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hello… email me.. lil_bit_shie @ hotmail . com

miss ya loads.. love ya… shie..
logging off now… ttyl

Hiii hun. What email address are you on? Email me on the lxa @ live.co.uk and i’ll reply. I get it to my phone now :)

Can’t wait to hear from ya babes glad your still popping in now and then xxx

omfg.. how the hell are you???????? i have not heard from you in forever!!!! you better email me and start explaining missy!!! hehehheheh.. no.. i actually have no idea.. i havent been on help in ages actually.. havent really had time on the computer much… health not doing so well… dr appointments pretty much every day lately… email me though.. i have email on my phone.. love ya loads.. miss ya too.. shie

Have you heard from Nikko? She removed me from her msn yesterday and I found this post!!

I’m worried… http://help.com/post/314491-hi-shie

as for being immune to drugs.. yes.. im immune to many drugs out there.. but as alternative therapy.. i have done many things such as physical therapy etc and it only causes more pain. as for the pain meds.. i dont take them all day long.. every day.. i take them when i cant move… other than that i will suffer with my pain until then… the pain scale the drs give you for pain… 1 through 10, im always a 6… everyday.. but i deal… its when i reach a 9 or 10 when i just cant move at all is when i take my pain meds.. so im not taking them all the time… just when i can not move.. other than that, i will suffer with my pain..

as for my kids… yes.. i sooo want to tell you .. i just cant right now… cuz i dont want to jinx myself.. lol.. it is fantastic news thus far!!! i still cant see them… just know that some of my emails to higher ups have been answered.. (higher than the judge and cps who took my kids) and once i get final answers in my corner… i will for sure be making the post here on help.com and sending emails to all my friends!!!! but until then… i just want to keep it quiet so i dont jinx it… thank you for crossing everything for me.. heheheheh even your boobs… lol.. my friend maria is crossing hers too.. lmfao hahahahahahahahahahahaha

that is awesome that you are telling shit to take a leap… how awesome!!
as for me.. im on seroquel and my paxil… for my bipolar, depression and post traumatic depression… im learning to smile and accept myself and am in therapy… thus far its ok..

but im so glad to hear that you are doing ok.. that makes me smile!!! :) yay raver!!

many hugs, love shie

Hey my lovely, I’m so sorry to hear about your pain :(

Maybe you should think of an alternative therapy? I mean you’ve had so many drugs you must be immune by now? Why not give the pain killers a break and try something else? Maybe even make a post asking for ideas?

I can’t wait to hear about your kids!! you must email me as soon as you get the news!! But whatever it is my fingers legs and boobs are crossed!! lol.

I’m doing really well, coping very well with whatever shit life throws at me and I love it!! Its like…screw depression etc! I don’t give a crap about bad stuff anymore - its a nice feeling too!! xxxxxx

hi babes… things are going. the pain is getting the better of me lately.. its not just in my back any longer, its from my neck to my back to my entire arms.. im now on pain medication however even that doesnt touch it really… of course, im not one who takes it every day all day long… i take it when i just cant deal any longer and will suffer until then… ive gotten a bit of good news on my kids however, im not really wanting to share it until i get more because i dont want to jinx myself… and get my hopes up.. so only myself, rog and my lil brother know about it.. i cant wait to share with everyone… but im waiting to hear a bit more from a judicial court judge before i pass out my news.. other than that im living day by day…
how have you been? hope things are well for you.. are you still working? how are things with the home front? hope that is good as well.. love ya, shie

How are things hun? Love ya!! xx

no, i havent…
i was talking to my lil brother yesterday and he was telling me that there is a white figure that keeps showing up to him.. he can only see the outline of a body.. no face or anything… its just a white glow.. he is 21 and scared to death of these things.. i keep telling him that they arent there to hurt him… but are there to give him a message… but he doesnt stick around to find out.. but it has shown itself twice now with in the last week..
i have no idea what is going on.. the only thing i can think of is my dad.. but i will keep you updated.

