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Please send a shout to Cami. Her dad passed away yesterday. Thank you.

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Alice,

A friend of yours dropped by to post something for you.

How are you hanging on?

Also, i would like to ask how you and Ben going? I would love to hear from both of you. It’s been so long.

Hugggss! let me know how is going.

I have to go iron, and my husband is on his way home so I won’t be back for a couple of hours, but I worry about you Alice. You’ve been through so so much. I’m here whenever you need someone to talk to. (((((hug))))))

ya that was only a while ago…i heal slow because or reasons unkonwn…i get sick real easy and i burn suer fast in the sun…but the blood tests all come back good…it’s knid of funny but it’s like i am destened to die, my past my present my future i feel so small sometimes and then i stare to remember all the troubles that i have and i fall into a well of depression that my brother used to pull me out of. and now with him dead, i just wish i was dead sometimes.

Oh that was just recently?? I had no idea it had just happened!

Oh jeez! You need to go get those restitched?
I’ll ask what the wounds are from, but you don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to.

Why are you sore?
My day has been awful, so much financial stress. But other than that everything is ok.

Hi Alice. How are you doing today?

It has. I’m sorry too. I hope we can talk again soon. :)

Hi. you Ok?

I am doing alright, happier than before. :)
But i kept on looking for you for the past months.

Just making sure you are fine. Take care Alice, i’ll be going for now.
It was a pleasure to meet you and I hope to hear from you again.
If you need anything let me know…I’ll listen. Take care and keep doing good.

Good to know your shy, I can identify with that, are you doing OK now? Are your emotions fine?

As usual, sexy, hot and super listening ;) How bout you?

Good. I like honesty.
Pleasure to meet you BTW.

Your avatar looks highly artistic Alice, looks full of substance, emotion, very unique.
Had to tell you.

Heeeyyyyy!!! let me know, how is it going?

Yes i am doing alright!

i just got out of the hospital…

Top of the list?

or not, thats ok. just shout at me any time.

no problem. feel free to talk to me about anything, i’m a very good listener… or reader. whichever. :P

Hello Alice, i got a new notice of your post. I thought of dropping by to see how you are.

How is little Alice?

Hello. I’ll be on MSN right now~

Hi there! hugs back! i hope things are doing okay.

I am also sorry you were away for weeks. But i do hope staying away helped you with things–making day to day clearer. Sometimes we also need a break. :)

I miss you Alice! let me know if you need to talk. I will listen.

See you soon!

Hiya Alice, how are you? Long time no chat. :)

I can’t talk for long as I’m getting sleepy, but I just wanted to drop by and say hi.

Hello Dear Alice,

I have been very busy today. Went to many offices to make a follow on something very important. Got a letter from a friend that left me teary eyed. But i am fine.

How are you my dear?

I always remember to fetch some mails myself from you shoutbox! lol you are such a sweet girl!

And i missed you too sooo much! :)

And thank you too for all the nice words, such a lovely friend.

ok talk to you later…i was nice to talk to you i missed talking to you you make me feel not alone and not so scared

Thank you lilies

AWwww thank you dear but your Ben is going to be very busy taking care of you. My own Ben could stay with me through tough times too. Relationships are always tested. It would take how long till one would know that the Ben she has picked is indeed the right Ben. :)

So much for all the ‘Ben’s, i am going to take shower. i’ll be back in a while.

So if i won’t catch you here later, Take care my dear, will you? keep me posted hun! I am always with you!

hahha! well, why not? you want to clean the whole day?

I can join you there too! okay let’s watc dvd! :)

Now be careful when you do things at home, especially taking the stairs. Or walking through a wet floor. I am so bored with house works i tell you, i’d prefer working in the office the whole day. hehe!

I need a man who could do the cleaning for me. lol

Well, you need people to take care of you! :) Diving Intervention, i am not religious, but i believe in faith. and sometimes, miracles. They may come as soon as we start wondering why it took them a long time to arrive.

yea…use em while you got em…it will take devine intervention to fie em now…

i hate it when he babies me so he won’t

I wish the doc could tell you what else could be done with it hun, did he tell you something about the eyes lately?

Thank goodness! :) I was hoping you’d tell me it did not happen just today!

So you see, you have made it through. Are your eyes okay, i mean a lot better than days back?

Oh my, i kinda know difficult things are Alice. But playing with death is not the answer. Were you trying to test yourself if you can really hurt yourself? certainly you can. BUT listen, you know you have made some important steps to help you with the healing. Ziza would be glad to see you survive. Ben would not like to see you suffer some more.

So hurting yourself would not solve a thing. And you are alive and going through the difficult time is what we are after now. It is still worth living for hun.

If something bad would happen to me, if i make a bad decision in my life, would there be a ‘Ben’ who’d stand by me. I doubt it.

He cares a lot about you and he could not leave you when he knows you are not feeling well. And he wants to stay beside you when you deal with difficult things.

hmm…he stays with me because of what i tried to do a while ago

Found it. Ben wrote it a few months back.

i made this poem for lilies today

With a flower in her hair: by Ben

Today i met an angel, with flowers in her hair

Although she won’t admit it, she’ll always be there

When life takes a turn, and for the better it is not

the angel with the flowers, can help you on the spot

i know that it is foolish, but i beleive in this

she can lift you off your knees, with an o soft angel’s kiss

so even when your sad, and life has got you down

you need seek the only angel, with the lilies for a crown

-Hugs Lilies- have a good day and be happy, be as happy as you made me and Laura ok

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How cute! how nice it is to have a friend like Ben! and a guy friend at that and even boyfriend. Well, not all guys would sit and wait up for you and make you feel alright.

You are very lucky.

hahaha!!! haha! way too funny, poor Ben, he might think he does not do anything marvelous. But i see he has been a good friend to you :)

It is too much of a story and talking about it now would not help. :) There was this post that was authored by one of the users here, and it says that facing bad moments could help one understand why they feel that way and that one’s decisions are sometimes based on what happened in their past.

All the bad things came back, i felt numb, i almost shivered. But i know someday i have to face it. Not now, but when i am ready.

yes ben wrote you the poem

Oh poor Ben! is he the same guy who liked to write poems for me? hehe!

Yes of course dear, i meant what i said! I never had a good friend when i was young. All were nice acquaintances. It was only in college when i learned how to keep friends.

Because maybe i felt like i have forgotten things that happened to me. But you know what, i realize that actually, i am not healed from it just yet. Certain things keep crawling back now that i have matured. I could not help it, but it keeps coming back.

That is why, i support you going through the healing process.

And that i am going with you.

When something like this happened to me when i was young, i wished there could be someone i could hold on to. But sadly there was none. And i had to keep things by myself. I was always taught to keep mum about things that hurt me, I was brought up in such a way that talking about my fears and the bad things that happened to me is supposed to be kept because washing dirty clothes in public is not allowed.

Now that i have grown, i realize how pity it was to live in such place where i was.

I see the strength I have in you, thesame fighting spirit.But the only difference is, I am the one whom you can be with in that dark place. Just hold my hand.

Oh it is not stupid. I WISH I COULD GO WITH YOU! I really do! but because i am far away, i will be there with you in spirit. When you have to go there, I will be with you and i will hold your hand tight as you talk to him. Be not afraid. I never leave.