice about this even just for your own peace of mind. I’m not b*ll-sh*tting you or sending you off on some quest. Those people are like no other organisations and there is one in every state so if you fancy leaving the name of your nearest big town or city in a shout - I’ll leave you a number that is open 24 hrs a day. I cant explain how they are better than anyone else - I think it may just be that they had to hit rock bottom before they got to where they are today. All you have to do is shout the city and I’ll leave the number - wont contact you unless you contact me - I’m sure you have enough to think about right now - Mas

I know it doesnt make me qualified to even guess what you are feeling but I can very much warn you of the consequences of keeping ignoring this. It will catch up, health-wise, job-wise, relationship-wise, and you will literally be left with nothing. I’m a nag - I know I am - people on this site get fed up about me talking about drinking - crack and heroin now that would be more exotic - but what they cant see is that the one thing that is legal to buy from a shop wont just kill you - it will take everyone else down with you. - Mas

Jeez Pae - I’d say that I have sailed way too close to the wind and if it hadnt have been for the strange jobs I had I probably was borderline more than once. Thing was motherhood totally killed that one, thankfully. But, but, but - I had to pull someone that everyone had written off as dead back from the jaws of alcoholism, went to the meetings, hung out at Rehab (they recommended this so he wouldnt keep running away). Been there when the panic has set in - been sent out for a bottle of gin at 5 in the morning. Replaced the furniture he pissed on when he had fits, cleaned up the sick off my walls, tried not to mind when things I treasured got broken. Pae - it was like how my life could have been had I taken the wrong turn. But yes I can honestly say that I got so bloody immersed in it that it may as well have been me - and BTW - I’m a tough nut to crack but it nearly did me in. - Mas