Hmmm…strange…well as of yet we have no death here… hope its nothing like that though. If theres anything else though I’ll let you know. Have you seen anything lately or been in contact with anyone?

the only thing i can think of is death.
that is the only time ’she’ would come around.
as that is the only time she has ever come around in the past… to tell us of someone passing. why she came to you, idk.. maybe because she only came to my mother before.. and it could possibly be my dad’s health at stake.. and she doesnt know how to come to me.. idk..
that is the only thing i can think of..

lol! Well if its that description then it might be. I’ll ask but i’m having trouble lately, my clairvisual is really advanced but my clairaudio is not too good :( so I don’t think she’ll answer but i’ll try get a nod or something. Is there anything you could think of as to why she’s here? She keeps looking at me, straight in the eyes- she’s very still and she looks a bit sad or upset.

yeah, with some meds we get blister packs.. however, not often thank god.. cuz they drive me nuts.. lmfao…
really???? hmmmmmm…
the only one that that would describe would be my grandmother hazel.. she had chin length hair.. she was thin but not too thin… and she had bright blue piercing eyes.
she had strawberry blonde hair with a touch of grey starting… and was very white or pale looking.. she has come through to my mother before when her husband was dying..
she always wore dresses as well.. floral patterns mostly.. and she was in her 70s i believe but looked a bit younger than that… and yes, she had tiny wrinkles and her skin was a little “stretched” on her face like she lost weight .
try asking her if her name is hazel.

hiiii again lol. aww bless ya. I know how you feel in a way though, i’ve got a lil basket 2 haha. Although over here we have all ‘blister packs’ and not bottles, don’t know if you have those over there?

Anyway!! Good news I *think*… I woman has come to me, a spirit obviously, and she hasn’t said anything but I know its for you.

Her description is:

About 5ft 5, very thin but not skinny. I would say in her late 60s or maybe early 70s but looks a bit younger. She looks young because her hair is still as long as down to the same level as her chin. Its straight and is like a bob cut or a bowl type cut, its very neat and straight and is a medium colour grey. She has blue eyes and is quite pale - not very tanned. Obviously she’s wrinkly, I can see the wrinkles on her face and neck etc. I think it looks like she’s lost a little bit of weight since becomming a pensioner/senior etc.
Shes wearing a blue skirt like the deep blue in this picture: http://animals.nationalgeographic.com…
and its got like bits on it that look like a pale blue maybe small flowers or single petals on their own.

The top is like a pale blue sleeveless but not strappy top with a vneck butten bit. then there is a loose peachy pink scarf, but its a dress scarf. Not a fluffy winter scarf.

Sorry if this is totally weird and I know its out of the blue but she’s looking at me lol and I know- somehow that she’s here for you for some reason?

yeah, im feeling like a lil old lady.. you know how they have the top of their fridge full of medicine bottles.. hahahaha.. well, i have this lil wooden basket full of bottles… lmfao… omg.. morning meds, afternoon meds.. and night meds.. its ridiculous.. and im STILL in pain… and its a lot worse than before… my whole top 1/2 is in agony.. from my finger tips all the way up my arms, to my back and up my neck… ~sigh~
but one good thing.. i have never slept better.. hahahahahahahhahahahah
you have a dr’s appt tomorrow? that is good. you are reducing your meds??? why? are you feeling better?

oowww well thats true, you’ll slowly get used to things I guess, I mean at least your on what you should be on!! Honestly what else can you do other than suffer as you said. I’ve got my dr appointment tomorrow, I may be reducing my meds!!

sleeping… lots and lots of sleeping… im on so many friggin drugs due to the pain lately that they have me sleepy…. i hate it so much… but im thinking i would rather sleep than suffer…

Well i’m slowly getting better. I mean i’m ok now, just ironing out the creases!

So what other things have you been up to? xx

hi hun.. yeah, things here have been down the toilet too… lost a very good friend of mine… :( i mean, they are still alive and kicking… but i had to let them… long story and rather not get into it..
so sorry that things arent going well..
i have been put on seroquel along with my paxil. its for my bi polar. i feel mellow, my ups and downs have so far, seemed to disappear… which are awesome for me..
love ya, shie

Missing you hun… things were bad but i’m back now. I’m sorry i’ve neglected to send any emails or anything. I should be with my friends at the bad times not shut them all out.

Anyway.. you know I love you no matter where you are, get back to me - talk to me when you can. xx

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